If it was in the past, hearing this moment of negation, I would probably feel uncomfortable in my chest.
But in fact, it is calmer than imagined.
Maybe it's because, since the beginning of this long journey, I have carefully recorded every bit of her different performances in my eyes and kept them in my heart, and these facts have gradually accumulated, which invisibly added more Much confidence¡ªconfidence in her, confidence in the relationship.
So now, although I am slightly disappointed, I am not disappointed.
Under the light of the bonfire, Lian'er was still giggling from ear to ear, as if immersed in some interesting imagination. Taking advantage of this interval, I took a deep breath of the night breeze, raised my hand and rubbed the space between my brows, and made a quick adjustment before reflecting on what happened just now. There is something wrong with the dialogue.
Or maybe it was because the topic came up too fast, and I suddenly became nervous again, so I was unconsciously fainted, and I followed her train of thought to talk about men and women, and I roughly understood why this talk was so funny. She couldn't stop laughing, if she tried to seriously imagine Lian'er as a man, she would feel very disobedient and feel uncomfortable.
Although I still have some concerns about the sentence of not marrying
Cleaning up my mood, I hugged my knees quietly, waiting for the trainer on the other end to laugh and continue the topic. Her smile is very contagious, and it is especially vivid under the jumping firelight at this moment. It is uncomfortable to look at. Jin then raised the corners of his mouth, seeing her like this, his heart gradually settled down and became calm.
Perhaps she also sensed this gaze, and the laughter gradually subsided. Although Lian'er stopped speaking, she still had a happy expression on her face, and turned her head to look at me with a pleasant smile.
I was going to continue, but the moment my eyes met, I pursed my mouth wisely.
Because the girl obviously had something to say.
"I'm not a man, and I don't want to be a man. It's even more impossible for you to be some kind of man. It's obviously unreasonable to talk about it. What are you doing so much?" Sure enough, she parted her lips and said with a disapproving smile: " Let's stop here, shall we?"
This proposal coincided with what I had thought before, so there was no reason to shake my head. I nodded slightly, but I was wondering what she was going to say next.
This time, no matter what she said, she couldn't mess with herself anymore.
"So let's say¡ª¡ª" Of course, the practitioner on the other end didn't know what I was thinking about. It might have been troubled for a long time these days, and it was rare to talk a lot at this time, but she continued: "Since the fact is that we both do Isn¡¯t it weird that you don¡¯t want to be a man, and how can there be any love between a man and a woman? You always say that you want me to understand, but every time I get to this level, I can¡¯t think about it anymore, so I just want to understand a little bit, do you understand? "
? At the end she added that sentence, as if the explanation was extremely complicated, and she was worried that others would not understand.
I smiled and nodded, expressing that I understood. This life is not the same as it was back then. This is not easy for ordinary women to understand, let alone Lianer who grew up in the mountains and forests and is used to being straightforward. , she was able to explore this level by herself, which is already very talented and intelligent, which is commendable.
Or, I'm really too selfish, for many reasons, it's just cowardice.
After thinking up to this point, looking at her troubled, she couldn't help but speak resolutely.
"Lian'er, you" Mingming was determined to make it clear, but when he opened his mouth to speak, he seemed to be blocked by something, and the words hesitated for a moment, and then changed into: "Did you forget? I, never I didn¡¯t tell you that it¡¯s the love between a man and a woman, do you still remember? I once said that the third kind of love is just the so-called love for me.¡±
After blurting it out, it is inevitable to be frustrated. As the saying goes, nature is hard to change, and decades of chronic diseases are not so easy to overcome.
However, despite the frustration, it is not necessarily without expectations.
Under the blazing fire, the girl next to me heard my words, but did not answer immediately, but she tilted her head to look at the campfire, her eyebrows seemed to be frowning, and her bright eyes were moving. Although she did not like learning Chinese and calligraphy since she was a child , but Lian'er's comprehension has always been amazing, and now I see her looking thoughtful, I don't bother, let her think, just wait silently.
The atmosphere fell into dullness again for a while, there was no laughter or conversation, and the desolation and dead silence here emerged again. Although the wind was not strong because of the cover of many ancient sites, there was the whistling of the wind. In his ears, he threw two more useless items into the bonfire that had already burned to the height of a person. The dry wood was heated and made a series of crackling sounds.
The raging fire is nothing to look at, and no matter how good the training is, it will inevitably make my neck sore after looking at it for a long time. I looked away, and simply fell down a little bit, with my elbows on the ground, and looked up at the sky full of stars.
???There is only one person who loves each other, and there can only be one. Once you make a decision, you will be the most important existence in your heart"
"That's right." I said it solemnly, and Lian'er listened carefully. He nodded suddenly when he heard this, and said, "This is not a problem. You are the most important thing. I don't like others as much as I like you, or Master We can still compare when we are alive, but since she has passed away, the dead don¡¯t need to compare with each other, right?¡±
Naturally, what she said was unreasonable and false. I heard it well, and my heart felt hot. But the timing was wrong, and I didn't have extra time to reflect on it. Now that the words are in my mouth, I have to say them. What will happen, I have no intention to think about it.
I wanted to follow the guidance and wait for her to realize it, but in the end I realized that she understood the truth but not necessarily understood the emotion, so I can only use the most direct method to confirm.
Is it right to do this? I don't know it, or I just endured it for too long, and suddenly I can't wait.
"Lian'er, do you know that the so-called most important thing is not just the favorite." Staring at those eyes, I gritted my teeth and said, "I said that I will go all out, but you say that you don't distinguish between each other. Do you really understand what it means? It means that I will give myself over from now on, just like if we make love, everything about me will be given over to you, and I will only belong to you from now on"
"Isn't that good? We are together, you should have listened to me." The girl chuckled lightly, as if she only cared about the last two sentences, but she never understood the full meaning of this sentence.
And the meaning she didn't understand is the part that worries me the most.
"But, Lianer, let me ask you"
No matter how worried you are, you still have to ask: "Then relative, are you willing to give everything you have to me? Are you willing to belong to me only from now on? Huh?"
Slowly, speaking word by word, looking at the person in front of him without blinking.
At that moment, against the background of the fire, I think I interpreted the look as perplexity and hesitation.
That night, she did not give an answer in the end.
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It seems that Mr. Jinjiang has drawn a lot, so he should not swallow the comments, Amen~~~~
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