Ever since Lin Yuanlai told me his story that day, it disturbed my peaceful heart again.
I thought I could really forget him, but in the end I still couldn't. The more I wanted to forget, all I could think of was his kindness and his insanity. The more I want to struggle in my heart, the deeper I sink, I can't help myself.
Although I said on the surface that I have to get used to the invisible life, in fact, I am letting myself go, living like a walking dead. I locked myself in the room all day, unwilling to go out, and didn't even want to stay in the living room much. I always want to listen to music quietly by myself, just thinking about the past and the future, trapping myself in a dark world.
?The more than half a month of dark life is like a year. I can't admire those who have been blind since childhood or have been blind for a long time. How they live, study and work.
They can stand on their own feet, but I still don¡¯t have the courage to take a step out of the house. I¡¯m afraid that I won¡¯t be able to see, I¡¯ll run into walls everywhere, and I¡¯m afraid of being pointed out that I¡¯m blind. In short, I feel too insecure.
Today is Sunday, and my parents are going to a concert. They wanted to take me there, but I refused to go, for fear of causing them trouble.
So after lunch, my parents went out. I went back to my room and slept for about two hours. Recently, besides sleeping, I just listen to music and TV. It turns out that just listening to TV with your ears has a different special taste. You can imagine the various expressions and demeanors of TV characters based on the severity of the voice and the softness of the tone.
After I woke up, I tossed and turned on the bed and started to think about it again. Finally, I just groped out of bed and walked out of the living room slowly.
Arriving in front of the TV cabinet, I fumbled for the switch of the digital TV box familiarly, and found the remote control on the box. I slowly touched the switch button with my fingers, and selected the channel based on the sound. Sometimes I also thought it was funny. Blind people watching TV?
I clicked on the next TV program, and just heard a fluent female voice: "Mr. Lin, do you think this can really achieve your wish? Do you think this is just a superstition or a way to seek peace of mind?" .¡±
Mr. Lin? I chuckled lightly, always being particularly sensitive to people surnamed Lin.
"I don't know if this method will make my wish come true. No matter how absurd this method iseven a fantasy, as long as there is a one in ten thousand chance, I will try it. The only thing I can do now is What she did was to pray devoutly and earnestly collect 10,000 hearts, hoping to move her to see the light soon!" The voice was so familiar, although it was a bit deep and hoarse, not loud enough as usual, but it was still so magnetic and moving , I knew who it was as soon as I heard it, and my whole body couldn't help shaking.
"I heard that you have traveled to several subway stations in the past few days. How many blessing cards have you signed so far?" the female voice asked again.
"Actually, there were not many signatures in the first few days. Although there were tens of millions of people entering and exiting the subway every day, they all passed by in a hurry to catch the subway. They traveled to several places these days and only signed more than 7,000 papers. Later I chose People¡¯s Square, the subway entrance and exit with the most traffic every day, and the passers-by gradually began to believe me. Now it¡¯s only a thousand or so away from completion, and today is the ninth day, ahem I heard that "all hearts pray for blessings" 'It has to be finished within ten days, so ahem I don't care what I do these two days, even if I beg on my knees, I have to finish it." The voice of the speech became weaker and weaker, and there were bursts of heart-piercing from time to time. coughing sound.
"Mr. Lin, you seem to have a severe cough. No wonder, you stand outside the subway entrance all day long, exposed to the wind and the sun. You talk so much every day, and you don't drink any water. You seem to be sick. You keep talking I can hardly tell Do you want to take a break? Our TV station is also deeply moved by what you have done, and we specially come to interview you today, and hope that with the help of the TV station's publicity, more kind-hearted people will come to help you."
"Thank you, I cough cough I just hope she can be strong and don't give up on herself. As long as she can believe that there is love in the world, I hope tomorrow, cough cough Even if she really can't see it for the rest of her life, I am willing to be her eyes , take her to see this wonderful world. I promise to hold her hand I will take her through this whole life and never let go!" Lin Yuan said again that he would hold my hand for the rest of his life and never let go .
"Wow, it's really touching. Today we heard what Mr. Lin said from the bottom of his heart. Whether it's passers-by or the audience in front of the TV, have you been moved by this man's affection? Now many people are sighing , this world is very realistic, and there is no true love. But this Mr. Lin, in order to restore his beloved girlfriend's eyesight as soon as possible, can actually stand at the subway entrance and exit for nine consecutive days, just to ask passers-by to help him sign Prayer card, praying for his girlfriend. This kind of determination is really moving." After being excited, the hostess went on to say: "There is love in the world, and I also ask all caring friends, after watching the live TV, if you pass by the subway station, you must give him a piece of support. As long as you move your fingers and sign your name, this will not only fulfill the wishes of others, but also be considered a good deed. Here I also wish this girl surrounded by love to see the light again soon"
Lin Yuan? Could it really be him? After hearing the sound of this live broadcast, my tears flooded out again.
It's him, although he can't see it, but his voice has already been deeply imprinted in my heart. I had an urge to find him, so I dropped the remote control and hurried back to the room, fumbled for the phone from the bedside, then pounced on the computer table to find the wallet, took some money from it, folded it casually, and stuffed it into the jeans pocket inside.
Because he only remembered Lin Yuan in his heart, he came out of the room in a hurry, lost his way, and hit his forehead heavily on the sharp corner of the door.
"Oops" I frowned in pain, bit my dry lip, and was a little dizzy after being knocked down. There must have been a large red and swollen patch on my forehead, but I couldn't care less.
I stumbled to the door of the living room, touched the blind stick my parents had prepared for me by the door, and hurried out.
I supported my unskilled blind stick, and explored the bumps and obstacles on the ground from left to right. Turn right at the exit and you will see the stairs. When I feel that the pace is about the same as usual, I use a blind stick to gently probe down a low step. I must have reached the lower level of the stairs.
I held on to the banister of the stairs with one hand and a blind stick with the other, and walked down the stairs from the fifth floor of my house carefully step by step. Finally, I walked down to the first floor smoothly. Although the movement was a bit slow, I finally arrived safely.
After going down to the first floor, I felt a little bit at a loss again. From here to the exit of the community, I had to turn a few turns. I could only walk with my sense of direction for many years. But I was flustered, bumped into walls everywhere, fell down several times, and my hands and feet were worn out.
Thinking of myself being so useless, unable to walk well, and unable to find the exit, the more I thought about it, the more sad I became, so I cried bitterly as I stroked my bruised knee: "Ji Meng, why are you so useless? I can¡¯t find the gate of the community, how can I find Lin Yuan, how can I reach the crowded People¡¯s Square? God, why punish me like this"
"Miss, are you okay? Why are you sitting on the ground and crying?" The voice sounded like a middle-aged woman.
"II'm fine!" I hurriedly wiped away the tears on my face, and fumbled around for my blind stick on the ground.
"Are you looking for this?" The woman kindly handed me my blind stick.
"Oh, yes, thank you" I nodded gratefully.
"Your eyes? Do you want to go somewhere, or let me help you!" The kind elder sister reached out to help me up, and she seemed to know that I was blind.
"Thank you, me, I want to go to the People's Square subway station, can I ask this elder sister to take me to the side of the road, and I will pick up a taxi and go there by myself." It seems that I really need help from others.
"Of course it's okay, I'll take you out!" Unexpectedly, there are many kind-hearted people in the community.
After the elder sister sent me out of the road, she helped me get a taxi before leaving.
All I thought about in the car was about Lin Yuan. After some time, the male driver said to me, "Beauty, the People's Square subway station is almost here. Which exit do you want?"
"Which exit?" I was stunned for a moment. I only heard on TV that it was the exit of the People's Square subway station, but I didn't know which one it was. The export will do.¡±
After a few minutes, the taxi driver put me down and drove away. I heard the sound of footsteps and crowds around me, and I didn't know which subway exit I was in.
I stood there blankly, not knowing where to go, "Ah" Suddenly someone bumped over and knocked me heavily to the ground.
"Hey, why do you walk without eyes? Didn't you see that you knocked someone down?" It was a sharp girl's voice.
I was taken aback and thought I must have blocked the sidewalk.
"Who told her to be stuck in the middle of the road, she deserves it!" It was an unhappy male voice, as if it was talking about me.
I thought the girl who spoke sharply just now was scolding me, but it turned out she was scolding the man.
"Crazy, sister don't worry about this person." At this time, another girl's voice was speaking. This voice sounded more delicate, it should be a little girl.
"Sister, are you okay?" Someone helped me up from left to right, obviously the pair of sisters who spoke for me just now.
"Thank you, I'm so sorry, I don't know if this is the middle of the road?" I bowed my head slightly in embarrassment.
"Sister, this is your blind stick. You are blind at such a young age How pitiful!" This was the young girl who asked me just now, and handed over the blind stick I dropped to the ground.
"Yingying, how can you say that about others. I'm sorry, my sister is still young and ignorant, so don't take her words to heart." The older girl scolded her sister and asked me Apologize. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com)??" I bowed my head slightly in embarrassment.
"Sister, this is your blind stick. You are blind at such a young age How pitiful!" This was the young girl who asked me just now, and handed over the blind stick I dropped to the ground.
"Yingying, how can you say that about others. I'm sorry, my sister is still young and ignorant, so don't take her words to heart." The older girl scolded her sister and asked me Apologize. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com