I laughed so hard that my tears were about to flow out, I said, Hanru, what are you kidding? You came all the way here just to ask me if I am sorry for Xia Shu? After I finished speaking, I laughed even harder. I laughed until my stomach hurt, and I had to squat down to feel that I was standing on the earth instead of floating up.
That year, at the most helpless and miserable time in my life, I was most eager to be comforted by her, listening to her tell me that the person she believed in me, the only person I could rely on, pointed at me with contempt. My nose said, Ru, are you fucking sorry for Natsuki?
And at this moment, I was still thinking about apologizing to her and reconciling with her as before, no longer caring about those misunderstandings and hurts in the past, but in the next second she stuffed my words back into her stomach, and she pointed out that Hold my nose and ask, are you sorry for Natsuki!
No one has thought about what this sentence is about. It is so common, but no one knows, so the accusation that every child can hear almost three times a day when they are in school is the softest rib for me.
This sentence is so lethal to me that it is immeasurably strong. It is so strong that it can hook up all the things buried in the darkest corners of my heart bit by bit. It is the sharpest hook that cuts me all over. to the slightest.
Han Ru, do you understand what it means to not be trusted? Do you understand that if the person who doesn¡¯t trust you is replaced by your best friend, this kind of distrust is called betrayal?
Ru, why the hell are you doing this to Natsuki? What qualifications do you have! Han Ru's voice was extremely fierce, as if I was her enemy, it gave me the illusion of being torn apart for a moment.
I didn't look up, I didn't say anything, I just squatted on the ground and laughed, laughing uncomfortably, how can I not laugh when I'm in such a good fucking mood?
I heard Yan Liang say, Hanru, you are too impulsive, you should go out and calm down now Then there was the sound of two people tugging.
I heard Han Ru scolding, Ru, you are a bitch! Just buy yourself for money
I'm still laughing, and I can't stop laughing. Han Ru's voice and Yan Liang's voice intertwined and drifted away, I couldn't hear it clearly, I only heard my own laughter, as if it came from hell, so shrill.
I don't know when Yan Liang came back, he didn't reach out to hug me, he just stood in front of me and looked at me, so quiet. I squatted on the ground and laughed loudly, looking at the pair of black shoes on his feet in front of me, my stomach ached from laughing, finally, Yan Liang said, don't cry, it's getting dark, let's go out for a walk, shall we?
I looked all over the haze, looked across the distance, looked through the blueness, but I couldn't see anyone's heart.
Yan Liang and I were tired from walking, so we picked a bench and sat down. He hugged me, like a sleeping child with a quilt, the sea breeze blowing, bringing the warmth of salt, lifted the hair on the forehead . I suddenly smelled a faint smell of cologne on Yan Liang's body. I laughed and said, why didn't I know you used perfume before? Yan Liang paused, then laughed, the laughter slipped from my earlobe and slipped into the dark night sky.
I have been using it all the time, but you in the past never noticed it.
Yeah? I whispered, I lost my mind for a few seconds at that moment, and I went back to that summer of a certain year. I sat on the back seat of Xia Shu¡¯s bicycle and looked at the dense sycamore trees on both sides of the street with a very happy smile. Standing on both sides of the old street, I like to hang the leaves of a tree with rich fragrance. There was bright sunlight overhead, and the unique smell of sycamore flowers faintly wafted in the hot and humid air. I asked Xia Shu, "Xia Shu, why did I never know that sycamore flowers also have fragrance?" Xia Shu is smiling in front, its fragrance has always been very strong, but you haven't noticed it before. His voice is very soft, like the catkins in the south of the Yangtze River in spring, fluttering with the wind, over the green lake, or in the colorful mountain forest.
How could I forget, every word, every word that day.
How could I forget that in the honest and brave game that day, Xia Shu walked up to me and bowed his head to kiss me, and then seriously said to me like a student handing in homework, Ru, I like you.
I said, Yan Liang, why don't I love you?
The voice of this sentence is very soft, just like Xia Shu's gentleness back then, Yan Liang didn't hear it, but still hugged me tightly, looking at the empty sea in front of us with a smile.
When the lights come on, all the surrounding fishing villages, large and small, are lit up. The orange light seems to come alive on the beach at night. With the sea breeze flickering, a ship in the distance is dimly lit, rippling on the sea. Ripples, accompanied by the surrounding lights, like the stars in the sky, a galaxy of stars twinkling in the sky, and the stars on the ground are also bright, making people feel doubtful for a moment when they are in this world, and can¡¯t tell what they are. Is it heaven or not??The world.
I got up early in the morning because I wanted to catch the morning tide. When I was washing up, I took a peek at Yan Liang who was still sleeping soundly in the room. He was curled up like a child, with an inexplicable smile on his mouth meaning.
Hanru came the same day and went back the same day. After Fei Ran came back, she ran to my bedroom and frowned and asked me, "Xin Ru, what are you and Han Ru doing?" You know how much it took me to get her here, I want you two to have a good talk, you screwed up again!
I looked up and smiled at her, and asked questions instead of answering, where is she?
gone. Feiran frowned again, fell silent for a while and said, you haven't answered my question yet, what are you making trouble for?
I moved my eyes to the window, looked outside and said, what can I make a fuss about, it¡¯s just that kind of shit, if you let me make a fuss, I can¡¯t make a big fuss, right?
Feiran immediately became angry, reached out and twisted my face to stare at me and said, Ru, do you know how old you are, can you stop acting like a child? What kind of dog has such a temper! Even if you are stubborn, you have a certain degree and an occasion, right? She originally misunderstood you and Yan Liang, so why the hell are you looking for her to scold you? You want her to hate you, don't you!
I looked at her without saying a word. She looked at me for a while, then let go of her hand as if giving up. When I walked to the door, I heard her sigh, and then said, Xiao Ru, when will you change your temper?
I looked at the closed door and whispered, Feiran, do you understand my mood at that time?
Feiran once said, you and Xia Shu, the one who is sensitive is enough, and the one who is big is fine.
No one is really big. When I was big, it was because I didn¡¯t touch the sensitive area. Just like Hanru, she has always been able to easily smash my mask, and the little girl in my heart. Pulled out alive.
? Xia Shu, you collected everything cleanly, but I have to leave traces (Remember the website address of this website: www.hlnovel.com