Grandma put down the half-cut pigweed and came over.
"Ren Tao, it looks so painful." At this moment, grandma stopped after saying something.
In fact, I know that grandma's real thought at this moment is to hope that Xiao Hei will no longer be in pain and be relieved soon.
But how could I possibly agree!
This is a life!
What right do I have to deprive it of its life?
"Can it still be cured?" I still have a glimmer of fantasy, even if it's just a glimmer of hope.
"There is no cure."
"The skin has been suppurated and broken.
If you find it early, you can cut it off,
Maybe he can live a long time.
Now it has suppurated, and it is useless to cut it.
If it is malignant. has spread.
If it's benign, there's nothing you can do about it, the skin will be suppurated and broken, and the pain alone will kill it. "
Grandma's words, like needles, pierced into my heart.
It hurts so much that I am in a trance, but more of it is powerless.
At this moment, I seem so insignificant. In the face of the disease, apart from crying, I don't even have any useful suggestions.
Ridiculous! sad! Alas!
God! Why are you so unfair!
Xiao Hei is still so young, why deprive it of the right to live?
"How long has it had this tumor?" I still tried to find some comfort elsewhere.
"I just don't know. I didn't realize it until I grew up. It should be at least two months. I remember that it was not like this before.
It seems that in the past two months, it has become less lively.
Food intake also gradually decreased. "Grandma tried hard to recall, and made the explanation just now.
"Then it's been a long time since you discovered that it has a tumor?"
"This morning, when your grandpa went to feed it, it just lay there, refusing to eat.
Still whining, your grandfather noticed something was wrong, and he took a closer look, only to realize that it had a tumor, and it had festered and broken the skin. "
"Your grandpa just called me to come over to see it. In fact, at that time, I knew that it was running out of time, after all, the tumor was bleeding all the time."
"Originally, your grandfather got some anti-inflammatory medicine and said to apply some on the wound to see if it can relieve its pain a little.
As a result, as soon as it sees your grandpa about to touch its tumor, it hides.
I guess it is too painful to let others touch its tumor. "
At this moment, grandma stopped talking and looked at Xiao Hei quietly.
"Why didn't you find out earlier?" I continued to blame.
Although the blame at the moment seems so useless.
Moreover, as Xiao Hei's closest partner, I have never discovered that this serious dereliction of duty is really unforgivable!
"Its tumor grows under the stomach, next to the thigh.
When the tumor is small, it cannot be seen at all.
Unless you turn Xiao Hei over.
If you can't see it, you can't think of a way in advance.
By the time we saw it, it was already like this. "Grandma is actually very remorseful.
She blamed herself for feeding it every day, but she didn't find any abnormality.
What I blame myself is that some time ago, I obviously found that Xiao Hei had a loss of appetite, and his mental state was not as good as before, and he didn't check it himself.
Only found out at the last moment.
I slowly squatted down, approached Xiao Hei, and watched it carefully.
Xiao Hei seemed to understand the deep meaning in my eyes, as if it also knew that its time was running out, and the reluctance in its eyes became clearer.
As soon as I got closer, Xiao Hei tried every means to move back.
Although at the moment it can't move its body.
"Grandma, how long can Xiao Hei live?" I asked with a sob.
"I may not live long like this, I don't know if I can survive tonight."
Grandma hesitated for a moment, then continued: "It hasn't eaten since morning.
I've heard people say that as long as a dog doesn't eat, it won't survive three days.
Plus it now has a tumor that keeps bleeding. "
When it comes to tumors, I am at a loss!
This is beyond the scope of my cognition, and it is not a problem that I can solve at all.
"ableCan't think of a way to cut off the tumor! "I still asked naively, although I knew it wouldn't work.
"No, its body is already weak, and it can't recover after cutting. Moreover, it may not be able to hold on during the cutting process, which will promote death."
Hey, I know all this! I know it all!
Is there no other way? Can only watch it leave?
Grandma no longer looked at Xiao Hei, and left here silently.
The rest of the time only belongs to me and Xiao Hei!
Gently stroked its messy and dull dog hair with your hands.
Following my stroking, Xiao Hei tried to stand up and respond to me, but still failed.
I can feel the reluctance deep in the little black eyes, it has been staring at me, and the endless sadness has been passed on to me.
Its body trembled non-stop, and the frequency was a little lower than when it first came back.
When stroking the dog's head, Xiao Hei originally liked to squint his eyes, but now he narrowed his eyes symbolically.
Could it be that you don't even have the strength to close your eyes?
Or do you mean you don't want me out of its sight?
"Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!" exhausted all his strength, let out several painful roars.
The trembling body unexpectedly stood up slowly miraculously.
At this moment, I am ecstatic, has Xiao Hei turned the corner?
Actually not!
Xiao Hei, who was standing tremblingly, moved towards the small gap by the wall bit by bit. Behind the little black kennel is a utility room and a pigsty.
Between the two, there is a small corner of more than thirty centimeters.
At this moment, Xiao Hei is trying to squeeze in.
The cold iron chain was still tied around its neck.
I hurried up and helped Xiao Hei untie the chain.
It raised its head slightly, rubbed its nose weakly against my hand, and looked up at me for the last time.
I can't forget the profound meaning contained in this glance.
There are expectations for me, there is reluctance, there is love, it is very complicated, a look that is hard to describe.
Just like the look in the eyes of your best friend who is about to leave you forever.
"Ren Tao, come here." At this moment, grandma called me in real time.
In order to come over early and guard Xiao Hei, I rushed to grandma quickly.
But I don't know, the moment I turned to leave, Xiao Hei's eyes finally took a last look at me as if relieved.
More reluctance and nostalgia have turned into longing.
It silently curled up in a small corner.
Looking at my leaving back, I slowly closed my eyes.
Closed eyes forever.
Its breathing changed from calm to particularly rapid.
Gradually slow down again until it is as thin as a gossamer.
After almost no sound of breathing, it tried to open its eyes again, and once again carefully observed the home it had lived in for thirteen years.
Bit by bit, the slightest detail, all kinds of memories, with the eyes closed, all dissipate without leaving a trace of regret. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com