"I won't go, that's not the Gu Yining I know, it's just the same name and surname, I won't go, I won't go!"
That night, a door seemed to separate two worlds. Outside the door, Shu Xiaobai couldn't get in, and inside the door, Tan Jingyan couldn't come out.
Shu Xiaobai didn't sleep all night, lying on the bed with his clothes on, holding his mobile phone close to him, afraid that Tan Jingyan would call and she would be dead asleep and not hear it. At first, she kept tapping on the door panel, hoping that Tan Jingyan inside could hear it, and gave herself a response. She was worried that she would do something bad, and even went to the room supervisor of the hotel to ask for the key to the room.
After opening it, she found that Tan Jingyan was just quietly leaning against the corner, her eyes distracted.
Originally, I wanted to help her up and let her rest on the bed, but I stopped after taking a step closer. After thinking about it, I decided to leave this space to herself.
Everyone has to learn to bear, face and grow, right? Although the fact is as cruel as a knife that cuts you beyond recognition, you have to make up your mind to bandage the wound, apply medicine to the wound, and wait for it to heal instead of rotting with it
So Shu Xiaobai withdrew, she closed the door again, and let Tan Jingyan, she stayed outside with her eyes closed, waiting from the dark night to the dawn.
Because the alarm clock was set at seven o'clock, the phone rang on time in the morning. Shu Xiaobai struggled to get up, and the first thing he did was to run to the door to see if there was any sound. But it was very quiet inside, Shu Xiaobai thought, Tan Jingyan must have fallen asleep after a night of exhaustion, why not go downstairs to buy some breakfast and then come back.
Secretly opened the door a gap, and saw Tan Jingyan lying on the bed with her clothes on, with her back to Shu Xiaobai, so she didn't know if she was asleep or not.
After Shu Xiaobai closed the door lightly, he turned around and went to the bathroom to freshen up, changed his clothes, and went downstairs to buy breakfast. The hotel where I stayed actually provided breakfast service, especially the buffet in the western restaurant area, but in Tan Jingyan's state, Shu Xiaobai didn't think she was in the mood to eat the buffet.
After a long detour, I searched for a popular breakfast shop while navigating with my mobile phone. I bought two big bags of steaming breakfast and went back to the hotel room. And the pair of shoes she left at the door were gone.
Shu Xiaobai dropped the breakfast in his hands in panic, and rushed to the room to find Tan Jingyan without taking off his shoes.
How could she take advantage of her carelessness and leave, where would she go? Shu Xiaobai was so anxious that tears came out, and what was even more exaggerated was that Tan Jingyan didn't even take the mobile phone away, and just put it on the bedside.
The moment Shu Xiaobai picked up the phone, a note floated down from the place where the phone was originally placed on the table. When he picked it up, it was Tan Jingyan's handwriting¡ª¡ª
Xiao Bai, I'll go out for a walk, and I'll be back before dinner.
The current time is past eight o'clock in the morning, and there are still so many hours before dinner time, Shu Xiaobai is so anxious that she is about to cry, even if she leaves a note, she will still be worried.
I didn't bring my mobile phone, Shanghai is so big, where will Tan Jingyan go? I thought about many possibilities, but finally decided on the Nine Heavens Cemetery. Shu Xiaobai was not even in the mood to eat breakfast, so he hurriedly stuffed a few mouthfuls of buns into his mouth, then picked up his bag, put on his room card and ran out
In fact, Tan Jingyan didn't go to any cemetery, but returned to the alley again, her long hair draped over her shoulders, and the white shirt from yesterday was used as a base under her royal blue woolen coat. In such a cold weather, she just dressed like this and came to this place again.
This is the place where Gu Yining lived and had fond memories for a while.
At this time in the morning in the alley, there are many more people than yesterday. Many young people came out while eating breakfast, holding briefcases in their hands, as if they were going to work.
Tan Jingyan walked purposefully to the innermost place, where the old grandma from yesterday was standing by the door, arranging the red scarf around her grandson's neck, patting his shoulder and smiling as if giving instructions.
Seeing Tan Jingyan again, besides surprise, the old lady's face was full of kindness.
"Little girl, why are you here again?"
"Grandma, who is this sister?"
The child curiously raised his head and asked grandma, who patted him on the shoulder, asked him to say hello to Tan Jingyan, and then took him to the entrance of the alley to wait for the school car to pick him up.
Tan Jingyan stood quietly at the door and waited. When the old grandma came back, she nodded and said hello: "Grandma, I take the liberty to come to visit again. I want to ask if you have the key to Grandma Li's house across the street. I think, go and have a look." Yining the place where they lived."
Granny didn'tcold.
"When you hid things from me, what was your original intention?"
Apart from the dryness in the voice, it was blame.
Qiao Shaoqian can't even hear these things, he can't say that he understands Tan Jingyan very well, but he can still see the daring to love and hate from her.
No matter what the original intention was or how well the words were said to keep Gu Yining's affairs from her, in her opinion now, they are probably all ridiculous excuses.
Tan Jingyan didn't want to waste time here, she reached out and pushed Qiao Shaoqian away: "Is he on top?"
He refers to Gu Yichen.
"Um."
"Tell me the exact location."
When the sound of high heels gradually faded away, Qiao Shaoqian covered his forehead and sat down on the marble steps with some frustration, his long legs resting casually on the two steps below.
The world seems to have stopped suddenly, and there is an invisible thin line that divides this space into two parts, one part is where Qiao Shaoqian is still, and the other part is Tan Jingyan who is approaching Gu Yichen step by step.
Next to the ear, there is Gu Yichen's deep and faint voice, talking to Gu Yining¡ª¡ª
"Tingwan is very similar to you, she doesn't like to eat salty or spicy things"
"I heard that she is very obedient. She said she misses her aunt"
Tan Jingyan stopped when she was about five steps away from Gu Yichen. She was standing less than ten meters behind him, and she could hear him chatting with Gu Yining in a low voice.
But it was also those words that made her walk so heavy that she couldn't even take a step.
I have never heard Gu Yichen tell a story, nor have I heard him explain certain small things in such a soft and natural tone.
Tan Jingyan knew how much Gu Yining relied on Gu Yichen before, and now she knows how much Gu Yichen loves his sister Gu Yining.
When Shu Xiaobai ran up panting, his hair was in a mess, and he was stuck in traffic all the way here, afraid that he would miss Tan Jingyan if he was a step too late. He was still clutching the note written by the old grandmother in his hand, which did not mention the location of Gu Yining's tombstone, and checked with the administrator for a long time.
When running up the marble steps, the moment he met Qiao Shaoqian, Shu Xiaobai's eyes widened. Her incredulity was exactly the same as Qiao Shaoqian's fright.
"How will you be here?"
"How will you be here?"
Having said the words almost at the same time, Shu Xiaobai collapsed on the ground with some dejection: "I came to look for Jingyan, have you seen her already?"
Qiao Shaoqian silently pointed to the position behind him.
When did Gu Yichen discover Tan Jingyan, when a shadow appeared in front of him, he didn't pay attention, thinking it was Qiao Shaoqian, but when a photo album slipped in front of him, his heart was shocked.
Looking up, she saw Tan Jingyan's lost face.
Some things, if you listen to others, you will never be as shocking as what you have seen yourself. Tan Jingyan thought that after one night, from the alley to here, she could accept the news that Gu Yining had left her a little bit, even if she couldn't accept it completely, at least she would no longer feel that it was someone deceiving her.
But when I saw the photo on the tombstone with a smile on it, my mind went blank, my scalp was pulled back one after another, and the coolness from the soles of my feet to my back was so fast that you couldn't get used to it.
The coldness and pain hit like a tsunami without warning.
"Jing Yan"
Gu Yichen stood up, took a step back, and looked at the woman in front of him in disbelief, why was she here, why did she know this place!
Countless questions came to his mind, but he knew that the most important thing was not to ask her these, but
"Ningning"
Tan Jingyan's voice was very soft, but very hoarse. She sat down on the marble table and slowly touched the photo with her fingers. At first, she only touched very lightly and slowly, but later, the frequency of her fingers It's getting faster and faster, as fast as if you want to cut out the photo.
"What are you doing, what are you doing!"
Gu Yichen stopped Tan Jingyan, he pulled his finger, accidentally slipped and fell on the sharp corner of the stone tablet, his finger was cut immediately, and blood dripped out.
Without hesitation, Gu Yichen put Tan Jingyan's fingertips to his lips and sucked them away.
"It's all because of meit's all because of me"
Tan Jingyan repeated these five words absentmindedly, and tears fell drop by drop, hitting the stone tablet.
Looking at her so devastated, Gu Yichen's eyes were full of pain.
This is the reason why he doesn't want her to know
"It's not your fault, it's not your fault"
Gu Yichen hugged Tan Jingyan tightly, and the flowers that were originally placed next to the stele fell down because of their actions, and many petals fell off.
Tan Jingyan clenched her fingertips tightly, closed her eyes, and bit her lips.
"Why, why, why didn't you tell me!"
Yesterday, there was not a single message, so sad!
Gu Yining's death was the first blow to Yanyan, and the blows will follow one after another. Please protect your little hearts.
Looking at her so devastated, Gu Yichen's eyes were full of pain.
This is the reason why he doesn't want her to know
"It's not your fault, it's not your fault"
Gu Yichen hugged Tan Jingyan tightly, and the flowers that were originally placed next to the stele fell down because of their actions, and many petals fell off.
Tan Jingyan clenched her fingertips tightly, closed her eyes, and bit her lips.
"Why, why, why didn't you tell me!"
Yesterday, there was not a single message, so sad!
Gu Yining's death was the first blow to Yanyan, and the blows will follow one after another. Please protect your little hearts.