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    Live the most peaceful days, walk the most difficult roads, and live the most peaceful rest of your life.

    You asked my sister why she didn't stop you from going to Beijing, and she said, "What did I stop you from doing? I just wanted to go out and venture out while I was young."

    Dad said: "Going to Shenzhen is also very good," "But you can go to Beijing if you want. Actually, I don't understand, I just listened to what was said on TV."

    Mom said: "Go to Shenzhen, my cousin is there, and your classmates are there, so what's wrong with going there." You don't say a word.  When I came back from the toilet, my mother continued to say: "Before you go, I will give you one or two thousand for living expenses, and I will call you to pay for rent and other expenses after you find the expenses."  You go, the fare of more than 1,000 yuan does not matter, I will pay, go there to find a place to live, and after finding a job, she will come back."

    Didn't respond, just kept looking at her and let her finish talking.  You know she's upset.

    How lucky I am to have such a family, and how unfortunate my parents are to have such a daughter.  Knowing that they would worry and miss them, but they did not give up their determination to go away because of this.

    I have been unable to make up my mind and said to g: "In the next two years, I will no longer contact you. When I return, I will not get drunk again."

    There is a saying, the world is so big, who knows what will be lost when you turn around?  There are so few things originally owned, who knows how much time will change?  Still want to do it.

    From now on, Lu will walk alone with tears in his eyes. Since he has chosen such a path, he must endure all the bitterness and suffering alone. However, if he contacts G, he will definitely complain to her and complain about all kinds of things.  things, and then everything goes bad, and the business becomes worthless.  There may be other reasons, which have not been found.

    ? On Douban, I saw that many people said many reasons for going to Beijing and leaving Beijing, which are probably the reasons in their own hearts. In fact, the reasons for most people¡¯s choices are similar, and of course there are a few special ones.

    People are so forgetful, they forget why they walk like this when they walk.

    ?After finishing the graduation defense, I had a farewell dinner with my roommates, then left in a hurry, and now I am staying at home quietly.

    It will be midsummer in a few days, the weather is hot, and there will be a sweltering rain for a minute or two in the morning or evening.

    How should I describe my current environment?  Close your eyes, you can hear the "whoosh" sound of the fan on the left, and you can feel the wind blowing over your skin, bringing a little coolness.  From time to time, outside the windows on both sides of the house, birdsong and cicadas chirped continuously, spreading in the air.  When you look up, you can see the light yellow fruits on the yellow bark tree outside the window pressing down on the branches, shaking up and down, left and right in the breeze.  Now it is the season for lychees to gradually mature. When you walk to the balcony, you can see the tops of the green leaves on the trees in front of the door piled up with ruddy lychees.  Standing on the roof, looking around, what you see is a piece of green crops. There will be two rains every day. After the rain, the field will be green and shiny, and you can see the vitality of life in it.  .

    In this season, there are very few people in the village, and you can hardly see anyone walking around. In addition, the house is on the edge of the village, so you can hardly see anyone.  Get up every morning, after breakfast, half or an hour later, I start to put on long sleeves, trousers, hat, and long plastic shoes, and walk through a small road in full armor. On both sides of the road are some  Vegetable plots and some wildly deserted land with lush grass.  Then climbed along the path to the foot of the mountain, and saw a small depression, where there was a lychee tree, which produced a lot of lychees this season.  In my childhood memory, there are as many lychee trees here as there is a mountain, and it seems that I can¡¯t see them all. Now I stand halfway up the mountain and look down, there are only a dozen of them.  There was a lychee tree whose lychees almost fell to the ground. Every time I walked there, I either stood or squatted down to eat them while picking them.  When the tree got tired of eating, he went to another tree and continued to eat.  I have never met anyone there, only trees, weeds, dead leaves, cicadas, birds, and ants on the trees are not very annoying little creatures around.  When shuttling under the tall trees and looking for fruits, at a certain moment, it seems that he can understand the life described in Thoreau's "Walden". At that time, he must be extremely free and comfortable.  I also seem to understand his reason for leaving Walden Pond: I may feel that I have several lives to live, and I can't spend more time on this one.

    In the last days of school, whenever I had time, I sat on the balcony in a daze, even if I didn¡¯t have any mood to be in a daze, I sat there and looked at the scenery outside the balcony.  Soon, I will leave completely. While bidding farewell to my school days, I am also bidding farewell to myself.  always in my heart??Looking at the days in Tibet, under the starry sky in Namtso, I once said: "I never did such a thing yesterday, and I will never do such a thing in the future", qf and hfs asked if such a thing  Looking at the stars, you only agreed to make up for a while, and said: "Yeah." It's more than just stars!  I have always believed that most people do things for the same reasons, so is most people's graduation trip a grand farewell to themselves?  Qf said: "You are a senior, and behave in high school." This cannot be denied.  And at the time of parting, he suggested: "If you watch Douyin more, you won't be so quiet." He didn't refute anything.  The day before the farewell, I went to have a meal with my roommate, and after the meal, with the enthusiasm of gyc, I went to ktv to sing, and finally fled.  I ordered a tofu nao in a snack bar, and I sat on the entire second floor alone, crying bitterly.

    g said: "Two days ago, you posted a message saying that it took four years to answer a question?"

    "It was a kind of mood. It took four years to forget it. Later, because of one incident, I remembered that mood, and then felt that I was so pitiful at that time, and I no longer blamed myself. That kind of mood is a kind of feeling.  The answer." Then added: "I always felt that I was the strongest in my will and the weakest in my heart when I was in high school."

    "It sounds like you are very tall, what should you do, you suddenly become very tall now, and I can't even reach that height."

    On the way to Mount Everest, I was ridiculed by my colleagues because I didn¡¯t bring thicker warm clothes such as jackets, and I was taken with the attitude of ¡°I didn¡¯t make sufficient preparations when I came to this kind of place. What are you going to do?¡±  The tone and the slight reproach in the eyes, I always remember that in a Sichuan restaurant, hfs analyzed calmly, politely and methodically: "It's like this, yz, if you want to stay on Mount Everest for one night and watch the stars  , you'd better go and beg the proprietress now, and beg her to lend you a coat to spend the night." I always remember the tone of his voice when he said that sentence, and saw an insurmountable distance in that indifference.  That was the most inconsiderate part of the whole journey, and it was also the most sad time for yourself. You said to yourself, even if you are such a self, you should be tolerant!

    Over time, accept all past mistakes and immaturities, and stop blaming yourself for not being perfect.  So, a quiet personality is not a defect, it is just a choice; the xinxing in high school is not something worth condemning, and it may cause you to fall into various difficulties in the future.  The time when the consciousness is extremely blank, rejecting the intrusion of the thoughts of this world, and only seeing the clear wind and the bright moon, how precious it is!  You love yourself like this more than many things in the world.

    However, such days are about to go away, and this kind of self is about to leave, and then he will enter the world, the big dyeing workshop, and be dyed with various colors.  In fact, it is possible to reject such a future, or to make such a future slower or lighter, but it is not done in this way.  The reason I can think of now is that the past days have been dull enough, and I have no regrets, so I can pass them by, and I will rush to another life in the future.

    That kind of road is the most difficult road for me to walk. Only after going through the most difficult road can I be more calm about the road I want to take in the future.

    Therefore, after graduating, give yourself two years, spend it in Beijing, endure the wind and rain, quit your job after two years, come back again, look at the clear wind and bright moon, and think again about what you want.

    In two years, I should be able to stand alone, and I should have the wind and rain I want.  (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com
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