But Jiang Yixing withdrew his hand, and he stood up with difficulty, but his tone was very firm, "Don't worry, I'm really fine. Now you are married, and there is something wrong with sharing the same room with me. Go back soon."
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He just said two short sentences, as if the distance between the two of us had been extended very far, as if everything we had experienced before had been turned into smoke.
It seems that the two of us are no longer friends.
But I still decided to leave, "I'll go back first, you take good care of yourself."
Since you deliberately want to avoid me, then it is impossible for me to continue to accompany you here.
As long as you are fine, as long as you are well, I will be relieved.
He looked at my back with a very indifferent tone, "Go back and have a good rest, don't worry about me."
I don't know when it started, the distance between the two of us seems to be getting farther and farther.
I walked in this palace like a god. The big and small palaces all have the same appearance, the same splendor, and the same inaccessibility.
All of this seems to be getting farther and farther away from me, as if everything here does not belong to me.
Why everything in front of me has become so out of reach at this time.
The palace servants in the Palace of Liangchen seem to be very afraid of me
On the roads I walked, all the palace people buried their heads low, as if they were afraid of being seen by me.
I am Cang Ran's queen, but I will not kill you, and I am not some plague god.
Why are you so afraid of me
A cold voice sounded from the front left of me, "You went to his place."
I looked in the direction of the voice, and it was Xu Zhishi.
How could it be him How could I meet him again here.
My heart trembled, didn't he already leave
No, I left that room, I am walking in the Hall of Liangchen, how could I not meet him
I nodded, with a sore heart but still coldly replied, "Yes, I went to his place."
His eyes dimmed a bit suddenly, and the chill emanating from his body made me want to take a few steps back.
Xu Zhishi stared straight at me, as if asking for an answer, "Did you forget that you already"
But he still didn't ask that question after all, after all, he sighed quietly, only took a step closer to me, and said in a low voice, "What do you want to do, then do it, I didn't What do you care about your qualifications?"
He said such a sentence, which made my heart a little bit colder.
Why do I feel at this moment, I feel that my whole being seems to have lost everything.
My eyes were lost for a moment, and I just whispered, "I want to be alone and rest quietly."
His tone was cold, as if he had returned to the cold boy at the beginning, "I won't bother you, and no palace people will bother you. Since you want to take a good rest, then go."
But not so long ago, he was so gentle with me.
Tell me, are you a fickle person?
I endured the pain in my heart and replied in a low voice, "Okay."
When I just took a step to go back, he suddenly stopped me again, "Yi'er, wait."
My complexion didn't change, but there was a trace of joy in my heart, I asked in a low voice, "What's wrong?"
His gaze didn't fall on me, but just looked into the distance, "I have already selected a palace for you, very close to Nanjia Palace and Liangchen Palace."
At that moment, I felt a little lost, and I whispered, "Okay, I understand, everything can be arranged by you."
You obviously stopped me, I obviously stopped, but why didn't you say something else to me
Do you know that at the moment you called me to stop, there was still some joy in my heart.
Do you know how important you are to me.
Xu Zhishi, why, why do you always treat me like this?
Just before today, I thought the relationship between the two of us was already very good
I have always hoped that such an ordinary life can last until the day I grow old. I hope no matter how long it takes, we can live like thatThis demure life.
But I forgot that the life of two people needs to be supported by two people together. I am the only one who is willing to live that kind of life, and it is impossible to go on forever.
Moreover, the love in your heart is not me.
The person in your heart who wants to live forever is not me. The person you want to be with is not me. You were never mine, your tenderness was never mine.
Such an ordinary life, the kind of life I yearn for, has never belonged to me.
Maybe I don't deserve all this at all, maybe I don't deserve you at all, yeah, how could I live like that all the time.
It's because I'm not qualified, because I'm not good enough.
I continued to walk forward without looking back, I dared not look at his expression or hear his voice.
In fact, I know that all my expectations will not come. Everything I want will never come to me again.
I am afraid that all the light in my heart will be extinguished.
I am afraid that I will really feel hopeless.
Sure enough, he didn't bother me again.
I am alone in the room, wanting to forget all this by falling asleep, I even want to enter the dreamland sooner, let me feel another world sooner.
But I tossed and turned and didn't fall asleep for a long time.
Why is this happening.
Anan, you are going to get farther and farther away from me after all.
After all, you still do not belong to me.
It turns out that the feelings in this world are all like this.
It's not that as long as we marry you, the two of us will be able to live together forever, and it's not that as long as I marry you, you will fall in love with me one day.
This fact is not the case. When two people who don't love get married, they will never have the sweetness between lovers.
This is the case with the two of us. If he doesn't love me, he will never, ever love me.
I know it clearly, but I always deceive myself habitually.
Anan, I hope that one day, you will tell me that you can no longer leave me.
How much I hope that one day, you will show me your tenderness sincerely.
How much I hope that one day, that tenderness belongs to me alone, and that tenderness can accompany me every day
But Anan, I also hope that you can find happiness.
But your happiness requires you to make a choice yourself, you need to choose to forget her and start your life again.
How I wish you could see my existence.
I hope that one day, you will remember that there is always a me by your side.
I was in the room, holding myself tightly with my hands, wanting to cry, but suppressing my voice, weeping in a low voice, "Anan, you don't even know how much I like you."
How much I like you, for you, I am willing to give up myself.
But I
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