Pushing open the door of the restaurant angrily, I took Su Xuefei's little hand and strode away.
Walking on the snow that has been covered again at some point, my heart hurts one after another. What happened to this world? Why do the people I value in the past and now treat me like this? Is it because I did something wrong, or should all these sins be attributed to the rotten phrase "things are different from people"?
I angrily kicked away the pile of snow under the street lamp, and then subconsciously went to get out the cigarette, but when I opened it, I found that there was only an empty box left. I didn't care about being polite, I just rubbed the cigarette case and threw it on the ground, and turned around to find a store to buy another.
"Yang Chen, what's the matter?" Su Xuefei followed my footsteps, seemingly puzzled by my anger.
"What's wrong? They're insulting us. You're as smart as you can't even see this!" I stopped and said to Su Xuefei in a bad tone, "Won't you be angry when others say that to you? I should What can I say about you, saint?"
Su Xuefei stared at me blankly, then lowered her head and whispered, "How could I not know"
After hearing what she said, I could only turn my head away, what the hell was I doing Su Xuefei was hurt because of me in the end, why should I vent my grievances on her
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"Yang Chen, if other people's resentment makes you feel sad and angry, then we will hurt ourselves after all." Su Xuefei interrupted me, lowered her head and continued, "Where is there any saint in the world? Injury, but no matter what kind of injury, physical or spiritual, in the end, we actually hurt ourselves, don't we?"
I looked at Su Xuefei, gently reached out and patted the falling snow off her shoulder, and tried to make my voice soft: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have talked to you like this."
Su Xuefei raised her head and looked at me, but with crystal clear tears in her eyes, she said softly: "Actually, to me, what they said, what they did, whether they were there or not, has nothing to do with me In this world, The only thing that can hurt me is the people I care about, only their words and deeds will make me unable to ignore them, do you understandYang Chen"
I was at a loss as I looked at Goddess Su with tears running down her cheeks. From the beginning to now, in fact, I was the one who hurt her the mostBecause of my kind invitation, I couldn't refuse the dinner that I didn't want to attend. I was insulted by those wretched guys because of my face, because my impulsiveness hurt her fragile and pure heart
In fact, I was wrong, and I was wrong from the very beginning.
Trembling, I raised my hand, gently wiped away the tears on her face, and apologized in a low voice, "I'm sorry."
Su Xuefei looked at my movements, and the surprise in her eyes flashed away, then she wiped the corners of her eyes herself, and then said with a forced smile: "Don't apologize, I don't accept it, I just happen to be hungry, find someone place to eat?"
I nodded, and then led Goddess Su into a ramen restaurant. Goddess Su could tell that she was really hungry and ate a whole bowl of beef noodles! Although this amount of food is very ordinary for ordinary people, for me who often eats with Su Xuefei, it really surprised me that she could eat a whole bowl of noodles.
I was too lazy to go out and find a store to buy cigarettes. When I checked out, I bought a pack of cigarettes with a higher price at the front desk, but this behavior made Su Xuefei who was standing next to me very unhappy. Stop me, but there is no actual action.
"It's getting late, let's go back, my hometown is just such a thing, there's nothing interesting about it."
"On the contrary, I think this place is very good. If you can spend your whole life here with the person you like, it must be very beautiful."
I smiled and said to Su Xuefei: "Okay, Goddess Su, when you find the other half of your life, come here. I welcome you, the gods and couples, at any time!"
"You think so" Su Xuefei glanced at me, then raised her head to look at the starry sky, wondering what she was thinking.
"Um."
"Sometimes you are really stupid, no wonder the class teacher always asks you to go to the office!"
"Hey, you just need to know it yourself, you have to say it to make me feel awkward!"
Afterwards, Goddess Su and I walked back home at the same speed as walking. There was no light overflowing from the window. It seemed that my parents and Xiaoya should have rested. Opening the door, Su Xuefei and I carefully hung up our clothes, then tiptoed back to our respective rooms.
Lying on the bed, I took out my mobile phone out of boredom, but found that I didn¡¯t know when the mobile phoneThere were several more messages on it, one from Shi Yu, two from Zhao Kewen, and one from Luo Qing.
"Where is it?" I opened Sister Shi Yu's message first, it was simple and clear, I glanced at the date subconsciously, today is Friday I instantly understood, Sister Shi Yu must have gone to the cold drink shop to find me again as scheduled, and Yang Xiaoyu kept it from her She didn't tell me about going home, so she asked once. As for why she didn't call but sent a message, I can also guess that Sister Shi Yu is so smart that she must be able to see that Yang Xiaoyu is deceiving her, and she also knows that I deliberately don't want her to know about it. Calling would make it difficult for me. Looking at these two simple words, my heart feels warm. The one who understands me best is Sister Shi Yu after all.
"The bed at home." I replied such a simple sentence, I believe that if it was Shi Yu, she would understand.
Opened the message from Zhao Kewen casually, and saw that it said: "Brother, where are you going, it's been a long night, sister misses you!"
I opened the second message she sent without knowing whether to laugh or cry: "Tell the truth where you went, or don't blame my sister for killing flowers with her hands!"
I couldn't help laughing and typing: "My little brother will go home to recuperate for a while, and if he has a chance, he will be a pleading guilty!" Then I pressed the send button.
The only thing left is the message from Luo Qing's familiar but unfamiliar number. I hesitated for a long time and decided to delete it directly. Out of sight, out of mind, she said that it was her business and had nothing to do with me. Never be related again.
Before I put down the phone, it vibrated again inappropriately. I swiped open the screen again to see the message from Sister Shi Yu: "How long are you coming back? An Ye and Youqin may pass by here recently, are you coming to pick them up? "
"Sister, I won't go."
"Is something wrong?"
"It's okay, sister, go to bed early, don't be too tired."
After this message was sent, Sister Shi Yu didn't reply to me again. I threw my phone on the table, covered myself with a quilt and closed my eyes to prepare for sleep.
Jinlan in the dark night is so quiet, compared with the night in Yichun, it is simply two extremes. Although I know the bustling night in Yichun better, I don't like that kind of life. I feel that everyone is wearing a hat with the word "busy", looking for the lost self in the dark night, or Trying to find a way is to get lost.
"Yang Chen, are you asleep?"
Just when I was thinking wildly, Su Xuefei's gentle voice came in through the crack of the door.
"Why are you here again?" I opened the door and looked at the goddess Su who was as pure as a lotus under the moonlight, and my heartbeat speeded up unconsciously.
"Can't sleep." Su Xuefei replied coquettishly, then walked into my room and lay down on my bed.
"Are I getting sleepy again Let me tell you, if you have time, you can go to the forum and find the lecture records of our high school head teacher. Listening to it for a while will definitely be very effective!" I closed the door and simply sat by the bed. Nest uncomfortable.
"It's just good for you." Su Xuefei buried her face in the pillow, seemingly very comfortable, but her voice was very vague, "Don't tell me you used to treat insomnia like this"
I smiled awkwardly, then looked at the starry sky outside the window, and whispered: "You said that if people can be as good as stars, they don't need to shine by themselves, and poets and painters will praise them."
"Do you like celebrities?" Su Xuefei got up, leaned her back against the wall, and asked a question that didn't seem to be related to my topic.
"I'm talking about filled stars, not movie or singing stars"
"Oh, I remember you once said that you like celebrities, and when you suddenly remembered it, you asked."
I looked at Su Xuefei who was wearing thin clothes beside me, and whispered, "I'll buy you a pajamas tomorrow."
"What's the matter?" Su Xuefei looked down at her clothes, "Is there something wrong?"
"It's nothing, I'm just afraid that if I accidentally see something I shouldn't see, it will be too unfair to you." I glanced at her, and quickly retracted my gaze. Well, once I say it, I will not look in the right place.
Su Xuefei hugged her body subconsciously, and then whispered: "Are you still sad about what happened at night?"
I laughed and said, "Why are you sad?"
Su Xuefei didn't speak, but still stared at me, which made me feel a little embarrassed, and then continued to explain: "From childhood, I have been betrayed and used by others. I have long been used to it, so many people can Hurt me, not worse than this one."
"Is it really not bad?" Su Xuefei smiled softly, then moved closer to me, and whispered in my ear, "You are not bad, but I am not afraid."
"Not afraid?" I didn't understand what she meant. Normally speaking, everyone would be afraid of pain and betrayal, afraid of the feeling of gain and loss.
"Well, because I have very few friends, none of them will betray me."
"If Qin Xiaomo takes advantage of you one day, what will you do?" I also let her lean on me, wondering.
"If there is such a day, maybe I will go crazy Xiaomo, or you It's the same. Once injured, it may be fatal." Su Xuefei thought for a while, and said with a smile, as if Like talking about other people's affairs, it doesn't seem to care. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com)?I leaned close to my side and whispered in my ear, "You are not bad, I am not afraid."
"Not afraid?" I didn't understand what she meant. Normally speaking, everyone would be afraid of pain and betrayal, afraid of the feeling of gain and loss.
"Well, because I have very few friends, none of them will betray me."
"If Qin Xiaomo takes advantage of you one day, what will you do?" I also let her lean on me, wondering.
"If there is such a day, maybe I will go crazy Xiaomo, or you It's the same. Once injured, it may be fatal." Su Xuefei thought for a while, and said with a smile, as if Like talking about other people's affairs, it doesn't seem to care. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com