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Zhou Shaoting really drank too much, otherwise he wouldn't have said such contradictory words that Xiaoshi was not allowed to leave. It was just a longing he buried deep in his heart. When he was awake, he would never allow others to know about it, especially Yan Xiaoshi.
But now, he was drunk, not entirely because of the alcohol. He has always been restrained in the entertainment field, and the wine is far from enough to make him confused. He was bewitched by the emotions he had accumulated for many days, or by the obsession he had held on to for many years. His reason succumbed to his emotions. He indulged himself and broke out recklessly.
Zhou Shaoting's jaw line tightened, and with his hands, he rubbed Xiaoshi into his arms, resting his chin on the top of her head, and said word by word: "Even if you escape to the ends of the world, I will find you, I will find you." no sooner said than done!"
Xiaoshi's body trembled, and her memory instantly fell into the tunnel of time and space, and she fell back to the j club bar more than seven years ago. Under the dim and gloomy light, a young girl persistently asked the man beside her: "Then if you didn't meet me in Guanghua, would you just give up?"
"No, if I want to find someone, I will find someone even in the ends of the earth. Unless, I give up."
Could it be that he never gave up in his heart? But why wait until it's too late to say anything! They have already lost too much and cannot afford more training.
Xiaoshi's chest was painful and tight, and Zhou Shaoting was holding her tightly in his arms, making her unable to breathe, feeling like she was about to suffocate.
But she was holding back her breath in her heart, hating Zhou Shaoting for not saying it sooner or later, insisting on saying it at this time, after she had made all the decisions, she went back and forth, making her at a loss what to do, and even more confused.
Zhou Shaoting's arms unconsciously strengthened again, Xiao Shi felt that his chest was about to be squeezed by his body, blood surged up, and he bit down on Zhou Shaoting's suit where the shirt was exposed.
The muscles in the man's chest are tight and strong, and the winter clothes are thick. She didn't bite her mouth down, so she couldn't help being ruthless, and buckled it in with her teeth hard. This time, she bit it, and it was very hard.
Zhou Shaoting only heard a muffled snort, but the strength in his hand was still not loose, allowing her to hold his own flesh in his mouth, and wrap her in his arms.
Xiao Shi was puzzled, and secretly increased her strength. Zhou Shaoting could almost feel her small, thin teeth viciously trying to penetrate into his flesh. He suspected that the woman was crazy, and lowered his head to see her face.
Taking advantage of this opportunity, Xiaoshi suddenly let go, and pushed Zhou Shaoting out with all his strength. She propped herself up on the table, out of breath, with uncontrollable ferocity and desire in her eyes, like a small animal trapped in a cage, fighting with all her strength, and at the same time, worshiping death.
Zhou Shaoting looked down at the bite wet piece on the shirt, and smiled with the corners of his lips curled up, looking at Xiaoshi with interest.
He really underestimated this woman, but she still has such a fierce and violent side!
However, Xiao Shi was not interested at all, her tongue was sucked dry by the man's shirt, and she couldn't control it, and it moistened and moistened between her teeth, and said angrily: "You said to let go! This is the second time you do this said."
The first time was when she was on the phone in her junior year. She was already crying, but he said in a calm and chilling tone: " If, you can try to let go, maybe it will be better."
Thinking of the past, Xiao Shi smiled sadly, stared at Zhou Shaoting's face, and became more and more excited as she spoke, "Okay, I respect your choice, although I feel very sad and reluctant, but can't I suffer on my own? I thought about making it up, I Waiting for you, looking forward to you, looking for you, but where are you? I can¡¯t even ask you to forgive me, and I can¡¯t leave quietly, what do you want from me! Do you know how tormented I am?¡± She stretched out her arms, Pointing to the computer in the bedroom, "Seeing the reports about you and Sun Xiaonan, do you think I will feel better?!"
The smile on Zhou Shaoting's lips disappeared, and his thin lips were tightly pressed together.
Xiaoshi recklessly finished the pile of words, and felt relieved, only feeling weak all over, and his hands and feet were weak. She supported the table and moved to the small sofa, sat down sideways, put her arms around herself, stared blankly at the floor, and murmured: "Since I met you, I feel that I have spent my whole life. Tired, I can't stand it anymore."
Seeing Xiao Shi like this, Zhou Shaoting woke up for the most part, calmly dissipated the hot thoughts in his head, and the previous decision and the logic at the time convinced him again of his deepest desire.
"Yes, I'm the one who wants to let go." Zhou Shaoting walked slowly towards the girl lying crooked on the sofa, squatting on one knee in front of her, his eyes full of pity, "You have suffered, Yan Yan. I remember you and me As I said, you just want to sleep soundly every day and wake up with peace of mindYour request is so little, but I can't give it to you. "
Zhou Shaoting turned his head and looked at??There were two suitcases on the floor in the bedroom, and she smiled relievedly, "Perhaps you would be better off without me."
Xiaoshi looked at the man in front of her in disbelief, did he understand what she said? Did he know her at all? Does he still have a heart?
There was a sneering smile on the corner of Xiaoshi's lips, but there were tears in his eyes, "You really think so?"
Zhou Shaoting turned to look at her, but he couldn't understand.
Xiaoshi wiped away her tears with the back of her hand, nodded, her eyes were firm and determined, "Okay, thank you for being so understanding, thank you for everything you gave me. You - let's go."
Zhou Shaoting was speechless, supported his knees, and stood up slowly, but he did not leave.
Xiaoshi raised her eyes to look at him, with the same stern brows and resolute thin lips. Over the years, he has not changed at all, and nothing has ever shaken him in the slightest.
Unknown where the anger came from, Xiaoshi got up angrily, and pushed him on the chest, "Let's go!"
The man's figure didn't move at all, Xiao Shi was anxious and angry, pushing and shoving indistinctly, shouting: "Go! Go! Go! You go!"
Zhou Shaoting still didn't move, Xiaoshi's pushing turned into beating, and accompanied by her broken crying, it landed on his chest.
Suddenly, she was hugged tightly, Zhou Shaoting's unique cool smell mixed with the hot smell of alcohol hit her cheeks, and before she had time to dodge, that familiar smell invaded her senses. Her lips were tightly sealed, and all the crying was blocked in her throat, like a whimper, and finally disappeared without a sound.
Zhou Shaoting's kiss was full of unprecedented longing and hysterical despair. It took Xiao Shi's breath away, dispelled her sanity, and reminded her of that kiss in the backlit corner downstairs of her dormitory on the night of her dissertation defense. It's also the same two heavens of ice and fire, extremely lingering, extremely firm and decisive.
Well, that's it. Perhaps the relationship between them should have ended at that time. Reluctantly relying on a little obsession, it has been delayed until now, and in the end, it still cannot escape the original ending.
Xiao Shi subconsciously held her breath just like that time again, until Zhou Shaoting let her go slowly, moved away a little bit, turned around, and left.
The door was closed again, and his breath still remained in the room. Xiao Shi looked around and felt that everything had changed.
She was entangled in the fact that Zhou Shaoting didn't understand her heart, so did she really understand Zhou Shaoting? Why was his kiss so desperate? Why is his last look so reluctant? Why did he come to her at night and drunk? Why is he erratic, saying contradictory things?
The only explanation is that he is not as decisive as she sees him, nor is he as strong and calm as he himself appears to be. He also hesitated, contradicted, reluctant, unable to let go, and because of his self-esteem and the defenses he had set up, he dared not take a step forward.
Therefore, they are all equally weak. They love each other deeply, but hesitate to move forward.
Why?
Perhaps the answer has been written a long time ago - "The heavier the weight in your heart, the less you dare to act rashly."
When I hadn't started, I was afraid of losing it; now that I have it, I was afraid of getting hurt.
As everyone knows, what hurt is more profound than losing each other?
Xiaoshi was startled for a moment, as if she had an epiphany, she opened the door and chased out.
Pulling on plush slippers and wearing pajamas, she ran through the dark and narrow corridor to the cold courtyard.
The night wind stirred up the clothes and pants flying all over the courtyard, and she saw that slender figure standing under the plane tree at the gate of the courtyard, with his head slightly raised, looking at something.
Fortunately, he hasn't left yet.
"Shao Ting!" Xiao Shi pulled back the sheets and quilt, ran over quickly, and hugged him from behind before the man turned around.
She put her face on his broad and strong back, her arms gradually tightened, and she closed her eyes with peace of mind. She said in a soft voice, full of satisfaction and firmness, "Shao Ting, don't let go, don't let me go. You're right , I have very few demands, no matter what kind of life I live¡ªwhether it¡¯s peaceful and stable, whether it¡¯s worrying, or whether it¡¯s impossible to recoveras long as you are in this life, I¡¯m willing!"
Zhou Shaoting looked at the branches of the phoenix tree and smiled slightly. He grabbed the girl's arms around his waist, slowly pulled them away, turned around, and embraced her in his arms, letting her cling to his body. Wrap her tightly in the coat.
The crescent moon that night was crooked, hanging on the branches of the plane tree, overlooking the lovers embracing each other under the tree. The light of the street lamp was blurred by the night fog into a warm orange color, dispelling the coldness and darkness around.
Everything was silent, they listened to each other's heartbeat, as if they had the whole world.
Zhou Shaoting turned off his mobile phone, even if tomorrow is the most important day, no one can disturb him tonight, even if the sky falls, he will wait until dawn to deal with it.
There is no bathroom in the old house that Xiaoshi rents. To take a shower, you have to go to the brick and tile house in the backyard of the small building. It is also independent. interference. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com)sp;Everything is silent, they listen to each other's heartbeat, as if they own the whole world.
Zhou Shaoting turned off his mobile phone, even if tomorrow is the most important day, no one can disturb him tonight, even if the sky falls, he will wait until dawn to deal with it.
There is no bathroom in the old house that Xiaoshi rents. To take a shower, you have to go to the brick and tile house in the backyard of the small building. It is also independent. interference. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com - Didn't finish reading? Add this book to your favoritesI'm a member and bookmarked this chapterCopy the address of this book and recommend it to your friends for pointsChapter error? Click here to report
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