Sometimes I keep asking myself, is this life really what I want?
Living the life of a rich man that I have always longed for, being respected outside, enjoying life and drinking, having a beautiful wife at home, marrying the goddess I have always dreamed of, and forming an enviable familybut all of this , Is it really the future that I have been longing for most in my heart?
Standing in front of Sister Kewen's grave, I slowly put the rose in my hand next to her beautiful photo. I don't know why everything happened so suddenly. Everything in my life has changed drastically after a big dream
"Sister, brother came to disturb your rest again" I sat on the flat grass in front of the grave, took out a bottle of beer from my black pocket, took a big sip, and said, "I kind of miss those old days. It's been a while I still remember that time, the first time I saw you, we laughed and quarreled and became siblings, you helped me find a job, help me pursue girls, help me Anyway, I, Yang Chen, have always been too It's too bad, I have to make you think for me everywhere."
Taking a deep breath, I immediately drank the remaining half bottle of beer.
I still remember that Yang Xiaoyu and I were like brothers and sisters at that time, she helped me manage the cold drink shop, and I took care of her life But now, I have become the boss of the company, and she has become my assistant. Those caring words also lost the memory of going home after drinking too much wine.
Remember when An Ye and I called ourselves the best buddies in the world, what about now? He continues to make his music, and I don't know where to throw my guitar Except when he got married, I don't even know how he is doing now, whether he has a family or not, who is his wife, Is he all right?
I still remember Su Xuefei and I at that time, she was my goddess, we pressed the road together, faced the suffering and doubts in life together, faced the most vicious gangsters together, and spent the most beautiful time together
still remember¡¡
I silently took out my phone, looked at her photo on the screen, and stared blankly.
"Luo Qing"
Is she going to marry that rich kid already? And has such a lively and active girl really appeared in my life?
Her memory is gradually dissipating in my life, like the clouds in the sky, like the loose sand in the wind I even wonder if the past with her is all an illusion fabricated by myself, but It's just a mirror for me to escape from reality
If you are well, it will be sunny
I took out a bottle of beer and opened it, and sprinkled it on the grass around Sister Kewen: "Sister, I'm going back, take care."
Turning around, looking at the car parked by the side of the road at some point, I remained silent.
Su Xuefei looked at me in the car, and never disturbed my talking to myself in front of Sister Kewen's grave.
Sitting in the car, I closed my eyes and fell asleep. The past is becoming blurred. Maybe any of my choices are wrong, and the current life is not what I expected.
Depressed by poverty, I hope to get wealth, I hope to be able to stand up straight in front of others, but for wealth, I have lost moreBeing cheated and betrayed by love, I hope to get love, but because of a marriage, I lost everything Precious memories and the past, for the sake of love, I lost my way Defeated by ideals, I wish I could change the future, become the person I dreamed of, and live the life of those superior people, but for the sake of ideals, I I lost my relatives, lost my friends, and even lost so many feelings that I should have as a person.
"I wish this was just a dream" I thought about it, but tears flowed down my cheeks unconsciously.
Su Xuefei, who was driving in front, remained silent, but her movements became slightly stiff.
I don't know when, the car stopped, and I opened my blurred eyes in surprise, looking at Su Xuefei who was slowly turning back.
"Honey, do you really not want to live like this?"
"If this is a dream, I wish I could wake up, right away, right away." I said firmly.
"For me, stay, okay?"
I looked into her bright eyes and felt a pain in my heart, but compared to these good things, I lost too much.
"Even if this is just a dream, please stay by my side, okay?"
I lowered my head and dared not look at her, but the turmoil in my heart gradually calmed down because, this is not the life I want.
Sighing, Su Xuefei smiled wryly, leaned over and kissed my forehead lightly, the fresh fragrance was tangy, she smiled.?? Said: "Husband, maybe your choice is not wrong"
I looked at her in surprise, not knowing what this meant.
Su Xuefei gently put her arms around my neck, and whispered softly in my ear: "Husband, I love you goodbye."
All of this happened so suddenly that I didn't understand what the situation was like.
In a daze, I only heard a sentence circling in my heart
"If this is a dream, please wake me up." (Remember the website URL: www.hlnovel.com