In the quiet corridor, Li Jingshen was leaning against a wall, he lowered his head and the shadow covered his entire face, his whole body exudes low pressure, making the passing cleaners stay away.
Shen Zhichu was being rescued, Li Jingshen looked at his fingers, this was the ninth time Shen Zhichu had been rescued during the 90 days in the hospital.
People of the older generation say cats have nine lives, so Shen knows how many lives there are.
Every time Shen Zhichu was pushed into the emergency room for rescue, he felt remorseful and wanted to kill himself. Li Jingshen's heart ached like twists and turns. He had never felt so powerless before, like a piece of driftwood floating in the ocean.
Zhao Qian came again today, and it was strange to see Li Jingshen standing in the corridor. Every time he came to Li Jingshen in the past, he would guard Shen Zhichu in the ward and rarely move. How could he go to the corridor to breathe today?
Zhao Qian is a sensitive person, and he noticed that the atmosphere was very different before he got close.
He stood one meter away from Li Jingshen and stopped: "Mr. Li, why are you here" It's a bit abrupt to ask, after all, he is just a subordinate who shouldn't bother with the boss, even if Even if you are curious, you should keep it in your heart and not ask more questions.
Zhao Qian wanted to change the subject, and Li Jingshen, who was lowering his head, said in a hoarse voice, "Shen Zhichu has woken up."
"Madam is awake? Then why do you" Zhao Qian suddenly stopped talking, because he saw that the light on the door of the emergency room not far away was on, which also explained why Li Jingshen stood He didn't go to accompany Shen Zhichu at the door.
Zhao Qian looked at Li Jingshen's constant rubbing of his temples, and couldn't help but softly said, "Don't worry, Mr. Li, if Madam wakes up, it means she's all right."
It is a miracle in itself that a vegetative person who has been sleeping for three months woke up, and what else is impossible.
"Madam is a lucky person, and nothing will happen." Zhao Qian's comforting tone was like that of an old lady.
But Li Jingshen didn't listen to a single word of these words. What hurt Li Jingshen was not only Shen Zhichu's fate, but also the unbridgeable gap between them.
Seeing Shen Zhichu's frightened expression when he woke up, he knew that the two of them would never go back to the past.
It is impossible for Shen Zhichu to forgive him. When she was suffering from stomach cancer, her husband drove her into the bottomless abyss with his own hands, where she was tortured endlessly and lost all thoughts.
An hour later, Shen Zhichu was finally pushed out of the emergency room. Her face was still pale, her lips were blue, and even when she fell asleep, her brows were still furrowed in pain, as if she was struggling in a nightmare.
Such a fragile Shen Zhichu hurt Li Jingshen's heart again. Shen Zhichu was only out of danger temporarily, and the situation like today may still exist.
And her disease, gastric cancer is irreversible in the advanced stage, no one knows how long she can live.
The doctor told Li Jingshen truthfully about Shen Zhichu's situation, and Li Jingshen was out of state, and his eyes turned to Shen Zhichu, and his whole body was wandering.
In the end, it was Zhao Qian who remembered them one by one. Generally speaking, the injuries suffered by Shen Zhichu had already exceeded the tolerance of ordinary people.
The injury in the doctor's mouth refers to stomach cancer, and the five medicines injected into her brain.
The advanced gastric cancer was detected in the hospital a year ago, and it is not easy to persist until now.
And those five nerve-destroying medicines made her body worse.
In addition, because Shen Zhichu was prone to autism and depression before, and now under the stimulation of drugs, her brain nerves are very weak.
"What kind of consequences will there be?" Li Jingshen asked, he was willing to bear all the consequences, even if he faced a delirious lunatic in the future, as long as Shen Zhichu would not die.
But Li Jingshen thought too simply.
The doctor said: "The content of those five medicines caused Miss Shen to lose her mind and her memory was disturbed."
"What do you mean by memory disturbance?"
"We have two preliminary judgments now. The good situation is that the amnesia doesn't remember anything, and the bad situation is that just remembers the fear like just now."
"Fear" is an unavoidable negative emotion for people, but if a person keeps falling into fear, tension, anxiety, and fear, even if Shen Zhichu does not suffer from stomach cancer, he will die.
"How can I make her forget everything." Li Jingshen fell into fantasy, if Shen Zhichu could forget everything, could they start over again?
If she really loses her memory, then this time it will be him who likes her to take care of her and won't hurt her again.
However, the doctor shook his head: "These are beyond our control. Mr. Li, we suggest that you avoid it temporarily. I am worried that Miss Shen will wake up and see you" The next words are self-explanatory.
&nbSometimes she even feels that her soul is out of her body, floating in the air and looking at herself who is crying heartbreakingly below, she can hear how miserable her crying is, she is sad and wants to cry, But the soul has already dried up.
What is it to be alive? She no longer knew, and was terrified. Only death was her relief.
The soul floating in mid-air was quieted, Shen Zhichu fell asleep for a long time, and murmured: "Can you carry me home?"
Who is going to carry her home? She can't remember.
Li Jingshen stared at her intently, with a painful expression on his face, he gently touched her face and kissed her lips.
With the previous lessons and the doctor's warning, Li Jingshen dared not step into the ward when Shen Zhichu woke up. He only sneaked in when Shen Zhichu was drowsy, and then sat quietly by the bed. all night.
Doing something wrong can't be redeemed by regret, and nothing can make up for a dead heart. By the time Li Jingshen learned to cherish and love each other, it was already too late.
There is a wall between them, and the wall divides two worlds, he is on the river bank, and Shen Zhichu is sinking in the bottom of the sea.
If Shen Zhichu dies, then he wants nothing and dies with her. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com