Originally thought that Chen Shan would explain my doubts to me, but what I didn't expect was that he actually gave me an answer that made me even more confused.
According to what he said, it was my own idea that I went to that world. If this is the case, what is my experience in that world?
Or, what goes there is only a part of me, even the current me is not the complete me, but like Chi Chi, it is the real me, a fragment scattered all over the world.
All the experiences we have left in that world are just a way for the real me to strengthen myself. Those experiences I have always cherished, those people I loved and cared about, in my own eyes, are just floating clouds.
If this is the case, will I still have self-awareness when I am fully integrated?
Also, what is the big plan that Chen Shan mentioned?
Seeing my gloomy face, Chen Shan guessed what I was thinking, he comforted me and said: "Actually, you don't have to be too sad, I know you can't let go of everything in that world, but you belong here, and what's there, There are also here."
I said lightly: "No, there are people there, there will never be people here."
At this moment, I suddenly remembered something and asked, "You just said that you have a way to that world?"
Just now, I was only concerned about the sorrow of spring and autumn, and after stabilizing my mind, I asked immediately.
At this moment, I just want to use his method to escape from this world.
In fact, up to today, I no longer have the ambition to look down on everything, I just want to join hands with the one I love for the rest of my life.
Chen Shan said helplessly: "I know what you're thinking, but I'm afraid you will be disappointed. The spell he gave me can only be used twice, and after the two uses, the spell will be sealed."
"Although I can talk about this technique with you now, I can't remember how to operate it."
I was a little astonished, and I couldn't imagine how powerful the real me was, and I was able to perform such treacherous spells.
Chen Shandao: "I only found out after sending your sister to that world."
I said, "Why did you send her there?"
Chen Shan was quite helpless, and said: "At that time, she was in danger, and I was afraid that you would settle accounts with me after you came back, so I thought of this way to save her life, thinking that when you come back, there must be a way for her to come back from that world."
I didn't believe it, and asked, "Are you sure it's not to spy on my life in that world?"
Chen Shan heard the word "spying", shook his head, put down his water glass, stood up and said, "Follow me."
I didn't know what he was going to do again, but I followed him anyway.
He took me to the deepest part of the spaceship, where there was a secret room. After scanning his face, the system of the secret room analyzed all the values ??of his whole body, and only opened the door after confirming that it was him.
Then, Chen Shanbi motioned for me to follow him in.
After entering, I found that the place looked ordinary, with only one bed for rest.
Chen Shan walked to the bed, opened a secret compartment from the bed, took out a book from it, and handed it to me.
But I didn't reach out to pick it up, because the book was moving.
Just like playing a movie, every page is glowing, as if something is running inside.
I'm worried that if I touch it, I'll be sucked in.
Chen Shan knew what I was thinking, so he didn't make things difficult for me. Instead, he opened the book and said, "This is an extra baby that came out of nowhere in my study after I sent you to that world."
When I read the contents of the book clearly, I just felt creepy!
In the book, my experience is played like a movie. It can be said that this book is simply the history of my record in that world.
If these records exist from the beginning, does it mean that every step I take in that world is actually arranged.
The ideas I thought I was brilliant about, my realizations, the people I met, and the power I gained were all written down from the beginning.
And I didn't have my own thoughts from beginning to end?
Just as he was thinking, the book suddenly emitted a glare of light, and then fell into darkness.
This book came to an abrupt end after I returned here.
Chen Shan closed the book and looked at me solemnly, with some sympathy in his eyes. .
The air was terrifyingly quiet, I didn't speak, but my forehead was beating wildly.
How can I accept that my life is a script from beginning to end?