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    A string in Sheng Jinchu's heart trembled chaotically twice.

    The noodles arrived, steaming and fragrant.

    Sheng Jinchu doubted whether Song Chu could still eat.

    There was a moment of silence in the air, Song Chu picked up his chopsticks and started eating noodles.  A man who has suffered for a long time does not change his face when he talks about his pain, as if he has become accustomed to it.

    Don't you know that such peace makes people feel distressed.

    Sheng Jinchu reached out and grabbed his wrist: "Don't be in such a hurry."

    Song Chu withdrew his hand as if he had been burned, and suddenly didn't want to be so close to her before seeing his true face clearly.  He was afraid that because she couldn't bear it, if she let go suddenly, it would only make him feel more uncomfortable.

    Song Chu felt that no one should be able to accept such a nasty side.

    "I don't know why they chose to start a family together in the first place. However, as long as I can remember, they have often argued, and when they are not arguing, they are dead. There is rarely a happy atmosphere in the family, and it is always cloudy. Small  When I heard the violent noise, I was very scared, shut myself in the room, and didn¡¯t dare to go out. When it was quiet, I was also worried and watched the movement outside without daring to breathe, for fear that the world would be in chaos suddenly.  It made me extremely sensitive, and before the rebellious period came, I always carefully observed the situation and tried not to let myself do things they hate."

    At this point, there was a pause.  Sheng Jinchu saw Song Chu's protruding Adam's apple rolling slightly, and he was trying to swallow the bitterness that surged out to maintain its surface calm.

    He lowered his eyes: "My mother is becoming more and more like a lunatic. When my father was not at home, she asked someone to investigate his whereabouts. When my father came back, she complained and abused endlessly, and then burst into tears. Later  My dad simply rarely comes home"

    Such a grand and magnificent house has become a deserted tomb, and he lives in it guarding his mother every day, like guarding an evil spirit.

    Listening to her crying in the middle of the night, I was terrified.  Most of the time, trance was a nightmare. He sat up in a jerk, and indeed heard his mother crying.

    "After my father rarely came home, I became his substitute. My mother often vented her emotions on me. What hurt me the most was pointing at me and yelling at me a second ago, saying that there is no one in our Song family.  Good thing, my father said that my father abandoned his wife and son. The next second, he hugged me tightly and cried and said how much she loves me. Thanks to her, I often can't tell her love and hate I  When did I start wishing for her to die? When I was about eleven years old, I heard my mother crying in the living room one night, and I was lying on the bed so upset that my heart was about to explode. At that time, I was thinking,  Why doesn't my mother die? If she disappears, the whole world will be quiet, and the pain will no longer exist"

    He couldn't continue, his voice was trembling, and the fingers holding the chopsticks were trembling slightly.

    Sheng Jinchu held his hand pitifully.

    "Okay, don't talk about it."

    Just like it is difficult to suppress the evil thoughts in the heart, Song Chu's evil soul broke through the shackles and ran out, and it is difficult to take it back.

    He buried his head very low, and spoke faster and faster: "I know that my mother had suicidal thoughts very early on, and sometimes I even wanted to help her, or when she stood on the roof, I would just grab her  She pushed me down from the tall building, so I was freed. Even if I don¡¯t have a mother, I don¡¯t have to worry about it anymore, and I don¡¯t have to listen to her ghostly howling in the middle of the night I really can¡¯t understand why it¡¯s so painful.  Do you still have to cling to this world? Do you have to make the people around her feel worse than death?"

    Song Chu raised his head and stared at Sheng Jinchu puzzled, his eyes were wet with tears.  Shiny, inappropriately bright.

    Sheng Jinchu said: "She clings to this painful world tightly, probably because she can't bear to part with you. I think she contacted you at the last moment, not because she was greedy for life and fear of death, but because she couldn't let go. Before she died, she wanted to hear  Your voice, even a few words that can be felt is good. In those years, she must not have malicious intentions to torture you, so she tied you by her side."

    "So, am I extremely evil?"

    Sheng Jinchu didn't answer him directly, she said: "I read a book before called "A Gift for Psychotherapists", the author Owen Yalong told a similar story in it, and he said that he also hoped that he would  When his parents die, he can inherit their property after they die. He feels this kind of psychology is very evil and dirty, so he is very painful and cannot accept himself. However, his analyst tells him that this is normal  Psychology. There is not only a good side in human nature, but also an evil side. The two are not binary opposites, but absolutely unified."

    sheHe knew that even if his mother really stood on the roof, he would never push her down.  When she was really on the verge of death, he would do everything in his power to bring her back.  (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com
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