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Text Chapter 581
Later, in some places, I told people in the circles I was in contact with about my love story as a junior high school boy. Although it was unremarkable, it was truthful and pure.
These feelings are just a small test, but I also experienced a feeling of being hurt to the point of heartache, and I clearly remember the sadness and loss at that time.
This is just love, what if it is crazy love that makes it painful? I dare not think about it because I am very emotional.
That boy in the junior high school class didn¡¯t like me at all. He even mocked my charm and said I was sick!
Those who have experienced unrequited love will understand how sad it is to be hurt by the person you have a crush on.
I don¡¯t want to be hurt emotionally by anyone again, not even once! Rather than being severely hurt by your inner arrogance and self-esteem, it is better not to like it. If you like it, it will only be temporary and superficial, and you will not love deeply or become obsessed with it.
Once, I was in the outer courtyard of a bar and saw a girl squatting on the ground crying loudly. Her friends were trying to comfort her. She was crying very sadly.
Because the male fitness god he came into contact with was gay and a bitch, she really couldn't accept such a shocking truth, which was so different from what she imagined.
Of course, all male idols have their own freedom of orientation, and times are tolerant and allow other orientations to exist. Some can even get married and enjoy the same rights as ordinary couples. They do not cheat and show their responsibility and obligations.
The greater the resistance to being together, the more we must stay together. If we don¡¯t separate and don¡¯t give up, then we can love to the core and into the soul.
(Yuan Tian: ¡°You¡¯re not saying that Lin Qisheng¡¯s little cell wants to be with you, are you?¡±)
(Origin: "Written casually, Lin Qisheng doesn't love Meng Sheng, it's just my wishful thinking, love cannot be forced, give him freedom.")
When you are young, if you can, cry more for love. No one always wins in love.
Sometimes I miss those years when my heart was moved by love. As long as you live your whole life, you just have to love.
I used to have a secret love, fantasizing, greedy, and the aftertaste of love.
I also talked and shared with people at the base that I had met an uncle from out of town in the first grade of elementary school, called my second uncle, who worked for my mom and dad¡¯s clothing store. He lived in these homes and was a relative of my grandfather¡¯s family who lived in Lingcheng County.
There was also a very masculine uncle who worked at the factory bathhouse at my grandpa¡¯s house in elementary school. They touched me many times.
In September when I was 26 years old, I met a young male tour guide with curly hair and brown skin in a bar, and I also talked about some past experiences of many people on the Internet.
Once upon a time, there was a Pisces boy from Nancheng. We met in a gaming group. He was the group leader. His family was rich, he had a villa and servants.
I was staying at my mother¡¯s house and chatting with him, and found out that he was of the same orientation, and we were just chatting in the group.
I use a 3,000 netbook, he uses a high-end desktop computer, and he also has a good laptop in the university dormitory. He has many friends and classmates, and he has a good social circle of his own.
Later, when we talked more, he suddenly thought that I already had a partner, so he refused to date him.
But he is very used to having me and doesn¡¯t want to be separated! He can be a mistress without dignity and shame, and I don't have to love him. As long as I can always be with him, I just don't ignore him!
He also spent tens of thousands to stay in a five-star hotel in Kyoto for half a month. Apart from traveling alone, he begged me every day and even scolded me for coming out to meet him.
It¡¯s actually my responsibility! I said I was ugly, but I didn't say I was fat! And there¡¯s no job! Staying at home, where can I find a romantic partner?
If I could tell him the truth, he should have found someone else long ago! It was the youthful age of college love. He didn't like the big fat man, so he let it go.
¡°Then he went back to Nancheng to go to school, and he started to quarrel with me even if we didn¡¯t talk!
He gets moody when nothing happens. He no longer has the clean, naughty and cute aura he once had. He sometimes even becomes depressed, with dazed eyes, hesitant expression, and is always unhappy.
I am no longer in line with his imagination! He humbly agreed to be a child, and his family still had money! He said that I could change my job and live in his house in Nancheng. He didn¡¯t want much! He just wants companionship and dependence. Of course, this is just his idealized personal imagination.
When he and I finally had a complete quarrel, I completely ignored him and he ate after being desperate. Fortunately, his family found out that nothing was wrong.
Her cousin used his number and said she would find someone in Kyoto to kill me! Already locatedCome to my approximate area and don't disappear if you don't want to scare me! How dare you do this to her innocent 20-year-old brother who is in college! If I don't get out! If she dares to chat with her brother again, then burn some paper for yourself in advance and prepare some money for the road!
Then I started to change my phone number and continued to watch his space silently. I never spoke or disturbed him again.
I no longer have my original account number, and my account and password have been deleted from the notepad on my computer.
Until one day, he wrote in the space that his first love was a devil. He really couldn¡¯t imagine what kind of person he was, but he once loved her, and the love was very sad and entangled.
There was a period of time when he wouldn't laugh and just wanted to be alone in a daze, but now he's fine. Now he has a good person who loves him. He wants to let go of these unwillingness and grievances. He also thanks this person for his kindness to him in the past one or two years. The companionship, chatting and irritating remarks made me have some unforgettable memories of my youth.
Then I deleted all the information that I had contact with him, and I couldn¡¯t find this person at all. He lived a happy life, and I was very happy.
Many years later, my mother took me to Nancheng to attend the Nanjing International Trade Fair. I didn¡¯t stay in the hotel or go to the Nanjing International Trade Fair venue.
I wanted to find him on the subway myself, but I didn¡¯t know his home address. He had mentioned it many times before, but I had forgotten it, so I went to other bases and stayed a few times.
Maybe he doesn¡¯t remember me. If he remembers me, I want to tell him that when I chatted with him, I was just a fat young otaku who didn¡¯t have a job and was about the same age as him. I wasn¡¯t the frail uncle he liked who was older than him!
Actually, I envy him a lot. His family has money, plenty of food and clothing, and he is still able to go to college. Unlike me, who was admitted to college for three years, my family had no money to study at that time, so I could only stay at home and suffer in isolation for seven years.
And it¡¯s true that I chatted with him to relieve my boredom! Games such as Denron and Dragons Online and Pokemon Ace Attorney are also fun to play together!
Also, his singing is really hard to listen to. It¡¯s torture to listen to him sing compared to me! Sometimes he speaks in tongues and I don't understand him. He was quite narcissistic. At that time, he was clean and a good sunny boy. It¡¯s just that he can give money to strangers, but he never thought of giving me money to spend.
In the video, he was eating dessert by himself, but he ignored the black screen and the other person could only watch. I also wanted to eat well, but I didn¡¯t have much money at the time.
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