Regardless of whether it comes down to it or not, regardless of the reasons, various reasons, or the content of the conversation, I still can't accept this fact very much.
It seems that I feel a little powerless in everything I do.
Nothing can enter my heart, and I can't find a reason to forgive him, because I don't think this is the consciousness after drinking, and it must have arisen with some kind of thought before drinking.
If what grandpa said had an impact on him, if he brought me into the role of the so-called falling in love that grandpa told him, then I think I can't accept it even more.
Even though I knew that I had a heartbeat for him before, I still can't imagine the clumsy look I look at, or the natural relationship behavior like a friend.
I really want to disturb Teacher Chen, after all, she knows something.
But I think Mr. Chen's recent mental state may not be able to make room for me.
So I started to churn in my heart, thinking about whether to tell him what he did to me after drinking, if I told him, he would cover his face, look ashamed, and run away Well, then the fate of the two may come to an abrupt end.
The thin monkey looked at me thinking all the time. Under the cover of the night, he also looked very tired. The anxious look in his eyes was seeking my answer and my forgiveness. , but I still couldn't tell him, I just waved my hand numbly, "Go home."
But for some reason, the thin monkey acted as if he didn't listen at all, just standing in front of me like this, doing something there, playing with his sleeves and pants.
"What exactly do you want?"
"I asked you to go home, why don't you go home?"
At this moment, my mood has reached a critical point, and I feel that I will explode in the next second. This anger comes from my anger at myself, and the anger at this matter, so it was imposed on him.
"Mr. He, did some bad things happen after I finished drinking?"
The thin monkey seemed to know all about it, and he was firm and insanely gaffe.
I don't know where Thin Monkey learned about it, or where I saw it. I was stunned for a moment, but then I pretended to be calm and said, "No, you're just crazy."
But it seems that the thin monkey doesn't believe these words at all, as if someone next to him is telling him the answer, telling him the things I didn't say.
He began to twist his body, visually, as if his body was covered with bugs, and at the same time, he began to keep talking, as if he wanted to say something to me, but he couldn't say it, like a dumb person. That sang a dumb show.
I repeated it again.
"What on earth do you want to do? What are you going to say? You can go home after you finish speaking." My tone has tried my best to control my impatience.
I just can't take it anymore.
His introversion at this time will actually aggravate some of my bad impressions of him.
I need him to speak his mind.
However, under my non-stop guidance, after confirming that I still have the remaining patience, including my body language, I feel troublesome, irritable and so on.
he tells me.
"Teacher He, I don't know what liking is."
I don't understand why he replied me with such a sentence, or a sentence, which has nothing to do with him, has nothing to do with the question, and I need to answer it.
But this is another question that needs to be explained clearly to him, but I don't really understand it myself.
This is not like asking for advice, but in my opinion, it is a very stressful thing.
"I also do not understand."
I started to sink into depression.
Holding his forehead with his hands, he looked dejected.
Even feel the surrounding pandemonium.
"Does Teacher He like that kind?"
"Which"
At this time, my voice is like muddy water, and I have no energy left to consume.
Unexpectedly, it was Shouhou who blurted out the answer, "Is it the kind of person who feels very happy when he sees him, and then wants to do a lot of things for him. He can do anything for him."
The appearance of the thin monkey starting to ask sincerely, felt a little uneasy for some reason, I nodded, and I said.
"Maybe that's the case, people and peopleThe standards of liking are different, and I don't understand people's personal emotions, and I have never liked anyone. "
"But why, I feel that liking doesn't exist for me."
"What's the meaning?"
I seem to be nice to everyone, to the people in the village But there still seems to be one person who makes me want to treat him better. Is this just because I like it? "
I have doubts about what the thin monkey said. It turns out that he can also notice his sensitive heart, and those thoughts that may need to be pondered and recalled by himself, as well as some missing information.
"That should be the case. If you have someone you like, you can do what grandpa said. After all, you are not young, so you can prepare for it. In addition, you have already been to big cities. Then, As long as you have a mobile phone, you can contact the editors yourself and submit your own manuscript, because I haven't been here for long."
My tone was very loose, even a little disgusted.
I don't know what I was thinking, I just kept fiddling with my already messy hair.
I don't know why I said some farewell words and some instructions today. It may be my own subconscious. I want to tell him these, and I don't want to involve him in some intimate relationship.
At this time, the thin monkey looked even more crazy. He seemed to take my words as a farewell, and he began to panic as if it was a painful farewell.
His hands were trembling, shaking up and down, and stomping his feet. He was crying like a twist, begging me, Mr. He, don't do this, and Mr. He, don't do this. "
"I was wrong, I was wrong, I was wrong, I was wrong, I was wrong."
He said several times that I was wrong.
And the voice was so loud that I almost wanted to cover his mouth with a fright, but when I saw his mouth, I instinctively recalled why my hand was withdrawn.
I really felt embarrassed, I turned my back to him, as if I was facing a wall and thinking about my past, with my back turned and my hands propped on the wall.
"I have no way to answer this question, and I don't know what you mean by saying this to me."
"I don't even know why you suddenly raised these questions. I thought you were a person who didn't understand liking at all, and never even distinguished between men and women." (Remember the website URL: www.hlnovel.com