The slender man stood in the deep night, and his mind was full of what she looked like just now¡ªfrowning brows, eyes of resistance, tightly closed lips, cheeks that turned from crimson to pale
All of this seems to have a color of abstinence.
What is it for?
It turns out that no matter how hard the heart is, it can still hurt like this.
Zhou Shaoting raised his head, looked up at the light from a window in the building, and said silently in his heart: I also thought about watching you from afar and not bothering you anymore. I will turn around again when I see you are happy. walk away quietly. But I overestimated my self-control, I can't do it. For you, I can never be a bystander, I want to be the one who gives you happiness.
This night, Yan Xiaoshi slept very lightly. The rain of that year fell into the dream, splashing circles of ripples.
She woke up leisurely, but heard it was really raining outside the window, she got up to close the window, her arms were instantly wet and cold by the rain.
My mother always said that girls should close the windows when they sleep, otherwise they will catch cold easily. But she always can't remember.
Back on the bed, Xiao Shi couldn't sleep anymore, so she curled up on the head of the bed with the quilt in her arms.
Her lips seemed to still have the burning heat left by him, his strength at that time was so resolute.
Xiaoshi raised her hand and touched her lips lightly, but it was actually slightly cool, which made her suddenly feel that what happened at night was just a dream, and when she woke up in the morning, the dream would dissipate.
But the question is, does she really want to wake up from the dream?
The wind and rain outside the window were getting stronger, knocking on the windowpane of the bedroom, as if earnestly calling for her not to forget.
So, through layers of rain, some images that have been imprisoned in the farthest part of memory become clearer.
Why is this?
Is it because of his slightly drunken and fiery kiss just now? Or is it because of this stormy early summer night? Or is it because she likes the habit of mental self-abuse?
Or maybe it was because those painful memories were originally a part of her growth, they had melted into her body and crushed into her soul, every time they were touched a little, they would take root, grow more and more luxuriantly, and bloom undefeatedly.
She will never forget that day.
It was the day of her thesis defense on the eve of her senior year graduation.
When she walked into the building of the Chinese Department, she stood still.
The person who had disappeared from her world suddenly and truly appeared in her sight.
His slender body leaned against the pillar in the hallway, like a symbol of loneliness. He has lost a lot of weight, his cheeks are slightly sunken, with sharp edges and corners, and he looks a little cold. The brows are no longer the high spirits of the past, but more gloomy.
He walked towards the stunned girl expressionlessly, and said only one sentence: "Go, I'll wait for you here."
Xiao Shi did not do well in her graduation defense. Fortunately, the quality of her thesis was good. The teachers also knew that she had excellent grades, so they didn't make things difficult for her.
As soon as the defense was over, she dismissed her classmates and went to the appointment silently.
Isn't it the time when everything is settled?
Shao Ting didn't say anything, and took her directly to a western restaurant on the back street of the school.
In the past, they often went to that shop. Although the steak was too old and the coffee was brewed, the environment was warm. The chandelier in the shape of paper paste, the candles in the cups and cups, the light is dim, making people comfortable.
The students who came to eat were all nearby students, and there were couples or close friends scattered on the sofa. The relaxed smiles on the young faces made Xiaoshi envious and heartbroken.
But she couldn't laugh no matter what, her heart was filled with lead.
"How about the defense?"
"fine."
Shao Ting cut a piece of pizza and put it on Xiao Shi's plate, "Eat it first, I have something to ask you after eating."
After he finished speaking, he picked up the knife and fork and ate first. It didn't look like he was enjoying the meal at all, but as if he was completing a task.
Next, proceed to a more important task.
He cut the steak neatly, gulped the red wine like drinking water, and didn't look at the girl opposite, as if she didn't exist at all.
Xiao Shi looked at the delicious food in front of him, but couldn't eat it anyway, holding the knife and fork in both hands, sweating slightly, and rubbing the handle of the knife with his fingers.
She felt that her heart was like a steak sizzling on the iron plate, which was charred on the outside and tender on the inside.
Fortunately, Zhou Shaoting quickly finished the dining ceremony, and his expression was better than when he was presiding over the thesis just now My parents are just a daughter like me. My father is not in good health, so I can't leave them alone. Also, your mother won't agree"
"What about yourself?"
"Me?" Xiaoshi was in a trance, as if his mind had been out of his body, and he said quietly for a long time: "Didn't you say that it would be better if I could let go? I, I can let go."
Shao Ting loosened his hold on her hand, lowered his eyes to stare at her forearm, and saw the tiny hairs standing up suddenly
"You're lying." Taking advantage of the alcohol, Shao Ting actually let out a low laugh, revealing a faint dimple. He knew that when this girl was nervous, the hairs on her arms would stand up, she was like a lie detector.
Xiao Shi felt powerless, and she even hated her own "sensibility". Why can't she be a girl who gets hotheaded and loses her mind once?
She wanted very much, wanted very much, but still couldn't do it. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com