I go to He Meiling every day. Her workshop is on the third floor. I'm on the first floor. Not a very long distance.
She sat next to Liu Yuemei.
Every time, stand at the door. Liu Yuemei would always say, hey, the monkey is looking for you.
She smiled shyly at me.
I took her to many places. We took pictures at different playgrounds. I also dare not put my arms around her shoulders, or hold her hand. Sometimes, I fear like an immature child.
Xiaomi said, hey, monkey, don't be cowardly. Don't be as useless as a big cat and haven't dealt with Xiaojing until now.
"If you can't find a house to live with He Meiling for a while. The private house I rented in the suburbs will be lent to you first. You see, I am righteous."
"Monkey, don't listen to Xiaomi's nonsense. If we all leave, he will be left alone, too lonely. Doesn't he want us to go out?"
"You are envious that the monkey is better than you. The tone is sour don't use me as a shield?"
I sat on the bed, indifferent to their banter. Holding the mobile phone, chatting with He Meiling.
It is not necessary to speak face to face, but to open your mouth through the cold screen.
"I like you very much, be my girlfriend."
After thinking about it for a long time, I sent it.
She responded quickly.
"good."
The bright light from the phone screen hurt my eyes.
Gradually get acquainted with her. Only to find that she is also very talkative.
She would complain to me about the hardships and difficulties in life. As a child who just came to work in the countryside, he is not used to the fast-paced life.
Only she called me by my original name. only.
We are walking on the snow. She was wrapped in a thick scarf. Only two eyes are exposed.
I tried to hold her hand.
Pretending to look into the distance absent-mindedly, his hand slowly moved towards her.
My heartbeat suddenly accelerated.
This feeling is wonderful. I guess that's what it's like to be in love. Full of excitement and anticipation.
Finally touched her hand.
She didn't resist. Peep at her expression. A blush appeared on his face.
"I have no parents, only one person." I told her.
Regarding my life experience, I choose to tell the truth.
She looked at me in astonishment.
"My parents went out to work when I was three years old. I haven't heard from them since. I never thought of going to them, even in my most difficult time. Now that they abandoned me, I should have some backbone." Understatement tone of voice.
"I used to be bad. Messed up. Had a resentful attitude towards the world. Then someone saved me. I thought I could be better."
"Do you like working part-time?" she asked.
"I don't like it. To be honest, looking at other people's faces I feel very aggrieved. When I have money in my hand, I want to stabilize."
"Go back home?"
"No. I don't want to go back. It's easy for a person to turn bad. Turn back to a good person but no one believes it. I don't want my children to be judged by others." It's a bit far away. I coughed twice in embarrassment.
"I don't want to go back to the countryside either," she said.
"I'm very poor. If I can't stay in the city anymore, I still have to go back."
"The two of us can work together," she said.
I saw the firm look in her eyes.
She is not perfect, far from the girl of my dreams. Every day, I am asking myself whether I love her or not. Such repetition is just perfunctory to myself, I still want to date her, and still act as a sweet lover.
No one will ask me, monkey, will you be happy?
There are different girls walking on the street every day. I stand in the middle of the road. It's like losing your sense of direction. Countless girls' faces, chaotic footsteps, I close my eyes, feel the tremor of the earth, the flow of time. Feel the imprint on my face every minute and every second.
If I never learn to love others, will I die alone?
I hate loneliness so much, I want to escape from childhood, what kind of girl should I find?
Will He Meiling, like Liu Yuemei, get used to the complexity of the outside world and choose to leave me
I am afraid of losing, afraid of giving, and afraid of the double blow brought by the future. Because I know I can't afford to lose, and I can't afford to gamble.
After sending He Meiling back to the dormitory.
I have walked a long way alone. The wind blows violently?.
A person stood in the shadow of the street lights in the distance. Very familiar silhouette.
I walked over.
Only then did I see that it was Xiaojing. She ate glutenous toast. Put a lot of chili, spicy tears want to flow down.
"Xiao Jing."
She looked up.
"It's a monkey"
Her voice sounded hoarse. Since announcing her relationship, she never came to me alone.
"If you have a cold, don't eat spicy food" I said.
"Bad mood."
"If you are in a bad mood, do you treat yourself badly?"
"If you are in a bad mood, you have to find a place to vent."
She bought a lot. Pass me some skewers.
I shirk not to. She is in a hurry.
"Why are you being polite to me? This gluten shop is delicious. I ran so far on purpose. It's a pity that the owner of this shop is a woman, otherwise I really want to marry her."
It's so tempting to hear what she said.
Having never eaten spicy food, I frowned and took the first bite.
The taste is really good.
"How? How?" She asked hurriedly.
"It'snotnot bad."
"It's more delicious than any store I ate. How good it was when I was a child My children and I went to the street to buy a few strings of gluten and put them in steamed buns. It was delicious. Be sure to put more peppers."
I have been silent.
"The air in my hometown is very fresh. You can take a bath in the river in summer" As soon as she said this, I was so choked that I couldn't straighten my waist and kept coughing.
"What's wrong, did I say the wrong thing?" She asked with concern while patting me on the back.
Wait until you catch your breath.
"It's okay." I said.
But I don't want to tell her that her words touched my scars.
"Do you like the countryside?" I asked.
"Anyway, sooner or later, the leaves will fall and return to their roots."
"Don't want to stay in the city?"
"Yeah. But I will miss my parents, my family. Human life is too short. Monkey, isn't it? I thought I wouldn't grow up. But one day I will grow up. Tell the big cat to get married and get married. Will have a group of children with big cats30 years old, 40 years old, 50 years oldthen grow old"
"Do you want to live a better life?"
"Why don't I think about it, I think about it every day. It's just a daydream. The big cat is also a worthless person, and he likes to care about a little money When I go home this year, I may have to talk about marriage It's procrastinating every year Their family I always feel that our family wants too many gifts"
"Do you love big cats?"
She stopped eating gluten. Tears streamed down his cheeks.
"I didn't understand love before, but now I understand. I just realized that I have never loved. After so many yearsI thought about leaving. But what about the big cat? He is too poorNo one will marry himThe bondage of his mission looking at me If there is no me, I'm afraid he really won't be able to live"
"You don't love him, but you sympathize with him"
"Yes. Don't tell him these words. He will definitely not accept it."
"I know."
"Monkey" She looked at me very affectionately.
"If only I could get to know you sooner"
"Huh?" I don't understand.
"Maybe I won't be so sad But there is no such thing as meeting each other late"
"Xiao Jing, it's getting late" I dodged in a panic. Don't dare to look her in the eyes.
The heart is beating violently. Feel like jumping out of body. If you don't stop it quickly, you may die immediately.
What she said got me thinking.
Does she like me a little bit? And I actually like her like?
The moment I turned around and left.
She said behind my back, monkey, you must be happy.
The tears I have been holding back can no longer be controlled. Plenty of it flowed down.
In order not to let her see. I didn't look back.
Stubborn as if seeing Liu Yuemei on a date for the first time back then.
I hid behind the door.
She said, I went on a date.
I didn't speak. It didn't come out either.
If I could hold her hand and tell her not to go, would the ending be different?
I indulged her pride and delusion, but pushed her into the abyss step by step She will never return to her original appearance
I clenched my fingers in the dark.
Yes, I must be happy.
The dormitory was quiet. Big Cat and Xiaomi fell asleep early.
I stood in front of the big cat's bed. Looking at the pale moonlight outside the window.
"Meiling, I love you."
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The dormitory was quiet. Big Cat and Xiaomi fell asleep early.
I stood in front of the big cat's bed. Looking at the pale moonlight outside the window.
"Meiling, I love you."
Finish sending this message.
I also lay in bed and slept. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com