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    Followed by smiles all over her face, this scene was so strange to Qing'er but also so joyful, she liked to see this man laugh, and liked to see this man laugh wantonly without any scruples.  This kind of smile is so warm to her, warming her body and mind.

    After a few big men fought and ate, they left silently. Before I left, I subconsciously looked at Madman Chen, saw the tenderness in his eyes, and also saw the smile in his eyes.  I knew this woman really made him feel happy.  I closed the door silently, and a smile appeared on my face unconsciously.

    After that day, the relationship between us seemed to be back to the past, as close as before, but not as unscrupulous as before.  We walked into each other's lives again, saw their smiling faces that day, and Crazy Chen also understood that they never blamed himself, and they never felt that they had abandoned them, everything was just his own obsession  That's all.

    Their life is like starting again, and everything is on a normal track. Suddenly, one day, Madman Chen came to my school. I just finished class and looked at him in a suit, and a big smile appeared on his face.  question mark.  He rarely came to school to look for me, and this time he didn't even make a phone call. I walked over quickly and asked, "What's the matter? Is something wrong?"

    Crazy Chen shook his head with a smile, and said, "No, nothing happened. I just want to meet you. Let's go and have a drink with my brother."

    I looked at Crazy Chen, and although I felt a little baffled, I followed behind him and walked to a tavern. After drinking for three rounds, Crazy Chen put down his glass, looked at me intently, and said in a low voice: "Nan Xuan  , are you really willing? Can you really let go of some things? "

    When I heard this, the hand that was picking up the vegetables couldn't help but paused, and I lowered my head, not daring to look into his eyes.  I don't know what kind of flames are bursting out from my heart.  I tried my best to suppress it, and I kept telling myself that these things have nothing to do with me anymore.  That thing is already far away from me, isn't it good to be an ordinary person honestly?

    Go to university well, enter the society well, find a decent job, marry a wife who loves and depends on each other, isn't it good to just spend your life like this?  Dreaming about this kind of thing is too illusory, so stop dreaming.  But I can't suppress it. The restlessness in my heart is the desire for dreams. What I don't know is that I have suppressed it for too long, and it has become the strongest obsession in my heart!

    I looked at the wine glass bitterly, and reluctantly said: "Let it go, I've let it go a long time ago, madman, from the moment I entered the school, these things have nothing to do with me, you know? I can't go back  , I can't feel it anymore!"

    Crazy Chen sneered, and said seriously to me: "Ask your own heart, ask yourself, and look at yourself now. Have you really done it? You really completely forgot about it  You have never been there before, Nan Xuan, don¡¯t hide from your truest feelings, you can fool anyone, but you can¡¯t fool me! You are trapped, you are trapped in your own strange circle, Nan Xuan, pick it up  , do what you love the most!"

    "What do you know?! Madman, what do you know? I don't have talent, I don't have that kind of talent, you know? I told my parents, their weird eyes, you know? I told my friends my age, I changed  Come ridicule. You know what? I can't face it, I can't face the cynicism, I get approval from others, I don't get approval from anyone!"

    I roared, I yelled madly at Madman Chen, I was constantly venting my dissatisfaction in my heart, that was my dream!  Do you know how uncomfortable the pain, the heartfelt pain, is when a dream is directly torn apart?  I don't want to go through it again, and I can't bear the pain.

    In their eyes, I am just a toad who wants to eat swans, but I hope that what I write will be seen by more people. Is it wrong?  Am I wrong in wanting my dreams to come true?  I know that online novels are fast food, I know that this is a single-plank bridge, and no one will stand on the top, the narrow chance of one in a hundred thousand, but my heart is not that big.  I just wish I could support myself by doing what I love!

    I clenched my fists tightly with both hands, stared at Madman Chen, and kept waving them. He doesn't understand, he doesn't understand me!

    "Why do you think you know me so well, why do you think that, you know what it's like not to be recognized, lonely, ridiculed, helpless, I'm done. I gave up and it all came back  In the past, everything was fine, why did you show up to dissuade me when I had already given up my mind!" I kept talking, and Madman Chen just?Look at me quietly, look at me quietly until I calm down.  Until I sat back in my seat, until I lowered my head, Crazy Chen didn't speak, just stared at me, just looked at me plainly.

    Crazy Chen raised his mouth slightly and said, "Have you yelled enough? Have you said enough? I don't understand. Is there anyone in this world who knows better than me the pain that dreams cannot come true? Someone knows better than me,  In the eyes of my family, how precious is something that is not doing a proper job to me? It used to be all of me, all of my life!"

    "I" I didn't know what to say. Indeed, the man in front of me was more qualified to talk about this topic than anyone else, and he was so close to that stage.  If his father hadn't passed away suddenly, maybe he could really see him standing on the stage exuding his own light now!

    "Unrecognized? You know what? When I started, in a small bar, singing my first song I wrote, I was kicked off the stage. I was yelled at  I cursed off the stage. I secretly hid in the background and cried, but I got a pair of indifferent eyes, because to them, I was just a failed competitor. No one would sympathize with a loser.  A piece of garbage that was eliminated on the stage!" Crazy Chen said these words calmly, but he could also see the unwilling light in his eyes.

    Yes, he is still not reconciled now, his heart still belongs to that rock boy, but everything he carries no longer allows him to be the original him.  His eyes are still fiery, and he is still full of faith when he mentions his favorite thing!  (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com
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