The graduate student finally agreed with me to move out, and found a one-bedroom and one living room nearby. He moved most of the things in his house to me, and gave me a bank card, which he said belonged to me. , the password is my birthday, and he has kept it for me.
He helped me arrange the room, looked at me, and refused to leave for a long time. Finally, I pushed him out of the door and closed the door cruelly.
A few days before I moved out, the graduate student kept bringing me cooked meals, but I refused them all. I even warned him not to disturb my life again. I want to live a good life by myself, and I don¡¯t want others to disturb.
I don't know why I want to draw a line with the graduate student so quickly, is it because of He Ling's tight hug? probably.
In any case, I am free at last, and I believe that I can live a good life without the shelter of graduate students.
I started to learn how to cook by myself. I ate scorched rice and charred vegetables for several days. When I saw the meal, I felt like vomiting, but I still frowned and ate all the meal.
?Every day after class, the first thing to do is to cook. After eating, I start to tidy up the room. I am so tired that my back hurts every day. Sometimes I don¡¯t bother to wash the dishes after eating, so I leave them to wash together the next day.
The relationship between He Ling and I began to become more subtle. Since that hug, we didn't sit together in class, and it became awkward to say hello when we met. When we came back, we walked together without talking.
The godmother of the graduate student came to see me once and asked me if I had a quarrel with the graduate student and why I moved out. I smiled lightly and told her that I just want to live alone.
The godmother also asked me to move to her place to live with her, but I declined. I know that both she and the graduate student are very kind to me, and I am afraid that I will be unable to repay their love.
The past few days have been very lonely. He Ling didn't talk to me, and he didn't have the gentle care of the graduate students. I felt the loneliness of freedom. That kind of loneliness almost killed me.
It turns out that being too stubborn is also a mistake. I really don't have the ability to live well alone.
In the middle of the night, I got into the bed, weeping silently, and sometimes I started to throw things at home that were not pleasing to the eye, making the house a mess. My life has also become irregular. I eat once in the east and eat in the west. Sometimes I just don¡¯t eat at all because I am not hungry.
? On weekends, I go shopping alone, and go into various shopping malls to buy the clothes I want to grow. Anyway, the card is enough for me to squander, and I can only buy things to make up for the emptiness and loneliness in my heart.
I began to lose weight day by day. Sometimes when I saw a graduate student, he stopped me. I quickly escaped from his sight, rushed home, closed the door, and cried alone.
I don't know why I have to make myself so pitiful, leaving someone to love me, but I have to come out and live this miserable life alone.
That night, the graduate student brought me soup and meals, and I never refused again. I grabbed what was in his hand and ate it like an African refugee. The food he cooked was the best in the world. , so delicious that even the gods are envious.
"Go back, Zhuzhu, you've lost weight, I feel so bad."
"Get out! Get out of here!" I yelled at him, "I don't need your sympathy!"
"Zhuzhu, why do you have to be so stubborn and break the hearts of two people? Are you happy like this? Are you happy?"
"Get out, get out immediately!" I pushed him to the door and was about to close the door when he hugged me tightly.
"What should I do with you? What should I do with you?"
"Let me go, let me go!"
"I won't let go, I won't let go, unless I die, I won't let go, I'll just hold you like this, always hold you."
"Graduate students don't test my patience!"
"Zhuzhu, these days, I've been living like death. When I go home, I stare at the air in a daze and talk to the air. I'm going crazy. What do you think I should do? Seeing you lose weight day by day, I'm The whole heart is hollowed out, it doesn't matter if you don't remember me, don't hurt yourself, okay?"
That night, the graduate student hugged me for a long time, and we both cried for a long time. In the end, I pushed him out cruelly, and clamped his hand when closing the door
I don't know why I have to be so cruel to hurt a person who is so infatuated with me. Does it mean that people with amnesia will have distorted personalities?
I don't know, I really don't know I really want to wake up one day, and it's all just a dream.
Walking into the classroom in a daze, the teacher called my name and asked me to read the words, but I couldn't read them, the teacher sneered again.?After that, I finally couldn't take it anymore, grabbed the book, tore it up, and fled the classroom.
It turned out that I was really useless. After studying for so many days, I still didn't understand anything. No wonder the teacher was angry!
I don't know how long I ran, ran to an empty corner, and cried bitterly.
"Why do you torture yourself like this?" He Ling's voice sounded from behind. I turned around and hugged him. Now I really want to find someone to rely on.
I don't know how long I cried, but under the comfort of He Ling, I gradually stopped crying.
He Ling took me to dinner and also took me to the park to play. That day, we played very excitedly. He Ling didn't mention the study. He knew that it was my sore spot.
"Zhuzhu, let me protect you in the future, okay?" He Ling stared at me and said affectionately.
Time seemed to stop at that moment, I felt that even the air stopped flowing, and my mind was blank, although I wanted to hear this sentence from his mouth when I saw him for the first time.
It's just that I'm so tired now, I don't know how to answer him, should I promise him? But what about graduate students? Somewhere in my mind, there was another graduate student.
Even I feel strange, don't I not love graduate students? Didn't I always think I liked He Ling? Why did he think of graduate students after hearing He Ling's confession?
"Zhuzhu, don't you agree?" He Ling seemed a little anxious, "From the first time I saw you, I was attracted to you, there is no reason."
"But I"
"The moment I knew you had a boyfriend, I felt as if I was about to suffocate, but seeing you so unhappy made my heart ache."
"He Ling, let me think about it, I'm very tired."
"Okay, I'll wait for your answer."
That night, He Ling offered to take me home, but I didn't refuse. We held hands and walked to my rental house together.
When I arrived at the door of the house, I saw the graduate student standing there dumbfounded, holding the prepared meals in his hand.
Seeing He Ling and I held hands together, the thing in the graduate student's hand slipped out and fell to the ground, and then he disappeared in front of us at the speed of light.
Seeing the food spilled on the ground, I felt like weeping. Ignoring He Ling's surprised eyes, I squatted on the ground and picked up the food. Finally, it was still edible.
"He loves you so much, accept him." He Ling said.
"So what about you? Didn't you say you liked me just now?"
"I feel like you still like him, otherwise how could you care so much about these meals?"
"No, it's just that these meals are delicious, it's a pity to waste them, because I don't know how to cook."
He Ling didn't say anything, and left after sitting for a while.
This He Ling is really strange. He just confessed to me and asked me to accept graduate students. Why did he think that I like graduate students?
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