"Because you are eager to learn." Maybe it was too sudden to be asked, lz looked at the computer screen and said hesitantly, which seemed a bit far-fetched. Whatever the reason, you were so moved by the fact that he hired you without asking questions, that you can be sure to thank him many years later looking back on that time. At that time, you thought he understood the selflessness of a young heart, and you said, "That's because I want to know a lot of things!"
"You are very loyal, it is very obvious in you, let me recognize it at a glance, I just need such a person." lz said after you became a regular and finished your defense. Before leaving lz's office, you thank him for what he did for you to become a regular. It's just that when you first came to Beijing, your eyes were full of stars, but now, you once again lost your eyes to see the scenery and the colors in the scenery.
You once wanted to experience many things, know many things, and see the world as it really is, but later found that you don't care what the world looks like at all.
In the cafeteria, you buried your head in your meal and listened to their chat, as if it was the language of another world. You don't understand why they are chatting.
In the office, you buried your head in the computer and listened to their chat, as if it was the language of another world. You don't understand why they are chatting.
jy asked, "Why is zjy always so silent?"
"I'll just listen to your chat." You said seriously.
"Your answer sounds very kind." lm joked.
You said to zjj that you lost your dream again.
Sitting by the window, looking out of the window, the building in front of me looks full of dust, the sky is gray and white, and I can't tell the difference between cloudy and smoggy weather. When I looked back, I saw the scattered water droplets outside the glass window. After a whole winter, and one third of March, it finally rained in Beijing. Does this indicate that spring is coming?
Remember what my brother said when he drove you to the intersection of the highway, he said, "The more you walk, the lonelier you become."
When you realize the kindness of others, your heart is gentle, you just nod obediently, responding with "um", and can't bear to say any rebuttal words.
However, the further you go, the more you find that you can only live alone.
lm asked, "Have you thought about where you want to settle down in the future?"
"I want to find a place to live without people." You said with a smile.
"Then have you ever thought about what to do if you live there without modern infrastructure?" lm asked seriously.
"Just kidding, I live alone, and no one will know when I die. I should find a small town with a slow pace of life and live a leisurely life." You said.
There is a landscape in your heart. In the depths of the uninhabited bamboo forest, there is a simple and simple bamboo house. Outside the bamboo house, there is a low bamboo table surrounded by several stools. The fence woven by the whole bamboo forest blocks the complicated world. You sit there, squinting, basking in the sun, drinking wine, and listening to the slow rustling sound of the wind passing through the bamboo forest.
You know you can't find this place.
I don't know whether it is more and more evasion or seeing yourself more and more clearly, you say to yourself more and more frequently: "It's time to leave Beijing."
xp spent an afternoon putting on a beautiful makeup, and then went to the movies with the boys. You don't understand why someone like XP who seems so sensible is so anxious to go on a blind date to find a boyfriend.
A person watched "One Piece" in the house for a day, looked up in a trance, the dark room is close to the soul, you see that your life is as dark as this house, and suddenly realize that you have lost your dreams and have no pursuit.
No one can stop a person with a dream from moving forward, and a person who loses his dream loses even the courage to take a step forward.
You see a bleak future, and a wise saying of Lu Xun emerges from the darkness-some people are alive, but they are already dead. Now I seem to be a body without a soul.
Since it is already a body, what is there to be afraid of? What is there to fear about life and death? What is the difference between gain and loss? Perhaps this is the reason why I went to Tibet and arrived in Beijing alone, in pursuit of the purity of the starry sky and the glory of a reporter? It's only when the pursuit is satisfied and the thing you are pursuing loses its value, and you suddenly wake up, only to find that there are no ruins in front of you, only chaos.
You always wonder whether changing yourself to meet the needs of the world is a breakthrough or a fall.
You once thought that the recorded language was an unquestionable wisdom, but you don¡¯t know when it started, and you can¡¯t understand why those people dared to say it?That¡¯s right, why some others dare to spread those words to the world.
The books you have read, the words you have heard, the road you have traveled, and the scenery you have seen, there are very few things that can leave traces in your heart. There is little knowledge and order in your world. When you look at the huge world When it comes to the system of knowledge and order, you ask, should this be mastered and followed? You see the people around you walking along the veins of the world becoming clearer and clearer, but you are the only one who walks away into nothingness, and finally becomes silent.
You can't get close to people in the crowd, you can't survive alone in the wild, maybe you can live alone in the flow of people.
There's no way to find a place like that, maybe it can be created, maybe that's another option.
You ask g, "Is there such a kind of shop that can handle everything by itself without having to deal with people?"
"There is no such store."
You ask zjj, "Is there such a kind of shop that can handle everything by itself without having to deal with people?"