At first, he said that she had no reaction to those reasons and reasons, and was calm.
But at the end of the sentence, the chopsticks in Tang Xiaoran's hand paused, and a thin light flashed in his eyes, very bright but fleeting.
If he said these words before, she would definitely be excited and happy.
But now
Unfortunately, there are no ifs in life.
"I know, you still mind that I killed you in the study. That was not my intention. When those emotions came up, I couldn't even control myself!"
"The doctor said, I have inner demons. You only know that Zuo Qingrou is dead, but you don't know how she died"
Su Zhengxiao stood up, sat on the edge of the bed, and faced her.
Staring at her deeply, he slowly told the cause of Zuo Qingrou¡¯s death.
After hearing this, Tang Xiaoran couldn¡¯t help but clenched her chopsticks. She never knew there was such an inside story!
It¡¯s so miserable that such a beautiful woman died like that!
She was so beautiful, so pitiful to die!
"I always think, if I had not sent those photos to Huo's mother that day, and Huo's mother had not gone there to find Zuo Qingrou, then this tragedy would never have happened!"
"I feel that I killed her, and I am the culprit of this matter, so I will have nightmares every night, nightmares about what she looked like before her tragic death, and I can't sleep"
He said slowly and slowly:
¡°It wasn¡¯t until I went to a mental hospital in the past few days that I was prescribed sleeping pills, so I could sleep until dawn.¡±
"The image of her before she died has penetrated deep into my bones, so those emotions will burst out, and I will do very terrible things."
"There's another thing you don't know. Back in City S, I lost control of my emotions and kidnapped Shen Ya. In the woods on the barren mountain, I almost killed her."
"In the end, fortunately, Huo Jingcheng arrived in time. After I woke up, I called the police myself and was sent to the jail in City S."
"He also thought about the friendship between friends and released me from prison. He suppressed all these things and no one knew"
Tang Xiaoran¡¯s fingers trembled slightly, and he suddenly remembered the night when he returned to Xiangjiang and stayed in the apartment!
The whole body is very dirty, there are scratches on the face, there is black ash, and he looks like a beggar!
Tang Xiaoran was speechless.
She lowered her eyes and continued to drink her porridge.
Indeed, all she knew in her heart was the surface of things. As for the inside of things, she had no idea at all.
"Indeed, before I divorced you, I tried hard to integrate into your life and understand your loneliness. If you had said this to me before the divorce, I would have been happy for days and nights. can not sleep."
"We have known each other for nine years and been married for eight years. This is the first time you have opened your heart to me like this. How can I not be excited?"
"But it was only in the past. Now you and I have no relationship at all. It's useless for you to tell me these things."
She looked up at him and spoke very firmly:
¡°I really plan to forget the past and start a new life, so you don¡¯t need to tell me these words!¡±
With his brows furrowed, Su Zhengxiao stared at her for a moment.
"Have you ever heard of such a saying, it's hard to recover from what's been overturned. No matter what you said or what you did, it's all in the past. I can't take it back, and I can't turn back time. How can you put those things back? Let things go?"
A man¡¯s voice is calm, without anger or force.
Some are nothing more than deep decadence and helplessness.
"There is no such thing as whether to let go or not, whether to forgive or not, it is already a thing of the past and I have forgotten it."
Tang Xiaoran¡¯s expression was light, giving people a feeling of being out of touch.
She doesn¡¯t know how much of what she just said was heard and how much she took to heart.
This indifferent, cold, yet indifferent attitude finally succeeded in irritating Su Zhengxiao.
However, most of them are helpless.
She made up her mind. If she didn¡¯t have enough food, rice, oil and salt, what could he do to her?
His chest rose and fell violently for a moment, and then calmed down. In the past, he was not a person who could control his emotions. If he got really angry, more than a dozen people would not be able to resist him.
"Have you had enough for breakfast? If not, I will go buy some on the street. By the way, what do you want to eat for lunch? I can bring it to you when I come over."
In the past, Su Zhengxiao would only get irritable and angry at times like this.
How could he say such words to her with a gentle expression?
Tang Xiaoran lowered his eyes.
Close your eyes, and when you open them again, you will be clear and clear again:
"I will take the nurse from the cafeteria for me when the time comes, so I won't bother you. I almost forgot to say thank you."
With some words of alienation, the distance between the two people was easily opened again!
Su Zhengxiao tightened his hands hanging by his side and wanted to say something, but in the end he did not speak.
He is suppressing his temper!
He left, and Tang Xiaoran was the only one left in the ward.
The window of the room was opened by the nurse. This ward is in a perfect location, with a panoramic view of the green lawn and the sparkling lake.
She stared blankly at the scenery outside the window, her thoughts drifting, circulating, and lost in thought.
After a while, Tang Xiaoran left the ward and went to the doctor's office.
"I think the first wave of chemotherapy can be carried out, the earlier the better. When you get better from the cold, you can start chemotherapy."
"good."
After thinking for a while, Tang Xiaoran asked again: "Is the success rate high?"
"Maybe, it depends on your condition and body's recovery. Your condition is not very good. After all, it is not the early stage of cancer." The doctor said.
Tang Xiaoran was silent.
She felt that although the doctor¡¯s words did not explain clearly, they also hinted that her condition was very bad.
"Pay attention to your health and rest, don't catch another cold, and come for chemotherapy in two days."
The doctor warned again.
For lunch, she asked the nurse to bring one to the cafeteria.
When I was about to eat, Uncle Liu came.
Holding the thermos box, he smiled and said, "The young master asked me to bring it here."
Tang Xiaoran said that he had already prepared the meal and that one person could not eat two portions, so Uncle Liu should take that portion.
Upon hearing this, Uncle Liu came over with a smile.
When she wasn't paying attention, he snatched the lunch box from her hand, smiled and moved his chopsticks: "I didn't eat lunch, so I won't be polite to you. It's just that the lunch that the young master asked to be delivered is for the patient." It¡¯s a nutritious meal. I can¡¯t eat it well if I¡¯m not sick or injured, so I¡¯d better eat this.¡±
¡°If the young master knew that he had eaten the nutritious meal, he would not lose his temper.
Tang Xiaoran; ""
In the afternoon, Su Zhengxiao went to school to pick up Jingxuan and took him towards the hospital.
"From today on, you will live with your mother. After you pack your clothes and things, I will bring them over to you."
"Why is it happening all of a sudden?" Jingxuan was still nibbling on the duck's neck. It was so spicy that his face was slightly red, and he couldn't help but gasp for air. It was so spicy.
"Your mother has been walking very fast these days and is still sick. I don't worry if there is no one around to take care of her." As he said that, he turned the steering wheel to the left. (Remember the website address: www.hlnovel.com