It's already deep winter, and I feel a little cold when I sleep under a small silk quilt.
When I woke up, a ray of sunlight had come in through the gap in the curtains. When I opened the curtains, there were already many pedestrians on the street downstairs, and a new day began again. Rubbing your eyes, stretching your waist, the pedestrians downstairs are still walking in a hurry, why are they in such a hurry? For the baby waiting to be raised at home? In order to support the tuition of his son in college? Or is it to satisfy the shopping desires of the three lovers he has raised?
Why do people live? What is the meaning of life? On such a deep winter morning, I began to think about the eternal proposition of life. Think about how lofty and ambitious I was at the beginning, but when I left the society, I found that the gap between reality and ideals was so great, and it was distorted. What about graduating from college? Stretch your thighs, close your eyes, and let those old men with fat bellies play around. The banknotes you pass in a month are the annual income of our so-called small workers who graduated from prestigious universities. The passion of just entering the society is gone, and I am starting to be confused, where will I go? In this society, which way should I choose, which corner should I stand in, so as to find my own fulcrum?
In this city, apart from Xiaowei, a woman who once made my heart beat, made me work hard to make money, and made me always worry about letting me go home as soon as possible after get off work, who else would I care about? In the past, there was Xiaowei, but now I have nothing. In a strange city, living with strange people, doing a job I don't like, and living an unhappy life, everything suddenly seemed meaningless to me. I began to hate Xiaowei again, because her betrayal made me completely desperate, and because of her frankness, I had to reluctantly abandon her. She taught me to make a beautiful vase with her own hands, but then let me throw it away I dropped it until it fell to pieces, then turned and left, leaving me numbly at the scene, touching the pieces in pain, at a loss I am a man, a man who graduated from a university that many young students envy, I can't be depressed like this, I am a strong person, I have to work hard to find my fulcrum and become strong, and I can't ruin my life sadly because of a woman. Thinking of this, I couldn't help clenching my fists. Turning around to look at Xiao Wei, she was still asleep, her angelic face was shining with a ray of sunshine, showing a happy smile, very charming. Xiaowei who is sleeping on the bed today, whose bed will she appear in tomorrow? I couldn't help but start to feel sad again.
I walked gently in the room, not wanting to wake her who was sleeping soundly, I quietly opened the drawer, took out my bank card, and tiptoed out of the house. When I came to the bank ATM, I took out 4,000 yuan and planned to give Xiaowei 3,000 yuan. After all, 2,000 yuan was only enough for the deposit, and the remaining 1,000 yuan had to be kept on her as pocket money! Maybe after today I will leave, I really hope this beautiful girl and kind girl can be happy.
I had breakfast and brought a copy upstairs. I thought Xiaowei was still fast asleep, but she had already woken up and finished washing, standing on the balcony to watch the scenery. When I entered the door, she walked over, took the breakfast in her hand, and said, "I'm starving to death, remember to buy it for me!"
"Didn't you eat so much last night? Still hungry! Are you going to continue your hunger strike?" I asked back.
"Hunger strike? Only my mother is heartbroken when she dies, and I can see clearly that in this society, loving others is worse than loving yourself!" Xiaowei said leisurely.
"It's best to be yourself! This is what my ex-girlfriend left me after breaking up with me!" I murmured.
"Well, it's best to be yourself!" She repeated my words while gobbling.
My neck wound has not healed yet, and I have to change the dressing at the clinic.
I came to the street alone. After changing the medicine, it was still very early, so I wandered around silently. Tired of shopping, I simply went to KFC for lunch. At this time two people came in, a man and a woman, the woman was beautiful and generous, the man looked like a foreigner, not much different from the Chinese, my eyes suddenly lit up, isn't this the Malaysian? Sissy has only been away for a few days, and he hooked up with a young and beautiful girl again? Here as long as you have money, you can have as many stunning beauties as you want!
That kid no longer remembered me, even though he passed by him, he didn't even frown. I was too lazy to look at the happy look of this couple of dogs and men, so I hurriedly finished my meal and walked away. I don't want to go home, although I have made it very clear to Xiaowei, I still can't face her, especially the two of us staying at home with nothing to do, I don't know how embarrassing it is. I continued to wander the streets, and my feet got blisters. I was so tired that I ran to the game hall to play games. The game is such a good thing, it draws you into the character so deeply that it makes you forget your troubles for a while. Just as I was intoxicated with the phone call, the phone suddenly started to vibrate. When I opened it, it was a message?I felt that Xiaozhao seemed heartless. He said these words without batting an eyelid. The supervisor was really about to leave. Suddenly, he realized that for more than a year, he had no communication with him, just communication. It was just an exchange on stocks, and I suddenly remembered Zhang Xiaoxian's famous saying: "The farthest distance in the world is not in the sky, but when I am in front of you and you don't know that I exist." There was so little communication that I didn't even know where he was from.
After work, I didn¡¯t want to go home for the first time. The supervisor saw that none of the three of us wanted to leave the office, so he said, ¡°Why don¡¯t I treat you to dinner tonight!¡± The three of us randomly found a Hunan restaurant restaurant to eat. After graduating from university, I have never drank so happily like tonight. Every time I drink, I either socialize with the leader at the dinner table or drink with a bunch of friends in the bar. Rivers and lakes, you can't help yourself" This statement is so appropriate and in place.
Once upon a time, I lost myself? After being with Xiaowei, how much brotherhood have I lost? The sky was so dark that we only drank this wine. After each of us drank 10 bottles, we found that neither of us was drunk, and Xiao Zhao's face was flushed.
"Brother, Xiao Zhao is actually a pretty good girl, why are you hesitating?" the supervisor said to me while holding a glass of wine.
I really didn't expect him to say such a thing in front of Xiao Zhao. I was at a loss for words, and couldn't find a word to answer for a long time. I secretly looked at Xiao Zhao who was opposite, and there was a charming look on his red face. color. Why don't I know that Xiao Zhao is a good girl? As the saying goes: one radish and one pit. The point is that I am not her pit, even in her eyes, maybe I am the most suitable pit, but in my eyes, she will never be the carrot in my pit
I sat there numbly and continued to drink, Xiao Zhao began to smooth things over: "Director, have you drunk too much? Why don't we stop drinking and go back!"
"I haven't finished drinking yet!" My supervisor and I said in unison.
I continued to drink two bottles, but suddenly found that I couldn't find the previous atmosphere, and it was getting late, so I hurriedly paid the bill, turned around and walked out of the restaurant. After sending Xiao Zhao home, my supervisor and I were walking on the street. We had just finished drinking, and our faces started to heat up. Facing the cool wind in the winter night, I felt very comfortable. Only then did I realize that there is nothing more to do than walking on the road with women. In addition to feeling a kind of romance, walking in the night with men, especially brothers, also has a different feeling. Only now do I understand that in this world, love is not the whole of life, besides love there are also family and friendship. Thinking about how ridiculous my current depravity and sadness are, I have to cheer up.
I don't want to go back to Xiaowei's house anymore. Thinking of this, I said to the supervisor: "How about I stay at your place tonight?"
"Okay! The two brothers can just have a good chat!" The supervisor replied. Xiaozhao talked about stocks, from stocks to his resignation, and from resignation to his rich inner world. Only now did I realize that not only every woman is an angel, but men are also angels. When a man has been hurt again and again, what reason do we have to ask him to continue to be pious and cynical about love? It's true that every man is a book. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com