This year's wind and snow came much earlier than last year, and walking on the road will always feel a long-lost coolness.
Wearing a black leather jacket that my mother once bought for me, I wandered alone on the road in Yichun. This road leads from my house to the small stone bridge in the west of the city. It is familiar and unfamiliar, and there is no one to accompany me. , but one more insight.
In a blink of an eye, it is Double Eleven, which is the Dog Abuse Day in the eyes of many people. Sadly, I also became single this year, maybe I can proudly call myself a single nobleman, but the real pain is only known to those who are in the torment of love. Different from others, I am a different kind, because I actually have a girlfriend, her name is Luo Qing, a very special girl. But at this time, I was still alone, because she disappeared a few months ago, and just disappeared into my life track without any signs, and left without leaving any information.
Stepping on the solid snow, I put my hands in my pockets, and I subconsciously looked for a cigarette, only to realize that I had quit smoking.
Speaking of quitting smoking is quite unreasonable, just because of a simple bet with her, maybe she was just joking, but I am serious Everyone said that in this love game or battle In the vortex, whoever is serious will loseMaybe I am unilaterally infatuated with Luo Qing, dreaming about the days with her in the future, yes, I am serious, thenDid I lose?
The road leading to the west of the city always looks quiet, with few vehicles, and the cold weather also makes pedestrians rare. I subconsciously shrunk my shoulders and looked at the brightly lit streets in the distance. The bustling life has its indescribable beauty, but I know that this does not belong to me. Being in it, maybe I will play crazy, but also Will fall, will lose faith.
Walking on the lonely road, if I used to call that kid An Ye, not to mention too much, at least I would have to come out and drink a few bottles of beer with my buddies, bragging about my ideals to be worthy of such a moment.
But now An Ye doesn't know where he is, saying that he is chasing his ideal, and he doesn't know how he and Youqin are doing now, have they made any progress? I shook my head and smiled bitterly. In fact, An Ye and Youqin are really a good match. They both came from playing music. The difference is that An Ye tends to be a professional, while Youqin is just a hobby buried in his bones.
I still remember singing with Youqin in the rain, and I still deeply remember the song "Someday" she sang. Hearing her voice, at least I think she is infatuated and needs to be loved, and the kind of scars that hurt the bone marrow cannot be resolved easily. Compared with Youqin's pain in love, An Ye seems too young and naive, and this gap in understanding is probably the biggest obstacle for the two of them to get along.
We in love are always fuzzy, giving you hope but not looking forward to it, giving you the process but no result.
I walked to the end of the road unknowingly, looking up, the stone bridge covered with a little snow is so holy at the moment, standing there quietly in the dark, there is no loud music, and no philistine people.
Walking up the stone bridge, to my surprise, there was a girl in a beige down jacket standing in the middle of the bridge, looking at the lake frozen into a mirror with ecstasy.
The girl's body was a little thin, and she was very thin in the cold wind. Her long hair was tied into a ponytail behind her, her face was a little pale, and her slender fingers were holding the cold stone bridge, which made people feel a little distressed.
I walked up to the girl silently, and followed her eyes to look at the lake reflecting the lights. After a while, she asked in a low voice: "The business in the store should be very hot today, don't you need to go back?"
Although she still didn't look at me, I shook my head self-consciously, smiled and said, "It's you, why are you here alone?"
"Because there are a lot of memories here." The girl took a long breath after speaking, stood up straight, turned to look at me, and smiled slightly, "Do you think people really have an afterlife?"
"No way." I also turned my back against the guardrail of the stone bridge, looked up at the mocking starry sky, and sighed, "It's just people's distracting thoughts, life is only once, and what we have to do is to live here Find your own home and direction in some time, and then leave with a smile."
The girl looked at me, then also leaned against the guardrail, silent.
With the cold wind blowing, I took off my hat, feeling the coolness that seemed to freeze my heart.
"Can you leave with a smile now?" The girl put her hands in her pockets, glanced at me and then looked away.
"Not yet." I said with a smile, "The girl in my life hasn't appeared yet, how can I just leave like this, besides, I haven't realized it yet.It's a joy to be full of children and grandchildren together. "
"sorry¡¡"
"Do we still need to apologize?"
The girl trembled a little, then smiled with me, and said softly, "Have a drink, how about it?"
"Come on, who is afraid of whom?"
Walking to the nearest convenience store in the west of the city, I bought a bag of beer, and then went back to the stone bridge, she still stayed there, beckoning to me, and then ran over to take the beer and put it on the ground, and took the first can and opened it .
I also took out a can of beer and opened it, then shook her, motioning to touch her.
After taking a sip, the girl didn't like the taste of beer very much, she frowned, then put the beer on the stone platform, squatted down and rummaged through the bag full of beer.
"Huh?"
"What's the matter?" Hearing her voice, I looked down at her, only to hear her whisper, "Didn't you buy cigarettes?"
"You want to smoke? When did you learn" I don't remember her smoking.
"I don't want to smoke, don't you always light a cigarette at this time?" The girl took out the lighter from her pocket and shook it at me, then continued to search.
"I quit smoking." I waved my hand to signal her not to look for it.
? When I said quitting smoking, the girl froze for a moment, then nodded slightly, picked up the beer and stood up, touched the wine can with me, and said, "You can change for others too?"
Her words made me feel a little embarrassed, but after all, the situation is different, and now I can never go back to the past, and some of those past habits have been changed.
I nodded: "Yeah, I didn't think of it either."
The girl thought for a while, and said casually: "She is a very powerful girl, who can make even a stubborn idealist like you change his habits."
I thought of Luo Qing's appearance, and nodded to admit what she said.
"That's great" she said, "Then why did you come here by yourself?"
"This matter is quite complicated, I will tell you when I have time Besides, I have very good memories here too?"
Hearing what I said, she smiled at me and raised the wine jar: "Finish it, and go back."
I nodded, that's it, we both drank the beer that we had only had two sips in one gulp, and then parted ways. I walked on this side of the stone bridge, and she walked on the other side.
I stopped after just two steps, not because I was afraid that she would drink too much, but because she was a girl and went back at night, so it was inappropriate for me to leave like this.
Standing on the steps of the stone bridge, I turned my head to watch her take a taxi and leave before I felt relieved. Turning around, I found that she didn't go far, just looking at me with a smile on the other side of the stone bridge.
Does this count as a tacit agreement? I smiled too, and shook my hand vigorously at her.
"Let's go!" She yelled at me, then turned around and left quickly, and disappeared from my sight not long after.
Carrying the remaining beer back to the small rental house, lying on the big comfortable bed, my heart was so quiet and peaceful, completely different from when I went out.
Double Eleven, even if you haven¡¯t thought about it or been there, it still exists, right? I don't know if you miss me at this moment, but my miss is full of my heart I miss you, Luo Qing.