Almost most people don't know how far they can go on the road of life. Although life is destined to be a road of no return from the very beginning, because people are born full of hope for the future, and the strange thing of "hope" always makes people's brains focus on thinking about the future, so that the past and There is often a lack of in-depth and calm thinking in front of you.
If a person predicts the end of his own life¡ªof course, this refers to a person with certain experience and corresponding thinking ability¡ªthen on the contrary, he will think more about the past and the present, and he will be extremely profound. Incomparably rational, people at this time are like a philosopher.
Xinxin became very rational at this time. She took herself into her field of vision for the first time, and truly examined her soul for the first time, only to find that it was so light and weightless.
"I feel very light," Xinxin said while sitting in the sunny car, looking at the dust raised behind the car from the rearview mirror, "It's like the dust on the ground, blown up by the wind."
Xinxin is talking about her own life. She is very pessimistic about life, and feels that life is dominated by external forces like dust and is meaningless.
"Then you can eat hard to gain weight, but you have to ask Chen Feng first whether he likes Zhao Feiyan or Yang Yuhuan." Sunshine said with a smile while driving. She didn't understand Xinxin's implication.
Xin Xin no longer resented Yang Yang mentioning Chen Feng's name in front of her, but she was not very interested, but indifferent, as if Chen Feng was someone who had nothing to do with her.
"Yuhuan and flying swallows are all dust." Xinxin ignored Yang Guang's words, but sighed and said something that made Yang Yang puzzled but felt weird.
Sunshine drove very seriously. There was a bend in front of her. When she turned the corner, she glanced at Xinxin suspiciously. She felt that Xinxin was a little weird. Thinking of the inexplicable words Xinxin said yesterday, she felt a little ominous in her heart.
"What's the matter with you? Have you read some books on Buddhism and Taoism recently, why do you suddenly look a little disillusioned?" Sunshine said jokingly.
Xinxin smiled and said nothing.
Seeing that Xinxin didn't answer, Sunshine went on to say: "Your complexion is not very good these days, pay attention to recuperate, beauty should be beautiful and healthy, don't make it look like Lin Daiyu."
"Lin Daiyu," Xinxin muttered softly, sighing, "If only Lin Daiyu was there, Baoyu loves Lin Daiyu."
"Doesn't Chen Feng love you?" Sunshine asked. Seeing Xinxin sighing like this, she knew that Xinxin was thinking that Chen Feng didn't really love herself.
From Sunshine's point of view, Chen Feng must love Xinxin in his heart, and the small turmoil between them was mainly caused by Xinxin's sensitivity and jealousy. So she paused for a while, and then continued: "Baoyu loves his sister Lin, and Chen Feng also loves his sister Liu, but sister Liu is more sensitive than sister Lin."
"No, Sister Sunshine, you don't know, and you don't understand." Xinxin said.
"Okay, I don't understand, and I don't know, but, are you still rejecting Chen Feng?" Sunshine asked helplessly.
Xinxin did not answer. Although she had figured it out a long time ago, and after knowing that she was terminally ill, she even thought about everything, whether it was love or hate, it didn't make any sense anymore, but she still felt a little awkward in her heart, or It's a little regrettable.
Seeing that Xinxin was silent, Sunshine continued to persuade: "My good sister, if Chen Feng has nothing else to do to you, then you should stop worrying about Yang Xin, after all, Yang Xin is no longer here."
"I won't care about it anymore." Xinxin said softly. She looked ahead, her face was expressionless, her voice was cold, and she thought to herself: Everything is meaningless, so why worry about it?
Sunshine looked at Xinxin in confusion again, feeling more uneasy in her heart, and she felt that Xinxin's voice was chilling.
"I said what's the matter with you? It's really strange, like an ice cube." Sunshine blamed, "Be happier, why do you look like a different person?"
While talking, the car turned into a village. After a while, the car stopped in front of a bungalow in the middle of the village. The door was open, and a woman stepped out quickly from the inside, dressed in elegant clothes, with a fair complexion, and a happy and kind smile. Xinxin guessed that this should be Yang Xin's mother, who wanted to see her.
"Aunt Yang, here we come." Sunshine got out of the car, greeted the people who came, then turned to look at Xinxin and introduced, "She is Liu Xin."
Xinxin stepped forward, cheered up, and smiled at Yang Xin's mother: "Hello, Auntie, I'm Liu Xin."
Yang Xin's mother seemed very excited, repeating the word "good" in her mouth, looking up and down carefully., just figure it out on your own. "
Xinxin nodded. Yes, one of the important reasons why she fell in love with Chen Feng was because she saw his talent.
Yang Xin's mother's tone suddenly became sad, and she continued: "Chen Feng is a bitter child, you should know his life experience, but we Yang Xin didn't care, and later Chen Feng's mother passed away, and our Yang Xin became his only one." Relatives, we stayed with him, loved each other, and passed through the sad days, so I think he can't forget Yang Xin, it must be because of this. Later, Yang Xin left us unfortunately, he was very sad, and he came every day. On Yang Xin's grave, he was in a crazily manner. At the beginning, he cried bitterly, but then he stopped crying and kept playing the piano, disturbing our family's life. People in our village called him "Crazy Chen". We tried to persuade him, Only then did I persuade him, and from now on, he will only come on November 29, Yang Xin's memorial day."
Having said that, Yang Xin's mother stopped and wiped the corners of her eyes. She couldn't hold back her sad tears.
Tears filled Xinxin's eyes, and she remembered the disappointment and pain when Chen Feng woke up in the hospital and knew that she was not dead. It is such a deep love to be able to die for a woman. In fact, that scene has always been entrenched in her heart, but before she fell in love with Chen Feng, her heart was shocked and moved, but after she fell in love with Chen Feng, it was a different feeling when she thought about it.
"November 29, 29." Xinxin said silently in her heart, and suddenly remembered that the roses Chen Feng gave her for the first time were also 29 roses. She suddenly understood that the "29" had a deep meaning, and Chen Feng was In commemoration. But at this time, she was no longer angry, but was deeply moved by Chen Feng's good intentions.
Sunshine's eyes were also moist, she seemed to see Chen Feng's pain and madness when he lost Yang Xin.
Yang Xin's mother looked at Xin Xin kindly and said, "Son, can you understand and forgive Chen Feng? Over the years, I have been thinking about him and hoped that he could start again, but he was determined not to marry. I am very worried about this. We have already regarded him as our own child. Yang Xin's father also left the year before last. How can I explain to my daughter when I'm under the Nine Springs"
Having said that, Yang Xin's mother choked up, and her tears couldn't stop streaming down. Sunshine shed tears to persuade and comfort. Xinxin couldn't make a sound.
Yang Xin's mother saw that both Xinxin and Yangguang were in tears, especially Xinxin was crying sadly, so she quickly stopped her sadness, wiped away her tears, and comforted her in turn: "Look at me, just hold back as you speak." I can't stop, I made you cry too, my child, don't cry, tell the truth, I thought Chen Feng's life was over, because no matter how I persuaded him, he didn't listen, and I also heard that many people proposed marriage to him, He didn't even look at it, and refused casually. After learning about you and Chen Feng, I was very happy, but when I heard that you had a conflict, I was very worried."
"Child Chen Feng, alas," Yang Xin's mother sighed, "Now, I've told you so much, I just hope you can take it easy, and I've also heard about your strange experience and your blood type. It means that you are destined, you should cherish this beautiful fate, give him a chance, give him some time, child, love is a slow work."
However, Xinxin did not speak, but kept sobbing. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com