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    ? I closed myself for six months and finished a novel. When I came out of that dream, I found that the world had changed

    It turns out that not everyone will stay where they are and wait for me

    The wind blew her hair fluttering.  I entered a period of confusion that I had never experienced before.

    In the middle of the night, I sent a message to a friend on WeChat who had never chatted with her. She was a well-known writer in Gansu.  I came across an article written by her when browsing the website by chance, which was very similar to Zhang Ailing's taste.  I added her WeChat.

    Perhaps, in her arrogant eyes, I am so ordinary, without any achievements or fame, so I never chatted.  I don't like chatting with people in the first place, and it's just an accident and a coincidence that we can be friends.

    She writes many poems every day.  Reading what she wrote, I always feel sick and moaning.  She doesn't have the innocence of a literatieverything is full of fame and fortuneI can't judge her, because I'm not her, and I can't criticize her as a literati

    ? On the night when I finished the novel, it was my loneliest day, my whole body seemed to have lost my soul, and I suddenly couldn't find the direction to go home

    The interpersonal relationship was messed up by me. The manuscript for the composition competition was written and revised, revised and rewritten, and there is still no complete version.

    And the 260,000-word novel that just ended was returned by the website editor.

    Failure, panic, and uncertainty about the future drove me into a desperate situation.

    ?Because others can burst into tears with an understatement.  And I horribly lost the ability to socialize.  I tried to stand in the center of the crowd, trying to be talkative, but found that I couldn't get a word into what they were talking about.

    I want to find someone to talk about the sorrow in my heart.  But the people around me will not understand the difficulty of my creative period, they will only think the absurdity of daydreaming.  So, on that night.  I sent her a message.

    I asked her how to balance reality and dreams

    She did not reply.

    But I didn't give up.  Continue to send a series of messages, like venting.  I want to find an outlet for sudden sadness.  Squeezed in my heart for too long, I feel that I am going to collapse, and my heart longs for rebirth.

    "I am 26 years old, and I have to work 12 hours a day. If I don't go to work, I can't support myself, but I don't want to give up my dream, but I have so little time every day. I need time to create. Then I get along with my colleagues.  Time is scarce. Slowly separated from the group When I return to real life from another world, I will yearn for their warmth Is this world cold? Everyone is living for themselves. At the beginning I didn't  I would like to listen patiently to their parents, but now how can I force others to listen to my complaints?"

    I have posted a lot of sentences like this.

    After a long time, she finally replied.

    "Everyone is not born a genius, but born. Born is what you want to be, and you will work hard to become that kind of person. If you can't persist, it means that you are not suitable for such a role."

    This answer made my heart cold.

    Is it true that I don't have time to get ahead?  Can you just stand between noisy machines and do repetitive work day after day?  Can't you do what you love to do in your lifetime?

    "If you feel that others don't understand you, just think about Van Gogh To become a real artist, there must be a difficult mental journey"

    I'm not an artist, and I don't want to be an artist.  I just hope that the words I write can be recognized and understood by more people.

    She recommended that I read more philosophy books, so that the mind can be strong

    "What about bad relationships?" I asked her again.

    "You solve it yourself." She replied.

    I am introverted, this cannot change the fact.  Be humble in everything and everyone.

    I can't do anything well.  I don't know how to cook, I don't know how to clean up the housework, all the things that women should do, I behaved naively like a child.

    I know why I got lost in this way.  Because of failure.

    The term failure has followed me from last year to this year.  After spending six months not being recognized, my eyes were blinded by the cruel reality, so I felt dissatisfied with everything I saw.  My brain starts to think too much, and I feel hopeless about life

    And if I still maintain a happy mood like before, and always find beautiful things, then my thoughts will not be so narrow and fragile Can't stand any wind and sand

    I shouldn't let myself go down like this.

    In the past six months, I have come through with difficulty, so why should I care about the road ahead

    Whether you understand me or notMyI should be at peace

    Don't let the complicated and trivial disturb your heart

    If the heart is strong enough, you can resist the wind and rain of the outside world, not because others don't agree with it, but because you still haven't reached the standard

    ? Keep your head up, chest out, keep walking fearlessly, live, fuck live

    Only by standing on a high place can one overlook the insignificant life of others

    Come on, October (Remember this website URL: www.hlnovel.com
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