She has been asked for the nth time, are you not hot?
Although it was mid-April at this time, the temperature had already reached 30 degrees. In the nearly enclosed space, the hot air was like a pervasive turbid liquid, desperately drilling into the body.
She was wearing purple short sleeves and wrapped in thick blue overalls. When everyone took off their work clothes in the heat, only she was still wearing them.
So, many people asked her curiously, are you not hot?
"Not hot." She replied.
"No way." Others exclaimed.
It seems that I will sweat profusely when I sit still, not to mention running around non-stop.
"The mind is calm and naturally cool."
"Then your heart is really quiet."
Can you really be so calm that even in the high temperature of 30 degrees, you still don't feel hot even if you are wrapped in a thick coat?
She secretly touched her sweat-soaked back and smiled bitterly.
?Because I don't want to be discovered by others, so I try my best to disguise it. Want to be like normal people. In fact, everything is in vain.
At the age of 11, she fell ill.
She is often sick. When I was born, I was told by the doctor that I would not live long.
At the age of five, he almost died of dysentery.
In order to ensure her longevity, her parents recognized two godfathers and godmothers for her according to the superstition in their hometown. For good fortune.
Severe illnesses and minor illnesses continue. After finally living to be 11 years old, God may think that she was a short-lived ghost and let her live for so long. You can't take advantage of her.
So, at the age of eleven, she fell ill again.
is a skin disease.
The first place to appear is the neck.
When it first appeared, it was a very small dot. She didn't know what it was. Both parents are working abroad. Grandparents are very busy every day and have no time to take care of her. And that point gradually grows larger as time goes by, and it is out of control. When it was learned by the parents, the best treatment period had been missed.
When the parents saw the diagnosis statement issued by the doctor, their faces changed instantly. At a young age, she didn't know what kind of hardships she would endure in the future.
?She traveled around with her parents and tried many methods of traditional Chinese medicine and western medicine
There is no improvement.
Until the age of 16.
When she forced herself to drink a bowl of bitter Chinese medicine, she said to her mother, "Mom, I choose to give up on my illness.
After five years of running around, there is still Xiao Se in his stomach that cannot be dissolved by medicine.
But the transition from eleven to sixteen years old. But from a young girl to a young girl.
However, from cheerful to autistic.
From active to quiet.
From self-confidence to inferiority complex.
At the age of 18, I gave up the college entrance examination.
Perhaps her life has had a bad start since she was 11 years old. But her heart is not dark.
She is a girl who loves to laugh.
Even if she doesn't look good when she smiles.
She always does everything possible to hide her shortcomings. Even in the hot summer, I still wrap myself tightly. And many people want to find the answers they want to know through her neck, satisfy their curiosity and talk when they are bored.
Therefore, she has always been afraid of the crowd. Standing in the crowd, you will tremble nervously.
This is unreasonable, and she attributes it to inner timidity.
panic every summer. How to dress up so as not to look special?
Can choose to spend two hours doing makeup?
But she felt that it was time-consuming and labor-intensive.
Therefore, every year she spends her summer in a muddle.
Today's temperature has reached a particularly embarrassing situation.
30 degrees.
The sun scorched the earth intensely.
The place of work is very close to the air conditioner. But she didn't drive. Afraid of being laughed at by others, why don't you take off your coat if you are too hot?
She could only endure the heat wave after wave alone. Especially at 12:00 noon, the sun mercilessly evaporated her skin, taking away the last trace of coolness left. Dry mouth.
Just happened to go to another department to get materials. As soon as I walked in, I heard them discussing a skin disease. It seems to be related to her.
She pretended nothing had happened and left.
? My heart has long been overwhelmed, with mixed feelings.
But she can't stop working and show her face. Although I have already prepared to meet everyone's doubts with a peaceful mind. But I didn't expect my body to tremble involuntarily when I heard those words.
Like a struggling nightmare.
She walked faster and faster. Can you stay away from right and wrong by leaving that place? Don't all the people around you have the same vision?
From the first person asking her, aren't you hot?
It is enough to prove that those people just want to see what color is the skin that she hides when she takes off her coat?
red? black? White? blue? Purple?
She shook her head, don't think too much.
Things are already like this. The worst thing is to be laughed at by others for two days. They won't discuss other people's weaknesses once or twice.
So what if they discuss it. Would he still yell or pump his fists to vent?
She returned to normal. Keep your head down and work. At that time, she felt inexplicably lonely. Feeling bewildered like being exposed as a lie.
She listened to the chaotic voices all around, and there was no place to hide. I wish I could have a clumsy shell like a tortoise, so that when something sad happens, I can shrink my body and hide.
At the age of 16, from the moment he gave up treatment, he should have expected such an embarrassing day.
?From the doctor's advice, rest more, pay attention to diet, and don't think too much, but when she can't complete any of them, she should think that one day will always come, but it will come sooner or later.
Accept God's judgment calmly.
She is a person who is spoiled by loneliness, so she will do whatever she wants. Desperately want to pursue what the heart wants.
Suddenly, someone turned on the air conditioner.
Facing the light.
She saw his figure.
Fuzzy but extremely clear outline.
The cold air slowly flows out with the sound of the external unit of the air conditioner.
They have been working together for more than two years. Not familiar with each other. Except for a little talk at work, there is no intersection.
They pass by each other every day.
There was also a short eye contact.
Never thought about it too much.
Each of them is doing their own work in a law-abiding manner.
But suddenly moved.
Because it was too hot, he turned on the air conditioner. But he is not in this work area.
Still because he heard the conversation of his colleague, he felt sympathy for her, and then turned on the air conditioner
Maybe it's just a mockery.
The intention is to explain, are you still wearing a coat on such a hot day?
Various thoughts flashed through her mind.
Suddenly, I don't feel sad inside.
The bad feeling disappeared out of thin air.
Regardless of the purpose, the person who can turn on that air conditioner is like an angel walking from afar.
touched.
She is always easily moved.
They still see each other every day.
Every day is passing by.
She is no longer afraid of other people's comments and ridicules.
No matter how difficult the situation is, there will be angels silently guarding her.
Even if people all over the world abandon her, she still firmly believes that someone will watch over her.
God closed one of her windows, and must have opened another.
She wants to be brave. Free and easy.
Still firmly believe in the most beautiful place in human nature. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com