I sat in the car and silently listened to Sister Shi Yu's story, and she also fell into a brief silence when she said this.
Maybe it brought back Shi Yu's childhood memories, I looked away sadly at the white street outside the car window, and at this quiet moment, I seemed to hear the real snow falling blown up by the howling wind outside the car.
"Actually, sometimes when I'm alone in bed, I feel tired, neither physically nor mentally, but a strange feeling, like running counter to my own will, doing what I want to do It¡¯s always a little different.¡± Sister Shi Yu turned around and looked straight ahead, and said in a low tone, ¡°It¡¯s like you have to go when you don¡¯t want to go, and you have to accept it when you don¡¯t want toFate always arranges some contradictions. But what we have to do is often not how to do it, but how to make choices because too many times, one thought is wrong, one step is wrong, and it will lead to catastrophe."
Hearing sister Shi Yu speak again, I also turned sideways and concentrated. I didn't even have the desire to pick up my phone to say something, because Shi Yu sees through much more things than I do, whether it's the light and beauty of this society. The darkness is still the relationship and entanglement between people. She can always find a way in adversity and find a fulcrum in the upcoming sadness. And I, besides crying, decadent, can do nothing.
I nodded half-understood, and Sister Shi Yu smiled and continued: "Following the story just now After escaping from birth, I threw myself into the nanny's arms and cried loudly, and the gentle and kind nanny I was familiar with My sister seems to be a different person, her voice is a little cold It should be said that the whole person has a different temperament, very strange, but still very warm."
"'Don't be afraid, let's go home', the sister-in-law said to me, and then covered my eyes with her hand, took my hand and walked like this until I got into another car, She just let go." Shi Yu stretched out her snow-white finger and nodded her lips, staring at the distance outside the car, "Sitting in the car, I kept crying, but I forgot to ask what happened. One thing, maybe there is no such life in my heart, and she seems to be a little annoyed by my quarrel, so she looks out of the window and whispers to me, "Come into the house and follow me closely." , don¡¯t move and don¡¯t make a sound¡¯, I quickly nodded in agreement, and only then did I realize that something bad was about to happen.¡±
"I took her hand and walked into the hall. The sudden darkness made me feel a little confused for a moment. I could only follow her footsteps and walked all the way until I walked into the room where my parents lived on the second floor. I just stayed where I was." Sister Shi Yu's expression became very painful, and I quickly reached out to hold her trembling little hand.
"Everything in the house is the same as before, except my father lying peacefully on the bed, but at this time I saw the nanny sister left me and ran to the bed quickly, and after feeling the pulse of my father, I did a lot. The first aid measures, but there is no artificial respiration Then she let out a hoarse cry, and I was frightened by her sudden action, and then I seemed to understand something, and walked to her Beside him, he looked at his father who was lying stiffly on the bed, and reached out to touch him."
Sister Shi Yu's hands trembled very much, which made me a little worried, and I even wanted her to stop talking, but she still smiled at me and said with a pale face: "This is the first time I touched a dead body, and He is still my father, the person who has treated me the best since I was a child"
Shi Yu's voice was choked when he said this, but he still pretended to be calm and told a miserable story: "I just touched his stiff body that was still warm, and turned my head to look at the nanny. And she wiped away the tears after crying, pulled me aside who didn't know what death was, and started to restore the big bed to the way it was when she first came in, and then took me out, telling me that my father was just asleep , don¡¯t worry, but I can clearly see that there are still tears in the corners of her red eyes.¡±
"In the end she locked me in her room, told me not to make a sound, and then she turned off the light and left. I don't know how long it took, I heard the doorbell ringing continuously, but it didn't seem to be Someone went to open the door, and after a while I heard the voice of my mother coming back, as if she was talking to a certain man, as the footsteps got closer, I heard someone walking into the room where my father was lying."
"I don't know what happened after that, and I didn't see it. After the door of my room was opened again, I was stunned by the person standing in front of me. She was covered with bright red blood, and she gave out a feeling that made me cry. The smell of nausea, and looking into her eyes in horror, I realized that the woman in front of me was the nanny sister who was in the room where I was before." Sister Shi Yu finally regained her calm voice, and gently held my hand , "Her eyes are a little dull, without a trace of life,It was as if the person standing in front of me was a puppet, looking at my frightened face, she suddenly smiled, even though she was covered in blood, she still smiled beautifully, and even made me feel very warm"
Listening to Sister Shi Yu's narration, I seemed to have guessed something, but I was frightened by my own thoughts. Could there really be such an incredible thing in life?
"I walked out of the room and followed the blood on the ground to the house where my parents used to live, but I knelt on the ground and vomited it out. The whole house smelled like a strong bloody smell, and the house was even more horrible I saw it falling My mother on the bloody ground also saw a strange man lying on the sofa covered in blood, but at this time I seemed to be numb, and I seemed to have gradually become familiar with such fear. Although my tears were still flowing involuntarily, but My mind went blank and I finally passed out."
"After getting up the next day, looking at the familiar room and quilt, the scenes I saw at night seemed like a big dream. I opened the door and ran into my father's room. It was clean and tidy, just like my previous home, but only Only two people I am most familiar with are missing At that time, I could no longer distinguish between reality and fantasy, but when I went downstairs, I saw the nanny sister who was still dressed in white clothes, and breakfast was already prepared on the table." Sister Shi Yu seemed Recalling some good things, he paused and said, "During that breakfast, the nanny told me many things that I couldn't understand at the time, about life and about love Later, I was sent by her for a while. I went to her distant relative¡¯s house and stayed for three years. During these three years, I was woken up by that nightmare every day, but after waking up, I even lost the strength to cry. Day after day, with my age I also gradually understood the intricate relationship in this matter.¡±
"In a few years, through some reports from the outside world and my fragmented memories, I had to admit a realitymy mother was just a woman, five years younger than my father, and she had me after marriage. , but still mixed with those dubious men from before, eating, drinking and having fun every day is endless, not so much loafing as madness.¡± Sister Shi Yu sighed, looked into my eyes, and maintained the usual "Later, it was two years later that I saw the nanny. Looking at me who was healthy and growing up, she smiled, but she was a little lonely in my eyes. During the short meeting, she said to me The truth of the year came out, and I have already guessed a lot of the truth, because at this time I was already a twenty-year-old girl, and I was no longer the little princess who didn't understand anything. Maybe she would come to find me. I also have such a reason in it!"
"As I guessed, she killed my mother and that man. She asked me if I hated her, but I couldn't say a word. Then she handed me a photo, which is a very old In the photo of her and my father, she is so young and beautiful, and my father also looks stable and mature She said to me, 'You have to live well, live for yourself', and then left I haven¡¯t seen her again until now.¡± Sister Shi Yu lowered her head and said in a low voice, ¡°Six years have passed in a blink of an eye, maybe this meeting will really be a farewell.¡±
"In the past six years, I still have the nightmare I saw that night. It seems to be a knot that can never be resolved, and it has always remained in my mind Every time I wake up, I will read it from beginning to end. After thinking about this matter, I can always come up with some new conclusions. Although these are all my guesses, I still feel that the person who loves my father the most in this world is not my mother, but her. A nanny who is willing to stay in my house for unknown reasons She has been silent for my father, and she has ruined her life for revenge Maybe my father also likes her, maybe it's just because of various reasons That¡¯s why we couldn¡¯t get together, and maybe my father already knew about my mother¡¯s frequent cheating, but he just didn¡¯t want to break up such a life and kept enduring it"
"I have so many things I want to ask her. I want to know whether she has lived with peace of mind for so many years. I also have many doubts. I want to hear her explanation, stand in front of her and hear her answer. Love Where is my father?" Sister Shi Yu smiled but still cried, "I don't want to know what kind of identity she is, I just want to know what kind of beliefs allow her to abscond alone Outside, have you been working hard until now?"
"Love is complicated and sacred after all I received a message from her a few days ago. She seemed tired and wanted to surrender. Before that, she wanted to see me again"
Sister Shi Yu reached out and gently touched my cheek, and said softly: "My nanny sister, her name is Shi Yuqi." (Remember the website website: www.hlnovel.com