Gone has many meanings, but the so-called one is gone usually has only one meaning.
But maybe Lian'er didn't mean that. I squinted my eyes and looked at the person in front of me, hoping to find evidence to support this idea from her expression. Maybe the meaning was simply to say that I was not in Huashan anymore, not to mention that Lian'er occasionally She will make some jokes, maybe she doesn't understand the seriousness of the joke, but she just wants to make me anxious.
However, the pair of pupils in front of him were so clear that even though he could not see much sadness, there was no sense of joking either.
But still not reconciled: "It's gone? What do you mean?" He simply asked clearly, fearing that it was a misunderstanding, and hoping that it was a misunderstanding. He couldn't describe how he felt at the moment, but he heard his voice was more stable than expected, but it was deeper than usual Only a few.
"Fortunately, I still take care of your mood, I want to say it more tactfully¡ª" The girl opposite sighed, and said quietly: "Not here, doesn't it mean that you are dead?"
In a word, it simply ruined the last possibility.
I closed my eyes and felt a little exhausted, so I took two steps back and sat down against the bluestone beside the bamboo, and took a few deep breaths, but I still couldn't get rid of this exhaustion.
It was a strange feeling of emptiness, so empty that it was so empty that it was separated from sorrow and joy, and it was only confusing. It was also a feeling that made me very disgusted and even frightened. Making a fuss, this is the sadness in the eyes of ordinary people, and the correct way to be sad.
But I can't do it myself, my eyes are dry, and I don't even have the desire to move my fingers.
I was sitting, Lianer was standing, I could feel her sight, but I didn't know what kind of sight it was, the surrounding was quiet for a while, and after a while she squatted down with her knees hugged, right in front of me, watching carefully Looking into my eyes, he said, "Why don't you cry? I thought you were going to cry."
It's a pity that I couldn't make her wish come true, so I could only twitch the corners of my mouth weakly, and looked back into her eyes and said, "Have you ever heard the saying that you want to cry but have no tears?"
"Of course I heard it. You taught me when you were a child that you want to cry but can't, so you want to cry." She nodded and answered calmly. Seeing that I was weak and wanted to lean back, she immediately stretched out her hand , at the same time, the footsteps moved slightly, the figure did not move, but the person had changed positions: "Don't lean around, there is moso bamboo behind, the velvet on the roots of moso bamboo stings people, but it is itchy and painful."
However, instead of leaning against the stinging bamboo fleece, the back leaned against a warm place.
This place is no stranger, it is not the first time we have leaned on each other like this, and at this moment, I don't have the heart to care about embarrassment and shyness, I just rest assured to give her the weight of my body, sit cross-legged, and put my head there At the neck, I closed my eyes and didn't think about anything.
She was also silent, so the surroundings fell into extreme silence, only the bamboo leaves rustled when the wind blew past, as if whispering that no one could understand, and a nice fragrance wafted in the air.
I really don¡¯t know how long it took this time, I just know that in the fragrance and warmth, the sense of emptiness and exhaustion gradually fades away, I feel that I have adjusted, or I am ready, but I still dare not open my eyes, it¡¯s just dreaming He muttered like a voice: " Lian'er?"
"Huh?" Her voice was clear, right next to her ear, without much emotion.
"Tell me" Leaning on that shoulder, feeling the constant warmth, to me now, this seems to be a transmission of courage: "Tell me the details, what happened specifically, why did Master, she This shouldn't be"
Gritting your teeth and closing your eyes, this shouldn't be, this really shouldn't be, I am a person who likes to imagine everything as bad as possible, but even I have never imagined this kind of situationMaster, she is in the prime of life, always in good health and in good spirits In the past few years, I have not even had a cold, and it is rare to meet opponents in the world in terms of martial arts, not to mention living in seclusion in the mountains far away from the hustle and bustle. No matter how you look at it, it is impossible to imagine how suddenly
"Oh¡ª" Lian'er's voice still didn't have much emotion. He just let out a breath and was quiet for a while, as if he was sorting out his thoughts. What happened in the year after that time, after that time, Master and she focused more on the way of martial arts, retreated more diligently on weekdays, and occasionally we came out of the seclusion to compete with each other, and each of us improved surprisingly smoothly, so the achievements of this year, I am afraid It can rival the accumulation of the past few years"
During the conversation, she seemed to have no important points, and she was always going around in irrelevant places, but I suddenly felt a chill in my heart, and I had some premonitions. I had never thought of this premonition before, because Master is such a great expert
However, the topic of Lian'er clearly refers to thisIt means to fold away.
"Then, it must have happened during Bailu's time. At that time, the weather was getting colder" The voice in the ear continued unhurriedly: "Once, Master was sitting in secluded meditation, and when he woke up the next day, he suddenly couldn't Moved."
"Can't move?" I repeated blankly, not quite understanding the true meaning.
"Well, I can't move." Lian'er is not a good narrator, she is not good at organizing words, but at this moment, she is indeed describing the scene to me in her own way: "I just can't move my feet. It feels like it's gone, and I don't know if it's scratched. Master said, it's because I was too quick and fast, and my learning was not pure, which led to the disaster of going crazy, and I can't blame others."
Her words were plain, just a few words, I closed my eyes, but there seemed to be a picture scroll unfolding in front of me, lifelike, Master is such an arrogant person, suddenly such a calamity came, but he still held his pride and refused to show weakness Instead, she calmly explained to Lian'er what had happened What kind of state of mind should she have been in when she did this?
"She refused to ask the doctor for medicine, so I went down the mountain and caught a few doctors to treat her, but they didn't get better. After a while, even her hands were not as flexible as before, so the master stopped practicing at all. Supervise me to practice every day, and talk about the affairs of the world in my spare time. I have learned it until the beginning of winter, and the master will"
Having said that, Lian'er didn't go any further, in fact, he didn't need to go any further.
The matter has come to this point, all the promises, all the wishes are all in vain, there is no support in my heart, the day when Lian'er leaves the teacher, I am afraid that the master will not give birth to a single thought, and all ties will be silent
The pain in my chest is hard to bear, and the vows are still in my ears. I toasted her that night, full of confidence, the days are still long, we have been together for ten years, but we are farewell, and there will be countless ten years after that. Touching, tricked her to wet the corners of her eyes, but in the end it was empty talk, and the words were better than the songs.
Why didn't I think that if Lian Nishang was destined to become famous all over the world for a while, then her master, who was also proud and upright, would be so unrevealed and unknown, and would pass without a trace in the whole story, leaving no one the slightest impression ?
But it turns out that it is not a wild goose passing by without a trace, but a fleeting shadow, which is fleeting, leaving only the imprint of Feihong stepping on the snow
Covering her face and rubbing her eyes hard, she was still dry, but she could smile wryly. The people behind her quietly let me lean on her, neither comforting nor blaming her. But I thought again, she was alone at that time. For these, even if life and death are taken for granted as the law of all things, I am afraid it will be extremely uncomfortable.
The most ridiculous thing is that the only person who can bear it with her is thousands of miles away, still having peace of mind and dreaming sweet dreams.
"Lian'er" When he spoke again, his voice was hoarse, as if sealed with a layer of wax: "Doyou hate me?"
I can't see her expression and reaction with my back turned, but I can see her hands around her waist. Her slender fingers are fiddling with my belt, as if bored, and I can only wait.
After being silent for a while, finally, I heard the person behind me gasp, and said bewilderedly: "Hate is not counted, anger is real, at that time on the mountain, the master was gone, and I was left alone, at a loss, I have no intention of going to play with wolves anymore, life is so boring, I want to go down the mountain to find you, but I don¡¯t know where to find it, at that time, thinking that you still eat, drink and feel at ease, I am so angry Teeth itching, I really want to bite you to death to relieve my hatred."
"You should hate it." I nodded, thinking it should be taken for granted: "I'm an asshole, I'm sorry for Master, and I'm sorry for you."
"Oh" She replied, but stopped talking.
The surroundings were quiet again, what should be said has been said, and the rest is just their own thoughts, the wind is getting stronger, the bamboo leaves are swaying, the sun is swaying, and the shadows are also swaying, rustling in all directions, even the ground. The yellow leaves were rolled up one by one, flying up and down, rising and falling, like withered butterflies flying all over the sky.
Sitting quietly, the body is cold, but the neck is hot, and there is breath sprinkled on it, and then, there is a heart-piercing pain.
Lianer has always followed his thoughts, and I have never doubted that I will do what I say.
That jaw was ruthless and merciless, as if I really wanted to vent all my pent-up anger, wishing to be bloodthirsty to eat meat to be happy, I looked up from the pain, but still leaned against her and did not move, because this was what I should have done punished.
When there was warmth dripping from the neck, the warmth finally leaked from the eyes.
After all, I still burst into tears.
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