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The corridor was brightly lit, and Cheng Shunuo was forced to look up at Lin Yan approaching in front of him.
If it is said that he changed his behavior style before, trying to cater to himself.
So what she was facing at this time was the real Lin Yan. He just looked at her like that, pursed his lips and said nothing, his black eyes were unfathomable, like every time before, he blocked her breathless.
He no longer deliberately pampered her, forcing her to look directly at the relationship between the two.
Cheng Shunuo didn't move in Lin Yan's position, and his voice was not timid, "Then why did you agree to be with me? You obviously don't like me, but you pity me because I put you to sleep?"
Lin Yan's expression didn't change, his eyebrows were cold, "I pity you? Do you think you can sleep me if I don't feel for you?"
Lin Yan's voice was calm and unwavering. After he finished asking, his mind turned cold. How far was the distance between him and Cheng Shunuo? It made Cheng Shunuo feel that he was only with her because of sleeping with her.
Before Cheng Shunuo responded, Lin Yan let go of Cheng Shunuo's chin, and said with a straight face: "You drank too much, but I didn't. I knew what I was doing from the beginning to the end, do you understand? ?¡±
How could Cheng Shunuo not understand? Maybe Cheng Shunuo did not understand four years ago, but during the year they were together with Lin Yan, Lin Yan has always treated her well. Lin Yan is not without feelings for her, she understands very well.
It was this understanding that made her unable to let go.
She loves Lin Yan, and Lin Yan also likes her, even without one-thousandth of her, Cheng Shunuo is nostalgic. There is no way to care about emotional matters, but with one-thousandth of Lin Yan, she is already content up.
In Cheng Shunuo's past 20 years, if there is anything she will miss all her life, it may be the year she was with Lin Yan.
What really broke her down was never that Lin Yan didn't like her enough, but that she loved Lin Yan too much. With this love, she tried her best to warm someone up, but found that she couldn't do it anyway. Frustrated, she was beaten to the ground again and again.
She loves Lin Yan so much, but Lin Yan doesn't seem to be happy with her. He still leaves early and returns late, and he still can't sleep at night. Countless times, she dreams back at midnight and sees Lin Yan awake in a daze with sleepy eyes. Blending with the night, her love for Lin Yan became a poison that devoured her.
She couldn't warm Lin Yan, and he wasn't happy when he was with her. This kind of understanding finally knocked her down completely.
But Cheng Shunuo still couldn't bear it, she was thinking about letting go but at the same time she couldn't bear it, she wanted him to live a good life, and even thought, if she couldn't do it, maybe someone else could do it? She told herself 10,000 times that she would end this relationship that she enjoyed unilaterally. She hoped that Lin Yan would have a better life than anyone else. If she couldn't do it herself, she would be happy to agree with another woman.
But it was really difficult, she mustered up the courage ten thousand times, and she couldn't do it ten thousand times, Lin Yan gave a look, a hug, a kiss, she couldn't say goodbye no matter what.
At that time, she always thought that she would not be able to live without Lin Yan, and the turning point was the month when Lin Yan was on a business trip.
The two were very close, Lin Yan looked at her condescendingly, Cheng Shunuo looked up and made eye contact with him, "Why did you break up? You're asking me now? Isn't it funny?"
Lin Yan did not back down this time, and stated the facts, "If you want to separate, you can have thousands of reasons. I can't keep you. You were determined to break up with me at that time."
Cheng Shunuo didn't deny it, and said frankly: "I always thought that I couldn't do without you, but it wasn't."
Her eyes became misty, "The month you were on a business trip, my grandmother passed away. I have been with her since I was a child. I think I can't do without her, but she didn't recover from the operation and died on the operating table. When the doctor told me, I thought I was going crazy, and I couldn't get through to you at that time, but I didn't My mother went on a trip with my family at that time, and I took care of her funeral by myself , It¡¯s as small as what shroud to wear, as big as where to put the ashes I survived all by myself, and I can continue to go back to Via to work on the fifth day. At that time, I figured it out, and no one left Whoever can't do it, I can leave you too."
Cheng Shunuo's tone was not sentimental, she was just reporting calmly, but Lin Yan's eyes began to change, he never knew there was such a paragraph.
Cheng Shunuo has a very good relationship with his grandmother. Although he lives with him on weekdays, he will go home to accompany the old man on Friday, and come back on Saturday.
He drove to pick up Cheng Shunuo several times, and she would pull him out of the car. Cheng Shunuo's grandmother liked him very much. Every time, she taught Cheng Shunuo in deep and profound words in front of his face. Xiao Nuo, don't make trouble. Temper, you have to be with Xiao Yan, don't bully him to be honest.
After hearing this, Cheng Shunuo would feign anger and say that grandma was biased, and then run away angrily.
&n?? She quickly withdrew her hand.
Lin Yan looked at her without moving, Cheng Shunuo's eyes flickered, and asked, "Are you going back today?"
Lin Yan said: "Look at you."
Cheng Shunuo was puzzled, "What do you mean by looking at me?"
Lin Yan's expression didn't change, and his tone was soft, "If you don't want to see me, I'll go back. If you can bear it, I'll stay."
After he finished speaking, he waited for Cheng Shunuo's response, and there was hope in his eyes. Between him and Cheng Shunuo, he could take the initiative, but she also needed her permission.
Cheng Shunuo didn't speak anymore, she looked at him, but in the end she lowered her head, unwilling to even look at him.
Lin Yan had the answer in his heart. His heart suddenly ached, but he tried to speak calmly, "I'll get you the room card first, and I'll leave after I get it."
He walked out again, the distance from the bed to the door was only a dozen steps, but Lin Yan felt that it was as long as a century, so distant and pale.
He is not an emotional person, even so calm that he is almost cold-blooded, but suddenly he feels that his life of more than twenty years is really ridiculous and sad.
He remembered that in the summer of his third year in high school, everyone was nervously preparing for the college entrance examination, but he ran around the police station and hospital all day long, hoping that his father would take time out to see his mother in his busy schedule.
But his answer is always, can't leave, too busy, you go back first.
That's why he told Fu Yan that Lin Yi was the pride of the police station, never his.
But as for Cheng Shunuo, Lin Yan really doesn't know what to do with her.
He always felt that he was abandoned, and Cheng Shunuo, like everyone else, was kicked away when he was willing to show his heart.
He remembered that during the month of his business trip, he solved the difficult case and unloaded the burden left by Ji Dong. When he got off the plane, he always felt that even the color of the sky was different.
Thinking about not seeing each other for a long time, when passing by the department store, I went in on a whim and bought a ring, but he didn't actually give anything away. He was a little unaccustomed to the enthusiastic introduction by the cabinet sister. After a few glances, he turned and left. Before he reached the door, he turned back and asked nervously what styles girls would like.
He forgot what the cabinet sister said, but she said a lot anyway.
Anyway, the blue velvet box was hidden in his coat pocket. When he got home, he opened the door and went in. Seeing Cheng Shunuo sitting on the sofa, he suddenly became very nervous. He didn't even know what to say, and he was afraid of being seen. Something happened, so he had to tighten the small square box in his pocket, and hurried to the bedroom. He took off his coat, hid it on the top of the cabinet, and put it where Cheng Shunuo couldn't see it. Afraid that Cheng Shunuo would become suspicious, he was also nervous, so he took a shower, the hot water washed away his fatigue, and he seemed to relax a lot.
He hid the box on the cabinet again in the pocket of his pajamas, and then he dared to go out. Seeing Cheng Shunuo sitting on the sofa, he sat down nervously, but before she asked for a kiss, Cheng Shunuo and him Said, to break up, even the house has been found.
Lin Yan thought of the huge psychological gap, he anxiously wanted to give the ring, but Cheng Shunuo was determined to separate from him.
Lin Yan couldn't get out.
In the three years in the imperial capital, he obviously couldn't let go of Cheng Shunuo, but he couldn't get rid of the despair of being abandoned. He didn't want to admit that he still had feelings for a woman who abandoned him, but in the end he had to admit that he was He couldn't let it go, even if he was abandoned, all he thought about during the few months in the hospital was Cheng Shunuo, just like the few days before his mother died of illness, all he thought about was his father.
What to do, Lin Yan finally gave in, even though Cheng Shunuo abandoned him like everyone else, but he still wanted her and wanted to return to her.
However, Cheng Shunuo never abandoned him. It was always his fault. It was his indifference and timidity that hurt her.
Lin Yan's eyes were wet, and he put the doorknob on the back of his hand, but his fingers couldn't help trembling. He was about to push the door out, but someone suddenly grabbed his wrist. Lin Yan's back stiffened suddenly, and he saw Cheng Shu Nuo stood in front of him.
He didn't know what to say yet, Cheng Shunuo had already spoken first, "Why don't you go?"
Lin Yan was shocked, even his voice trembled, "What did you say?"
Cheng Shunuo: "I seem to be able to bear it any longer."
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Lin Yan: "Can those who celebrate Chinese New Year eat meat?"
A certain six: "A certain cutie who did not want to be named said that you can eat a piece of candy, but meat is absolutely not allowed."
Lin Yan: ""
A certain six: "Brother, it's not like you haven't eaten before, why are you so anxious."
Lin Yan: "Have you been starving for a few years?? A woman is as fierce as a tiger at thirty, don't you understand?"
A certain six: "What the hell do I know?"
No, I agreed to scold Lin Yan.
Why do some people say that I am a devil and ask me if my conscience will hurt.
I don't have a conscience, it won't hurt tvt
There are red envelopes today, happy new year. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com)A certain six: "What the hell do I know?"
No, I agreed to scold Lin Yan.
Why do some people say that I am a devil and ask me if my conscience will hurt.
I don't have a conscience, it won't hurt tvt
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