How serious is the despicableness of human nature? No matter how good a person does, there will always be someone who will say good or bad. For so many years, I have also come into contact with a lot of chicken soup texts. Have you really understood it deeply?
I have been looking at problems away from the appearance of reality. When I was deeply involved in it, I realized that the smaller the structure of the person, the more they will have the mind of "they are born from the same root, so why is it too urgent to be tormented".
I don't know how to get out of this situation. As far as I am concerned, the circle of life has always been such a dirty appearance. A small benefit can turn those who usually seem to have a good relationship into enemies. Hypocrisy hides on everyone's face. Pretend to laugh, pretend to understand, pretend to be friendly.
I am an ordinary operator in the factory, and my job is to watch the normal production of the machine. Each person is responsible for six machines. We work in two shifts. Day shift and night shift. 12 hours working system. Due to the shortage of manpower, the four extra machines need to be looked after by someone. I originally had six machines and was ordered by the leader to step in. Two more machines were allocated to me, so people started talking behind my back that I was robbing production for money
I never fight or grab anything.
I obey the arrangement of the leader. Even if I was very tired, I didn't cry out. There may be more performance elements in it. I don't want to appear weak. But such a result began to be speculated by people around. I can hear their cynicism, no matter how hard I tried to be a good person in the past, now they only remember that I am grabbing production and making more money
If it is for money, I can go to the studio to write part-time. How much will it cost me to see two more cars? Will it make me rich?
It will make me a lot easier to see two less cars. I can use these free time to write and play with my mobile phone instead of running around the workshop like a dog.
I feel out of breath. But can not argue.
The despicable sense of human nature is played impeccably at this moment.
When I got home and lay on the bed, I seriously reflected on my behavior. This is the environment in which I live. They are people who constantly watch videos on the Internet in order to earn a few dollars, and people who bargain with the uncles and aunts in the vegetable market for a few cents. Looking at standing together talking and laughing, how many of them are sincerely delivered? Why am I suddenly so prejudiced against my environment?
Perhaps my mood has reached the most negative stage. I haven't written a word for a long time. So decadent that I seem to want to give up my dream? I browse the Internet for meaningless news and scroll through videos that fascinate me. Day after day passed.
I woke up at noon and saw a message from someone on WeChat. It's a teacher I've been in touch with for a long time. I've been consulting about adult colleges for five years now.
At that moment, I suddenly decided to apply for an adult university. These years, I have been hesitating and wandering. Perhaps part of the pressure is money, but more because I thought I could make a living in the world of online writing, but in the end, I ended up failing. And I also sadly realize that I am 30 years old.
I asked myself over and over again is there still time? is there time? I have wasted such a long time. In the years when I left the books, I did not study except reading novels.
But more intense thoughts spewed out in the brain.
"I want to take a gamble."
What if I get admitted.
So after paying the registration fee of 8,000 yuan, I finally let myself have no reason to shirk.
Examination in April next year. Nanjing Normal University's Chinese language major, majoring in modern literature and ancient literature.
I don't know if I can pass the exam, I don't know my ability. But I just want to take a gamble, just in case There is only that expectation of "what if" in my life.
My sleep quality is getting worse and worse.
Closing his eyes with difficulty, his mind was full of hallucinations. Not sure what the future holds. I look away from everything and want to leave.
My current goal is to be admitted to Nanjing Normal University.
come on.
To the self who never gives up. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com