I can make myself appear to be at ease, anyway, only heaven and earth know this heart.
However, if this kind of pretending to have nothing to do with each other means that from now on, they will lose control of their words and deeds from time to time, then there is no other choice.
After that dusk, I silently cleaned up the dishes, and then I still did what I should do, but in my heart, I opened a warning net from then on, drawing a safe distance for self-test, and then guarded it carefully at all times, trying my best to Don't let yourself step over, and pay attention, don't want Lian'er to step over.
?In fact, I also know that this behavior is very stupid, but I have gone to the doctor in a hurry.
Even if you drink poison to quench your thirst, you have to drink it.
At the beginning, Lianer didn't feel much about my behavior. She is independent, and she doesn't like to cling to anyone, and she likes to run around all day long. Come and ask me, if it¡¯s the same as going, it¡¯s different, if the answer is no, I won¡¯t force it, oh, just ask me, just do it yourself.
But no matter how informal you are, as the days go by, you will gradually feel something is wrong.
I don't know when Lian'er started to feel it, I only know that on that day, when the three of us, the master and the apprentice, were sitting around eating together, she showed some strangeness.
Lianer has a bad habit of eating. Although the way of eating is not rude, I don't see many women who are reserved and gentle. Every time I like to have a hearty meal. Usually, Master and I will say a few words about her occasionally, but rarely It is effective, and I feel guilty about hiding from her recently, and I just want to make up for it elsewhere. I have cooked dishes that she likes in the past few days, so I saw that the food there was overwhelming. After eating, a bowl It stretched out in front of me.
"Add rice." There was a familiar and confident voice next to my ear.
A flash of surprise flashed across my heart. I am indeed used to helping Master with food. I used to be happy to take the initiative to help her when she was spoiled by her child, but she was always proudly unwilling to accept it. Holding the empty bowl, he slid down the seat and went to the stove to serve it himself.
Right now, it is not surprising that he was asked for help abruptly without saying anything.
But the surprise was the surprise. I looked down at the empty bowl, and then at the clean and slender fingers on the side of the bowl. My gaze went all the way to my forearm. I didn't want to look up. I said in a low voice, took it and floated away Seat, calmly went to the outer hole to open the steam bucket and filled a bowl, then walked back and put it back on her desk.
Who knows, she was silent for a while, pushed the bowl of rice, and said awkwardly: "I added too much, I can't finish it!" I don't know if it was an illusion, but there was some anxiety in her tone and behavior.
I had already sat down at this time, and didn't understand what she wanted to do, so I just stretched out my hand, took it silently, divided a little into my own bowl, and then pushed the rest back in front of her.
But I don't want this move to annoy her.
"What are you doing? I just talked too much, and I didn't say I want you to share it. Why do you make up your own mind without saying a word!" It seemed that he was really a little angry, and the voice was much louder than usual when he was angry, and the tone was also heavy. He talked a lot, and didn't look up at her, but the tone of voice and expression should also be exasperated.
"Lian'er" The master, who had witnessed the development of the situation, opened his mouth at this time, with a very obvious meaning.
However, the people around me seemed to completely ignore Master's attitude and continued stubbornly. I looked at the table and could even feel that sharp and emotional gaze. She stared at me and said angrily: "Again! Lower your head! You keep lowering your head recently, what's wrong? You can't just watch me talk!"
"Lian'er! Why did you talk to your senior sister!" The master's tone suddenly became much more serious.
In fact, although Lian'er is willful, she has always respected her master very much. The previous ignorance may have been just a momentary surge of emotion, and she didn't control herself. So he kept silent, barely suppressed his emotions and sat down, picked up the bowl and chopsticks, and began to eat after a while.
I saw the pair of chopsticks poking and poking between several dishes, looking dull, and finally I couldn't help it, I quickly raised my eyes and glanced at her, unexpectedly she was also glancing at me, looking at me from both sides A pair, I froze for a moment, then turned my eyes away.
I turned my eyes away, but I couldn't turn away the instant impression left in my mind. The emotion in those eyes was not so much angry as depressed and wronged, and a little overwhelmed
I sighed in my heart, thinking, after all, she still has??.
Even so, I have never really met those serious eyes.
Facing the one-sided situation, Master didn't say stop. I knew she wouldn't stop, and I didn't have time to look over and beg her to stop. After blocking this for a while, the more I was hurt, the more sluggish my movements became. Several places were so painful and numb that I couldn't use any strength, and the shoulder blade was like burning.
Gradually, the mood in my heart also changed.
I seldom get angry with Lian'er, even if I get angry for a short time, and I have never vented my anger on her, but at this moment, there is indeed such a fire in my heart, which slowly but clearly ignites.
Why? Why? I just want to stay a little away from you, and I will still protect you and pamper you, just keep a little distance away, why do you want to force me so aggressively?
You don't understand at all, you don't understand what you represent to me at all, and I don't want you to understand, is it not good? You have your future, and I want to protect you well, but that doesn't mean I have to lose my heart, does it?
You will fall in love with someone, a man, you are destined to be crazy about him, why should I fall in love with you like this!
His body started to feel cold little by little, it had nothing to do with the external pain, it was the coldness from the bottom of his heart, it was clearly a flame, but it felt extremely cold.
He simply stopped all his movements, no longer resisting or caring about Lian'er's attack, but tightly closed his eyes.
I didn't dare to open it, didn't dare to look at her, because the last sliver of reason made me worry, worried that at this moment, if I opened even a little gap, it would reveal the hatred in my eyes at this moment.
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