As the Spring Festival approaches, many migrant workers are returning home with their luggage on their backs.
Liu Yuemei and I did not go back.
When sending them to the station, I saw Xiao Jing staring at me, and couldn't help trembling.
She told me that she might marry the big cat this time when she returns home.
I can only wish them a happy marriage for a hundred years.
He Meiling also went home on the New Year's Eve train.
At night, Liu Yuemei and I celebrated the Spring Festival together in a small rental house.
I bought a lot of vegetables.
I cook it myself.
"Hey, Monkey, if He Meiling marries you, she will be really happy." She said.
"Where is happiness?"
"You have changed. I didn't think much of it before. Now I suddenly realize that you are really a good man. You are worthy of a woman's life. Tell me, am I blind? I have been together for two years, but I don't feel anything."
I take off my apron. Serve the last dish on the table.
"Hehe." I laughed.
"Quite old, you are the worst kid in the villagealways stealing from other people's houses. I remember once you were chased ten kilometers by a mad dog"
"Why are you still mentioning this?"
"At the beginning, you followed me, and you couldn't drive me away. Others said that you coveted my beauty, haha, but you haven't done anything until now."
"What? You want me to do it?"
"no no¡"
"What's wrong with you now? It's not your style to be sad about spring and autumn."
I handed her the chopsticks.
"Taste my craft quickly. Have you made any progress?"
"Monkey, will the mistress of this house next year become He Meiling? This is our secret garden. After this year, it will no longer belong to me"
She looked at me. The look of reluctance in his eyes moved me.
I don't know how to answer.
"I thought you would look down on that kind of girl. I thought you always liked a girl like me. She is completely different from meand you still chose her"
"Maybe love needs fate. You're right. In the beginning, I really didn't like her. I don't like that type of girl. But just when I wanted to get married the most, she appeared"
"You got married just to get married?"
"Whatever you think." I was a little impatient.
She lowered her head.
A tear fell into the rice bowl.
"Actually, I know you don't love her. You've always loved yourself."
"Shall we spend this year well?"
"Monkey. Do you know why I didn't come home this year? Because, I guess this might be our last year together?"
"Why are you so sad. There will be opportunities in the future?"
"This year two people. Next year it will be three people, and it will be four people. Five people, I can't imagine that day. Once you would only follow me. One day it will become another woman's"
"Monkey, recently, I've thought a lot. Yes, I was too headstrong before I thought I thought you would never leave me. It's me who overestimated my position in your heart. I'm always on top You are poor and have nothing, and you have no rights. You are obedient to me. I think I have had enough of waiting for me. You will wait for me where you are"
"Stop talking, let's eat first." I said.
she cried. I kept wiping away my tears.
I continued to bury my head and eat. Pretend not to see it all.
"If you were given a chance, would you choose me?" she asked.
"Won't."
"Why?"
"we do not match."
"Because these years, have I completely broken your heart? Monkey, I'm not sincere to those men, I just like their money"
"It has nothing to do with those things. Your heart is too big. My world is too small. I can't hold your freedom."
"It's just high-sounding words."
"What you never said to me, say it today. It's too late. Liu Yuemei, we were originally on the same starting line. We came out of the countryside together. I am still struggling at the bottom. But you are already several times higher than me Level. I haven¡¯t been to those beautiful places you posted in Moments, and I haven¡¯t eaten those delicacies you mentioned. Perhaps, I can¡¯t even afford the down jacket you wear. This is the gap.?I want to live realistically. "
"In your eyes, I may be superior to others, but in fact, in front of those men, I am not even as good as a dick."
"Listen to me and finish your meal well," I said.
She swallowed. Wipe the tears off your face. Ewha's rainy face is even more beautiful.
She reached out and grabbed my hand on the table.
"You have changed." I said.
"It has become less angular than before. You will not easily compromise with life. I especially like to see the arrogance in your eyes. But, now, look at you, decadent like a child who just got up from muddy water" I A little angry, he dropped his chopsticks. Break free from her grasping hand.
"Because at that time, you were always standing behind me."
"There is no way to eat this meal."
I stood up, picked up the coat on the chair, and wanted to leave.
"You go. You'd better never come back."
The Spring Festival of that year seemed particularly deserted.
We originally planned to watch the night scene together and watch the Spring Festival Gala together, but everything was ruined because of her confession.
My relationship with her has become weird.
I always thought I was in love with her.
She will not fall in love with me.
However, the reality is still a joke. She loves me, but I don't love her.
I was walking alone on the street where firecrackers were blasting, and there was a snowfall in the city, and the snowflakes fluttered and rustled in the sky, like countless beautiful dreams, blooming in the air.
I put my hands in my pockets. His face flushed from the cold.
Loneliness, loneliness spreads throughout my heart.
Pass through a certain intersection. See that street light.
Thinking of standing with Xiaojing and eating roasted gluten.
Think of the bowl of lunch I ate.
Remembering what she said to me, it would be great if I knew you earlier, but there is no such thing as seeing each other late in life?
I met Liu Yuemei so early, but I still missed it.
Some people may get used to this feeling even if they stay by their side all their lives, and have a hazy illusion, thinking it is love, but it is not love.
Very hungry.
I watched the bustle and bustle of the restaurant across the street, but I could only swallow my saliva.
Go to a night stall and have a simple meal.
He Meiling sent me a message.
Wish you a Happy New Year.
I returned to the dormitory with the countdown bell.
I began to miss Xiaojing very much.
? Do not add any hypocrisy with sincerity.
Is she now happily sitting with her parents, discussing plans for the New Year?
She will wear a wedding dress.
She will walk to the auditorium holding the big cat's hand.
Yes, she is getting married.
These have nothing to do with me.
Lying in bed, unable to fall asleep for a long time. I walked out of the dormitory again. I wandered outside for a long time, worried about Liu Yuemei's safety. I went back to the rental house.
She was drunk like mud.
Through the dilapidated windows, the cold wind blew violently.
She was lying on the table, sleeping soundly. Mouth has been muttering to himself. Can't hear what she's saying?
I brushed the tangled hair from her forehead.
Her hot breath hit my hand. Warm touch.
Fingers rest on her face.
A moment of trance. I thought it was Xiaojing.
She looked at me with a smile on her face.
In the past, I always regarded Xiaojing as Liu Yuemei. Because Liu Yuemei is always on top, I can't get close, but I want to. As for Xiaojing, she is close to my life, which gives me a basis for judging all my fantasies about Liu Yuemei.
Today, the positions are reversed.
Heart tremor.
An unacceptable fact hit me.
I fell in love with Xiaojing.
Since when. From the first time I ate that box lunch. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com