In the morning, I was still typing code stupidly. At noon, cl asked questions about Qian Sanfang, and I started to feel bored again. After lunch, my whole body is so soft and my heart is so tired. You crawl on the bed and lie down, with your eyes closed, and you can feel that your heart has been falling, without any support.
The working place is in Beijing, the position of java engineer, the monthly salary is 9,000, but why did you give up such a choice so easily? But after giving up, I didn't realize what it meant when I made this choice, and didn't realize what kind of life I gave up when I gave up this job. And every time a choice is made in the future, what kind of different life is chosen and what kind of future is determined.
When you are tired, such thoughts erode you strongly.
However, the future you look forward to is that you can occasionally cook a meal when you get off work, and when you are too tired, you can go to the bar to drink a little wine, and continue to live tomorrow. Instead of facing new problems every day, Baidu new problems, learning new knowledge. It's not about going back after drinking and continuing to find bugs.
But that was once the life you expected and longed for.
You laugh at yourself, what supports the future you face is actually fantasy, how sad!
If you are not looking for a job in the IT industry, what should you do? I didn't think of what I wanted to do. I often hear people say: People always do things they don't want to do when they live. I always feel that once I make that choice, I will become a walking dead. Once I think of this question, I suddenly become suffocated, and I strongly reject it in my heart. But what are you looking forward to? You used to read books non-stop, eager to find in books. . . What are you looking for? After reading one book, you change to another one, but what are you looking for? Now that I think about it, I couldn't find it at all. You're not sure what you're looking for, so you keep looking, trusting that when you find it, you'll know. But you can't find it. So you didn't continue to read it later. Obviously, I used to put a different book in my schoolbag every day with anticipation.
During every monthly exam in high school, I would habitually look at various magazines and extract various famous quotes from them. One of the background pictures was a traveler with a backpack sitting on the edge of a cliff, leisurely Looking at the green forest below. There is a saying in it: When a thought dies, the world is so close; when a thought is awakened, the world is so close. Go ahead and find answers on the road. At that time, I liked it very much, so I went to the owner of the magazine, and then tore off the pages and kept them.
As long as you have a thought in your heart, that road will be at your feet; as long as that thought is eliminated, the distance between you and that road will be far away. You can't really understand the author's real intention, but such an interpretation always flickers in your heart. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com