After getting to know x, I realized that there really is such a kind of person, who is inexplicably attractive, and unconsciously approached and automatically approached. Even a person like myself, who rejects the world, will approach unconsciously and open his heart unconsciously. She didn't do anything special, and she didn't take the initiative to approach, she approached on her own initiative. It's incredible every time I think about it.
X's bed was very close to the toilet, so he got out of bed and went to the toilet. After saying a few insignificant words, the long chat began. They are all irrelevant words, but I always feel that everything can be said in general. Ask yourself, your heart is closed to the outside world, and you will not open it easily. However, the chat with x is so unscrupulous, there is nothing to hide. Unbelievable again.
"You are very attractive!" He expressed emotion to x without hesitation.
"I think so too." X said without humility, not the kind of shameless, but sincere approval of such a statement.
Just talking nonsense like this, x said: "If you lived in ancient times, you must be a person like Tao Yuanming, who is indifferent and bright." Most of the people I know evaluate me like this, and I probably feel the same way, so I don't care In this sentence, this topic is covered by other topics.
Obviously young and frivolous, but so indifferent, it is not something to brag about!
The so-called indifference is just giving up everything, even giving up one's own life. Thinking that I have nothing, and I don¡¯t pursue anything, even if I get something in the future, I won¡¯t feel a pity if I lose it. Without obsession, what is there to fear? One day you will find that the things you pursue persistently are eventually imprisoned by it, freedom is, and so is indifference. Is that so, trapped by "silence"? There is no contradiction in being obsessed, struggling, and trying to get rid of it. Without obsession, you are looking for "obsession"; without pursuit, you are looking for something worth pursuing; without caring, you are looking for something you care about. That's why I want to squeeze into the crowd and squeeze into the world. If you can't grasp something, you want to be caught by the world because you are in the world.
If you can't find the answer you want for what you have done in the past, even if you repeat it thousands of times, you still can't find the answer. So is there only one thing left to do? I still remember that on the night of the coming-of-age ceremony, a person escaped from the jubilant classroom and stood by the small lake in Taogong Pavilion. Under the bright moonlight, he devoutly threw a 5-cent coin and made a wish of "don't grow up" . I remember a sentence like this: I want to guard myself in the deepest world of mortals. Has been refusing to approach anyone, refusing to live in groups, refusing to do trivial things one by one, just because I want to guard my little heart? Like a treasure, it refuses to be stained with any color. He searched anxiously, as if he had traveled through thousands of mountains and rivers, but he never took a step. Are you afraid that your heart will eventually be bloody and painful? Is it because I am afraid that my heart will become stronger! Now I don't understand anything, can't do anything, can't even talk to people, but I'm faintly afraid that one day I will calmly talk in the crowd, and I'm afraid that one day I will calmly deal with it One thing after another, I always feel that I am so sad, so sad that I can't bear to look for that future. When talking to g in this way, g said: "It's the same as the struggle history of the protagonist in the novel. At the beginning, he didn't understand anything, and then he gradually became very strong." .
When Z wanted to search for a more appropriate answer to someone else's question, he couldn't help but say for her: "I don't know what I want, but I know what I don't want. "Z said: "Yes, that's it." However, the fact is that compared with what you don't want, you know more about what you want, but you don't have the ability to get what you want, or you can't be sure of it. Have the ability to get what you want. Except for the love that goes deep into the bone marrow, it is much easier to give up than to get. For things you don't want, you can easily throw them away, that's why you said that sentence. I have been doing the easiest thing, and my life is as light as a feather, so I am eager to increase the weight of my life. Wishing to acquire all kinds of knowledge may be to increase the weight of life, but it has failed. So, is it necessary to constantly struggle in life to increase the weight of life?
The answer is in your heart, but are you still afraid of being changed? Are you still strongly resisting change in your heart? (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com