"Really? That's not bad." I said to the phone with a smile, but at this moment, my heart seemed to be crushed in two by something. It was a kind of pain, a kind of pain that was torn apart. I don't know why, or I dare not admit why.
"Really? Zhou Xiao, you touch your heart. If you touch your heart, doesn't it hurt now? Ah!"
"Why should I be in pain? Why should I? Ziliang, don't think you know me well. You haven't met me for many years. Why do you have it?" Uneasy, desperately trying to cover up the truth!
"Zhou Xiao, are you still a man? Have you lived in a dog's belly for more than 20 years? Why don't you admit that you love her! Why do you live so selfishly? Why do you let your wishes go in vain? Waiting for you for ten years!"
I fell silent, I don't know what to say, I don't know how to answer.
"Come out! Drink!" Ziliang hung up the phone after finishing speaking.
I was sitting in that familiar tavern, and Ziliang smiled and waved to me, just as relaxed as before. When I really sat down, the first thing Ziliang said to me was: " That day, Xi Ruan called me and said she was getting married soon, my first reaction at that time was, you idiot confessed to her, the first thing I said was congratulations to you and Ah Xiao!"
"But her second sentence is that the groom is not you! Do you know what I wanted to do at that time? I wanted to punch you in the face, you know? You made her wait for you for ten years!" Zi Liang Smiling, he put the wine into his mouth.
I stared at the man in front of me, and the first thing I said was: "You like her!"
Ziliang looked at me for a long time before saying: "It's true, but it can only be said that it was in the past, right? Do you know why I haven't contacted you for the past two years? Because I confessed, she I will never forget what she said to me, she told me who she loves, I will not be unclear. After that, it took me a whole year to get out, and it took a whole year to re- Falling in love with someone else, oh, yes, I forgot to tell you, I will get married in half a year, and Ting!"
I really drank with him very late that day, I don't remember what I said to him, and I don't know how I got home, but I never heard that me from my mouth after that day. The name that has been on my lips all the year round. Since that day, I have lost another girl, a girl who has been with me for four years. Dream left a letter and left my world. I became a so-called loner, with two non-stop voices constantly intertwined in my mind. I don't know who the person I love is, and I dare not make this so-called decision.
I commute to and from get off work as usual, face an empty home as usual, prepare two breakfasts as usual, and say good night to the spare room as usual, I didn¡¯t go to dream, and I didn¡¯t contact Xixiu again. If there is no such phone, I might really just get by with it.
After get off work that day, the phone rang suddenly. It was an unfamiliar number. I picked up the phone habitually, but heard a voice that I didn't really want to hear.
"Help me find her, okay? I beg you!" A deep male voice rang in my ear.
At that moment, I really didn't think about it, and I agreed directly. Looking at the locked phone, he showed an extremely ugly smile.
"You are really here!" I stood quietly behind Xiyuan and said softly.
"Only you can guess!" Xi Ruan turned around slowly, that familiar smiling face was so dazzling and bright in my eyes.
"Why? Why are you doing this?"
"You know, why are you asking me?"
"I don't know, and I don't want to know, I'm just here to take you back!" I said pretending to be firm.
Xiyuan walked up to me step by step, staring at me with those bright eyes, and said word by word: "Zhou Xiao, I will give you the choice. You can choose to take me away, or you can choose to take me with you." Go! I don't want to wait any longer, I don't want to wait until the next dream, facing you, I have the confidence to beat any woman, because there is no one in this world who understands you better than me, but the appearance of the dream really gave me A sense of crisis, I don¡¯t want to wait any longer, I thought my wedding date would let you know your own heart, but how did you manage to be so unfeeling! Zhou Xiao, I love you, I love you for a whole day ten years!"
I laughed, and took out the letter left by the dream from my arms. There were only a few lines:
Zhou Xiao, recognize your own heart, I have been with you for four years, and I have loved you for four years, but during these four years, have you ever loved me for a minute? Zhou Xiao, find your own happiness!
"Hehe, you?These women! "I squatted on the ground halfway, and said a little madly: "You know what? wish you knew I love you, I love you very much, but compared with loving you, I am more afraid of losing you. Do you know how scared I am? I don't know what my world would be like without you, I'm weak, fragile, I don't know what I would become without you, so I'm so scared, I'm afraid I'm really with you, I'm afraid that after breaking up, you and I will be strangers, what a terrible word stranger, that is a day that I can't even imagine! That's right, I'm a coward, a coward who never dares to say I love you! "
"I know I'm selfish, I know, I want to keep you by my side, but I dare not really keep you by my side, I struggle, I hesitate, I know that sooner or later you will really leave me By my side, but what can I do, what can I do, I have tried, tried to find someone to replace you in my heart, I tried to forget everything about us, I also tried to make the dream become you, but I can't fucking do it, you know? Hope, I can't fucking do it, every time I see you, those past, those once, those days when you were with me all come to my mind, I In my memory, in my body, I can't let go, can't forget, hope, I want to forget you so much, but I can't even do such a simple thing!"
Tears kept falling down my cheeks, I don't know how embarrassed I am at this moment, how embarrassed I am, I don't even dare to look up at her, because I know that she is also crying at this moment.
"Do you know? I tried to escape from the city and the place where you were, but I came back with crazy thoughts and the decision to confess to you, but when I saw you again, you were no longer The ugly duckling in the past, you have become excellent and dazzling, and I am still that useless trash, why should I, why should I be with you!"
Hope didn't speak, just hugged me gently in his arms, in this slightly dark corner, the timid and fragile us who huddled together
After half a year
At my wedding, I took a microphone and announced to everyone, I hope, what I promised you, I did it, in my house, I will always have a room with you! (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com