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The little sister A Sheng who always loves to listen to the stories I tell as a storybook once asked me: Is there such a thing? In fact, I made a mistake back then.
If she didn't say that, I might feel better. If she said that, then I was too wronged to leave at that time, and I was too wronged to live these years.
Speaking of it, after all, so many years have passed, so it doesn't matter if it's wrong or not. What I didn't understand in the past, after years of passing, I dare not understand anymore. I once presumptuously lived through it, and no matter whether I was wronged or not, I was only given a death without a problem.
If it were you, you would still have to figure it out.
The so-called facts mean that there has never been a process, only the outcome.
So for me, the fact is that during the years when I liked him, I was in constant anxiety, and he never told me not to be alarmed.
Perhaps with my literate mind now, when I look back and think about it, I can comprehend a lot of what he said. It's just that I don't have such a good interest anymore, so I don't want to speculate about the past.
With what he is like now, I am already overwhelmed.
It is not a long-term solution to live under the hedge of others, and it is not a long-term solution to be rejuvenated by a casual sentence or two from him all day long. I just hope that Mr. Rong can reply quickly and let me live in Chen's house.
This wish came true at noon the next day. It snowed all night in Yun'an last night. After the snow, the housekeeper of the Chen residence came to pick me up in a gold-encrusted carriage with a few servants.
There is still some distance between Liuzhou and Yun'an, even if the carrier pigeon breaks its wings, it shouldn't only take a day to run back and forth. If it really got to this point, both Yun'an and Liuzhou would lose face.
The steward of Chen's Mansion told me that it was not Mr. Rong's letter, but Mr. Chun's personal guarantee, asking me to go to Chen's Mansion to teach. He also emphasized that I was asked to live in the Chen Mansion during my teaching period so as to assist the two children to study hard. And it's tiring to go back and forth, and I must not suffer from teaching and educating people.
He educates one bite at a time, and learns one bite at a time. If I didn't know Xiao Chunyan's character, I would almost be moved to tears by his righteousness.
However, it is so good.
Before that, none of us got any news, and Jing Xian naturally didn't get it either.
I saw that he looked worried, presumably because he was not consulted, but was told directly by me.
At this time, I should express my gratitude to him for taking me in for the past two days, but I saw that he looked at me as if he was not ready to accept my thanks. Fortunately, I haven't finished the draft of the words of thanks in my heart.
He stared at me more like he was about to grab my arm and asked if I was really going.
Don't ask me how I know. He was indeed grabbing my arm right now and asking me.
Anyway, he also said that he would go to Chen's residence to teach. I don't think it's a big deal that I can't live in his residence. Besides, the carriage is already outside the door, it's not easy for Butler Chen to come here, he always has to bring something back, like me.
I really want to go. In the past two days, I have fully realized the disadvantages of living under the same roof with him. That is, my heart is always out of order.
"I've been in the mansion for the past two days, did I treat you badly?" His voice floated in the air, as thin as dust, ethereal, "Why do you want to leave?"
In a daze, I thought he was asking me why I left six years ago. Because he was in my dream, I asked him several times. But at this moment, he overlaps with the figure in my dream.
But I know that he should not care why I left at that time, why I gave up on him, and why I failed to achieve "I will always be there".
"Because" At this moment, I feel that Xiao Chunyan's lame reason is damn easy to use, "It's too tiring to go back and forth."
The reason why I say this reason is lame is because I went to the Chen Mansion yesterday, and I know that it only takes half an hour to go back and forth.
He looked at me as if he was asking why I was so tricky and perfunctory.
I shrank my neck. As if answering him, you have misjudged me, I have never been what you imagined, I am actually just perfunctory a person like this.
What he doesn't know is that I have been very perfunctory to myself. It's just that I have never been perfunctory to you in those years.
Well, I'm standing here today, but I still can't be perfunctory to you.
I seriously explained to him, "You won't be able to stay in Yun'an for long, and I'm a bit lonely living alone in your mansion." If I were more lively and noisy, I would jokingly say to him, "This is the reason." Do you see if it fits?"
"Lonely" His hand loosened a little, and I could feel his fingertips trembling slightly.
The biting wind passed through my ears, and I vaguely heard him murmuring helplessly, "I'm also very afraid of it."
When he finished speaking, he finally let me go. It seems that this reason is very suitable. He let go because he didn't want me to be alone. I guess he also has a deep understanding of loneliness, so he can empathize with it.
Loneliness is really something that everyone is afraid of. His lonely expression at this time told me that he had suffered so much from loneliness in these years. And as an old friend who reunited with him, not only did I not comfort him, but I also left without hesitation.
But I really don't understand, it only takes half an hour to go back and forth, if you want to catch up with me, it would be a good way to come to me in a carriage. Also, he said that he would go to the Chen Mansion to teach playing the piano and painting.
After all, it is not that we will never see each other again. I don't know why he held me tightly in his first reaction when he heard the news just now.
In the past, I went to Jieyulou to look for him every day, and it took nearly half an hour to go back and forth.
?I want to come to heaven to be very kind to me, and arranged for me to experience the feeling of being approached by him personally. My trip was really worthwhile. For now, the road to breaking the mortal relationship is quite satisfactory. Thinking of this, I sighed sadly. Hope he doesn't hear it.
Seeing that he had nothing to say to me, I turned around with my small bundle and wanted to climb into the carriage.
"I'll see you off." He seemed to have calmed down, and said to me, "Tomorrow I will come to you and teach together."
I was taken aback for a moment, and said bluntly, "Actually, what I originally thought was, shouldn't it be better for us to teach in singles and doubles?"
Between the drooping eyes, he was facing the hand that he slowly curled up and gradually clenched.
I dare not say any more. It's wrong to say too much, I used to make him angry because of too much, and it still seems to be the case now. God, how on earth can I please him once?
"You don't have to see me off, it's terribly cold outside." I rejected his offer in a low voice, turned around and got into the carriage.
The twin shafts rolled away, making a lonely creaking sound. The curtains on the two walls were blown up by the wind, and I was panicked. I turned my head and looked back unconsciously, and saw him standing where he was, watching the carriage and me I was riding in.
He is dressed in white as if blending into the vast land. Only the corners of my eyes are scarlet and I can see clearly. After a long time, I saw him suddenly squatting down, slowly holding up a handful of snow, and covering his face.
I think of the lonely red plum. When the plum bone was broken by the wind and snow, it was still very reluctant to let go of the fine snow falling from its branches.
I leaned my head against the wall of the car, thinking about what happened when I left Yun'an with the determination to never return, and after thinking about it, I fell asleep.
He clearly fell asleep, but the tear that was hot to cold in the corner of his eye was still so affectionate that it shocked me.
I fell asleep, but I can still feel the trace left by a tear when it slides down my side cheek, you say it's ridiculous.
I thought it was ridiculous, and laughed with tears in my eyes.
Well, I didn't fall asleep at all.
?After all, I just went to a place that took half an hour back and forth, so I don't know who else can make me feel bad if I pretend to be like this.
Just looking at him staring at me away like he would appear in my dreams, I vaguely understood something. I understand those things that I dare not think about these two days.
Maybe little sister A Sheng is right. Back then, I really made a mistake. I've been miserable all these years.
But after he had a wife, God told me again that I was wrong. He needs to have a little bit of affection in it to treat me well now. There may not be much affection, but if I took advantage of the victory and pursued it back then, maybe it would have become clear.
At this moment, I don't know whether I should blame myself for being too stupid at that time.
?God really gave me an undisturbed death in a down-to-earth way, which fulfilled my way of ending the mortal relationship. I appreciate it.
The wind outside the carriage was noisy, this time I really fell asleep, and when I woke up again, the sound of someone fiddled with the abacus beads came from my ears.
I am very familiar with this voice. Since I was fifteen years old, I really like to watch the sour show with my chin propped up to help sister Minmin solve those foolish things in her shop.
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1. Don't look at the lack of words in this chapter, but it is very important! Turning point! It took me half an afternoon and one night to finish writing!
And, the idiot has not yet adapted to the update of the v, and has not been able to find a definite update time. At present, I think it is still 2500-5000 words per chapter, and it seems more comfortable to write two chapters every day, what do you think?
2. Key words in the next chapter: Abacus beads, retiring marriage and opening a shop, "I will wait for you like sister Minmin."
3. In the next chapter, Xian Zili¡¯s flag three times: I actually don¡¯t like noisy women; if you can¡¯t learn to write my name in half a day, I can ignore you in the future; I don¡¯t like reading books, let alone Tell people.
Three flags flew up immediately! Let him slap him in the face every other chapter! Excited to rub hands! (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com)I'll take care of you; I don't like reading scripts, let alone telling others.
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