Not long after graduation, I made a bet with ZJJ once, saying that whoever finds a boyfriend first, whose boyfriend will ask the other party to go where the other party wants to go. At first it was just a joke, and every time we chatted, I would make a joke or two around this topic, and like this, two or three years passed like this.
Both of them are still single, and it seems that they never thought about finding a boyfriend. You find that zjj seems to have decided that she will never marry in the future. Of course, she may succumb to reality due to family responsibilities, but you don't think she will look for a partner because of love. In some moments, I suddenly felt that this bet was a deep dilemma. It gives people an illusion, or a kind of illusory dependence, and a sense of loneliness and helplessness is lost in the passage of time.
In any case, we should admit that in a person's life, there will be a certain stage where he has to think about his partner for the rest of his life, whether it is out of love, marriage, or choosing a person to take on the world, but people are People will think about this problem. When thinking about these problems, people should have emotions such as loneliness, anxiety, helplessness, and overwhelm, and these emotions will help people make decisions that should be made. However, the bet with zjj made the two parties have a deep connection unconsciously, as if they were standing on a united front, relying on each other. Therefore, at the age when it was time to think about these issues, these issues were ignored.
Last night, you sent a message to zjj, saying that you have surrendered, she can eat whatever she wants, and you treat her. Then you sent her a long explanation:
This is not a question of whether you are afraid of being alone or not. Rather, if the two of us die alone, would you think that the bet between the two of us will invisibly add shackles to the soul, or make the other party feel that there is support, that the other party is single anyway, and someone is with him? Lonely forever, and then have been stalemate. Although objectively speaking, if there is someone you like, you won't care about this bet, or if you really want to get out of the order, you won't be affected by these things, but who knows, those things that affect people are just like this, in unexpected places, Time passed like that, and that's how it ended.
You let her think about it all night, and she will reply to you the next day. When you asked her today, she said:
The original intention remains the same. Z, you said that something is wrong with you, and then hurriedly canceled the agreement with me.
You reply: I just want to say one thing now, stupid human beings.
You are a little blocked in your heart, wondering why others can't believe that when you say something seriously, it is a serious thing.
? When you first moved to your current new home, the roommate in the attic helped you a lot in moving things, so you can be regarded as an acquaintance. Later, while cleaning the house, he came down to chat with you. Since you are cleaning, to a certain extent, you have nothing to do, so you can talk to him while cleaning as he likes. Later, when talking about the book on your bedside, you said you can read it, but don¡¯t damage it, especially the black one. Then he took neither of them and just read that one, saying that he was going to secretly tear off a page. You have repeatedly emphasized that this cannot be done. You guess he's joking, but you don't like such jokes. Before he put the book back, he said he marked it. You tell him again and again, hurry up and say this is a joke, it's not true. But he just didn't say anything. You suddenly feel that the sacred Walden in your eyes has been stained somewhere you do not know. In the process of reciting "Wa", every page has been turned, and there is no trace. But in your heart, it still seems to be defiled. From then on, you think this person is fucking crazy.
Back to zjj, you may feel that this bet is no longer a joke to you, but a deep bondage. If zjj does not cooperate, it may be invalidated regardless of the cost. You don't know how zjj thinks about this problem, maybe she didn't think about it at all. You don't like the feeling of being held back. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com