I have fully understood that everything I have now, all my words, are because of all the turbulent emotional nodes that have capsized in my heart.
Because in my opinion, these things and all their composition will never be those so-called particularly simple and perfunctory things, but those that slowly start to hover in my heart, although I know there are many, many things in it. private desires.
But I don't know why, I just can't control it, I can't control the composition of these things, I can't control these things, everything he has.
So I said a lot of very, very childish things, I said some things that were not written at all, I said some things that seemed to me to be particularly tiresome, and I know that I am all right now It¡¯s like rolling around, making people look particularly lacking in IQ, whatever, it will make people feel tired, but I can¡¯t hide my emotions anymore, I can only use this way of trying to push away now. Prove that I am tired of this matter.
I think I was wrong, and I even think I need to let him push me to the new teacher, let him tell me the so-called routines and education that can control it into this appearance way, but I know these things it was never something that belonged to me.
Therefore, I will not put those characters that do not belong to me that I want on my body, and then do something.
When I am particularly irritable, when I am particularly tired, and when I am particularly irritable, all these things come from the things in my heart that I don¡¯t know how to say, those damn things are controlled by those damn things, and I want to He turned back to the most innocent, and those things that blocked him, in fact, I didn't say that I wanted to make it into a piece of rough jade, and to make it into a piece, it simply didn't have any routines or emotional intelligence. thing.
Rather, I want him to throw away all the so-called emotional bindings, and then he will be generous and charming, and within a particularly rational range, he can learn to express sincerely, that's all.
If I can't feel the emotional value of a person, I will start to lose control, I will start to feel inferior, and I will start to lose control, especially easy to fantasize and be victimized.
So I don't know what to do.
After I finished those words, I admit that the state I am preparing for is that some people will be comfortable, and I admit that my state is that I will feel some special excitement and special pleasure that I can't feel myself.
But on the other hand, I am also sure that the motives facing him now are definitely not those parts that are so-called suppressed by emotions, because at this moment, I think he may not necessarily have some emotions out of control. At that moment, I have already started to regret it, because I know that the so-called layers he can show now are higher than the layer, and the so-called emotional kidnapping and routines I described are some of what he went. something learned.
However, the moment he really touches his bottom line or touches his weakness, he will feel special anxiety because of losing control of his emotions.
So now I also feel a little bit, the sense of emptiness that I don't know how to express, the sense of loneliness, the kind of irritability that I have never been able to express.
But on the other hand, I also understand a little bit.
What I need is his very real emotion, but I know it is a very selfish way to do this, which may bring something we can't imagine, and he may be like an endocrine It's the same kind of mentality that is out of tune.
I know that there are only two kinds of phenomena that I get when I say this sentence, one is the rational phenomenon that I hate the most, and the other is that he may go berserk and extreme.
However I get the latter kind of feeling, I feel like I'm probably going to drive him crazy right now, I'm just letting him now call all the emotional trade-offs based on one he doesn't want to have the same as he had before that status.
Possibly I had high hopes for him before, and put some thoughts on him to make him rational, but I know that I am slowly manipulating him now, slowly wanting to change him.
So I don't know what I should do at this time, and I don't know what I want to do at this time.
"Mr. He, I have already told you very clearly, I really don't want to do this, but I knowI want to make some changes now, and you can¡¯t force me to become such a perfect mood now, because now I am slowly implementing it according to the so-called statement given to me by the teacher, and I also feel that I will get a little favor. "
"You can't ask me to become like this all of a sudden, just like that. You told me before that you want me to be like this. Now that I've become you, you want me to be like before. Whose fault is it? I feel like I'm going crazy right now."
He was firm and thoughtful and understood the feeling of a man who was so determined that his voice was about to break when he ran away like a man, and I even heard some voices from the people around him.
I know, from that moment on, he may have been desperately wanting to breathe, desperately wanting to leave that corner.
In the beginning, I didn't even know what I wanted by doing this.
And now I probably understand.
Maybe I'm the real culprit.
"Mr. He, do you know? It really makes me tired if you ask me like this, and now I'm just like this. Do you think this is what I want to see or what do you want to see? If it's what you want to see If so, sorry, I also want to put this kind of thing away."
When I heard my hoarse words, I was even more difficult to move, and I felt more uneasy and more cumbersome.
I think we need to meet now. If we don't meet again, this turmoil may become extremely terrifying.
So I don't know what I should do.
Even I had no direction, I lost everything, some things that I could control.
"Teacher He, please don't do this, okay?" (Remember the website URL: www.hlnovel.com